Suicidal love

Harry styles is far from happy. He suffers with depression, suffers from anxiety and also is suicidal. All he wants is a friend, he wants to feel happy. He nearly killed himself twice. What happens when he finally finds a friend? Will Harry recover and finally be happy? Or will he kill himself trying? Maybe it will all be too much for him, but can Megan help him through it? Read to find out!

I love Harry and I'm not trying to make him this way in my story on purpose! I really wanted a powerful love story and I'm kinda dedicating this to all the direct omers who are suicidal an guys are worth it. But if this offend story or upsets you in anyway please is not read because I don't want to make you sad. I love you!! Xx


13. chapter 13

Chapter 13

Harry's pov

It had already ready been a week and I am getting through. But this week is nerve racking because they are only letting a few guys through to the next round.

After I sing and wait backstage anxiously I start to have a mini panic attack, and Megan isn't even here with me. She was feeling to sick to come so she stayed in the hotel we are staying at.

If I don't go through everything will be ruined. I want Megan to be okay more than anything.

Finally they starts calling names as I stood there nervously.

After a while I started losing hope, it was the last guy....and it wasn't me.

I couldn't believe it, what the hell am I going to do? I have to do this for Megan. I went backstage getting ready to go home as I bawled my eyes out, until they called me and four other guys on stage.

I had no idea what was going on but I dried my eyes and walked back onto the stage with the other four guys. After a few moments of silence the judge, simon cowell announced something that made me the happiest person in this earth.

"We are putting you boys in a group together" he said.

We all started crying and jumping and I fell to the ground in relief and pure joy. I was so surprised and so happy I was moving on, I can't wait to tell Megan.

All of the boys and I hugged each other, I didn't know any of them but I didn't care, we were going to make this work.

The day was nearly over and after getting everything settled with the boys and simon, I rushed back to the hotel to tell Megan the good news.

I burst into the door to see Megan lying on the couch watching tv.

She immediately got up and rushed to my side asking what happened.

"What happened!?"

" first I didn't make it. But then they called me and four other boys onstage and told us we were going to form a band..."

"Wow, really?"

"Yeah!" I said over excitedly.

"That's amazing"

"I know, and Simon said that me and the boys are all going to have to hang Out and make sure we become friends and get to know each other to see if we all want to really do this....but it will be a weekend and I don't want to leave you here alone, so I'm going to bring you with me"

"Oh...well Harry, would they mind?"

"No, I don't think so, if so I will tell them you are sick and I need to take care of you"

"No, Harry I don't want people to know I'm sick, especiIlly theses boys, I don't want them to treat me differently or feel bad for me. I want to be a normal person, and not someone who is dying to them"

"Alright, I ubderstand" I was angry but I ubderstood.

Megan's pov

I feel sick to my stomach, I was happy for Harry and this whole being in the band thing but if I have to go with him to meet and hang out with the boys then they will know how sick i am. I look really sick, anyone can tell.

I figured is try for him, it's going to be hard for me but I will try my hardest to be there for him. This Is his dream and who knows how long I have.

*next day with the boys*

Harry's pov

Me and Megan walked into the house that us and the boys were staying at and I was immediately greeted by a blonde boy who seemed very outgoing and generally happy.

"Hey! I'm Niall, isn't this just the most awesome thing! Well anyway, your name is Harry right?"

"Yeah, and this is Megan" I said with a huge smile on my face and ponying at Megan.

His happiness rubbed off on me a bit.

"Hello Megan!" Niall said giving her a hug.

"Hi" she said as she hugged him back weakly.

"The other guys are in here, we were just waiting for you so we can get to know each other" Niall beamed as he led us to a room with the other boys in it.

"Could I go the the room I will be staying in?" Megan asked me.

"Sure babe, I'll take you upstairs after we meet the boys." I whispered to her.

We entered the room and they all seemed thrilled to see me, I think we are all going to be great friends.

I put my suitcase down and greeted all the boys and introduced myself and Megan and they all introduced themselves.

"Is she your girlfriend mate?" Louis asked looking a bit mischievous.

"Uhh, yeah, she's my girl, but I'm going to take her to our room real quick so she can get settled I will be right back down"

"Oh I see, don't take to long save that stuff for night time" Louis laughed.

He seemed like the comedian and also very inappropriate. I didn't mind it though, I laughed with him.

I walked Megan up the steps helping her since she was week and could hardly do these things anymore. We got into our room and I let her sit on the bed then I turned on the tv for her and got her settled.

"I'll be back up to check on you or I'll text you, okay?" I said as I pulled the covers over her.


I kissed her forehead then walked out of the room and stood at the door which I had closed behind me.

She looked so sick, I felt horrible for putting her thorough all this but I just have to be with her and I have to win this money for her.

I took a deep breath and made my way back downstairs trying to get in a social and happy mood.

"I'm back, sorry" I said as I sat on a couch next to Niall.

"It's all good mate, how long have you guys been together?"

"At least a month"

"Where is she?"

"Oh, she is taking a nap, she is just exaausted from the trip." I lied.

"Oh okay" Louis said smiling.

We all had a good laugh together the next hour and we sang a few songs together but decided to go out and play some football instead.

I totally forgot about Megan for at least an hour so I got out my phone and texted her.

Megan's pov

A while after Harry left I started feeling sick to my stomach again. I got up and walked to the bathroom and started throwing up, it wouldn't stop though. I kept throwing up blood and I couldn't stop.

Eventually I thought I had stopped so I stood up but immediately passed out from all the blood I had lost.

Harry's pov

After I sent the txt she didn't text back so I got really worried.

I threw my phone on the table and I ran upstairs and I knew the boys would be curious but I didn't pay attention to them.

I rushed into her room but she wasn't in the bed so I went into the bathroom and saw her on the ground with blood everywhere, again.

"Oh my god" I heard someone say from behind me, it was Liam, and the rest of the boys were behind him.

"Harry, is she okay?!" Liam asked getting worried.

"I'm calling 911" Zayn said as he got his phone out and Liam Bent down to help me pick her up.

Well her secret was out. I can't do this, she is giving me heart attacks and I can't breath.

"Megan, babe wake up" I started to cry as Zayn just got off the phone.

"They will be here soon mate" Zayn said.

I couldn't stop crying and I kinda just wanted to be alone, this was so hard.

I picked her up and carried her downstairs and Liam helped. We sat her on the couch trying to get her to wake up until the ambulance came and she was put in the ambulance and I hopped in my car to follow her.

"Mate we will come with you" Louis said.

"No, I'll he back soon, you guys should just wait here" I said in tears still.

They agrees and I started the car.

This was harder to deal with then I expected. I just really hope she is okay, she has to be okay.

Okay so I am so sorry for not posting!! I have been really busy! But hopefully this chapter doesn't suck and I hope you enjoy it! And yayyyy the rest of the boys are ehere! I was so excited hahaha but OMG. Thanks for reading guys!

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