Suicidal love

Harry styles is far from happy. He suffers with depression, suffers from anxiety and also is suicidal. All he wants is a friend, he wants to feel happy. He nearly killed himself twice. What happens when he finally finds a friend? Will Harry recover and finally be happy? Or will he kill himself trying? Maybe it will all be too much for him, but can Megan help him through it? Read to find out!

I love Harry and I'm not trying to make him this way in my story on purpose! I really wanted a powerful love story and I'm kinda dedicating this to all the direct omers who are suicidal an guys are worth it. But if this offend story or upsets you in anyway please is not read because I don't want to make you sad. I love you!! Xx


12. chapter 12

Chapter 12

Harry's pov

I hardly slept all night long, Megan got up at least twice to throw up. I am so worried about her, I just hope I can get through this without getting to upset.

I woke up early before Megan got up. I had a plan.

I quickly got into the shower, got dressed in a nice outfit and made sure my hair looked good. I threw on my white converse and grabbed the keys and headed out the door as quietly as possible so I didn't wake Megan up.

Megan's pov

I couldn't feel Harry anymore and I started to feel nauseous again. I quickly rushed to the bathroom to throw up some more blood which was starting to sting my throat and fast horrible. I felt....sick.

I was trying not to cry and then climbed back into bed but noticing Harry wasn't there. I walked downstairs to see where he was but every time i called his name he never answered.

I went to the fridge to try and eat something since I felt really hungry from throwing everything up, especailly a ton of blood but as I approached the fridge I saw a note on the counter.

I started reading it:


I went out for a few hours. I hope you don't mind but I didn't want to wake you since you were up so late. If you need me just text me and I will try and answer as soon as possible. I'm sorry angel, I love you. Xx Harry

I wonder where he went, he never told me anything about it yesterday. I figured I wouldn't worry too much about it and just relax for the day since I wasn't feeling very well.

I took the medicine the doctor prescribed me and sat on the couch all day watching tv.

Harry's pov

Okay. This is it.

I closed my eyes and crossed my fingers as I prayed they would call my name.

"Harry styles"

I opened my eyes in shock and broke down into tears. I made it through on the X factor. This is going to be amazing, I have to win this thing for Megan and I will be able to pay for treatment.

I rushed home as happy as I could be, anxious to tell Megan the great news.

I walked in the house and saw her laying on the couch asleep. I didn't want to wake her but the news was too good not too. I shook her bit, saying her name softly so I didn't startle her, until she finally opened her eyes.

"Harry...your back home..where were you?" Megan said in. Sleepy voice.

"Well, I have some great news"

"What is it?" She sat up in confusion.

I grabbed her hands then told her.

"I made the X factor" I said enthusiastically.


"I'm going to try and win the 100,000 dollars for you Megan. They told me I was through to the next round"

"But Harry don't you have to travel and all?"

"Yeah and I need to talk to you about that too...I need you to travel with me"

"But Harry, I'm sick"

"But you aren't that sick yet"

"I can't believe you did this without talking more about this"

I stood up in frustration.

"Well I'm sorry if I want to help my girlfriend live" I said a bit too loud then walked into the other room, trying to stop the tears from falling.

I don't understand, why is she acting this way? I know she wants to be okay and if I win I can do it for her.

I sat down on my bed and cried until I heard Megan coming up the stairs.

Megan's pov

I knew he was angry with me. I wanted him to do it but I don't think I can travel and do all this with him, and I also need him here with me if I don't go. This was so complicated but I took a deep breath and made a final decision.

I opened Harry's door and saw him crying in the bed. This meant so much to him and I could tell.

I sat down on the bed next to him.

"Alright Harry...I will make an appointment with the dr. And see if he thinks it's safe for me to go with you"

Harry shot up his head and started to form a small smile.


"Yeah, I know how much singing means too yo-"

"The reason I'm doing this is not just because I love singing though, it's because you mean a lot to me"

I embraced him in a hug and we held it for about a minute or so until I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and called the dr to make an appointment.

*next day*

Megan's pov

We were already at my appointment and we were both really nervous, praying I could go with Harry.

"I went through your tests, the cancer is growing fast...I'm not sure if it's such a good id-"

"Dr. This is my only chance...if there is any way possible...please" Harry cut him off.

"I can put you on a much stronger medicine while your gone...but according to the tests you are going to become very weak and unable to do certain things...your going to get very sick, I don't want you to whare your body out."

"So I can go?" I asked feeling excited.

"Yes...but let me give you stronger medicine. And I want you to rest as much as possible and check in with me every Sunday to see how you it?"

"Of course, thank you so much" I have him a small hug and then after I received my medicine me and Harry rushed back to his house to pack.

Tomorrow, we are on our journey.

I know this is a very short chapter and kinda boring but I have been so busy and wanted to update for you all. Thanks for reading I love you! Xxx

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