14. No More
… At Night ….
Angela drove me all around London to cheer me up, she tried her best but I wasn’t responding to my kind hearted friend. She kept asking me to tell her, and eventually I blew the whole story to her. She felt exactly how I did, disgusted. She kept telling me how this was for my advantage, and that God wanted me to find out sooner than later. She was right, but still the feeling of betrayal was unbearable. She dropped me off to my house around 9:00 pm, and I rushed upstairs to lock myself in my room. I couldn’t even talk to my aunt at this stage; all I needed now is a long shower to brush the pain away from me. I took a steamy one, while all of the memories of Nick were being played back in my mind. There were countless numbers of wonderful memories between us, which I could never forget; but I have to since he clearly is forcing me to do that.
I slid in my Pjs and dove into bed, as I turned on my TV, and found Julia Roberts’s movie, “Pretty Woman”, playing on a channel. I took my tissue box in hand while I cried deeper and watched this romantic movie; it was depressing how much I felt bad about myself right now. Why do guys do such stuff? Don’t they ever consider that we are people with feelings as well? It’s just not right to go straight to the first option you meet, and make out with her; while you are already in a 2 years relationship built on complete trust. I never mistreated him, not in public and not in private either; so why did he do this to me?!
…. The Next Day ….
I woke up to my alarm tone pounding my ears from the noisiness. If only I could just keep on sleeping till eternity came. I didn’t feel like doing anything at all, not even a pinch of happiness what so ever; all I wanted is to cry more and sleep to forget. I took a refreshing shower, and during the process I made a promise to myself that no more am I letting myself have a heart break after this day, at least not in this way. I smiled to the fact that I always try my best to protect myself no matter what the situation was, and I tend to rise up like the phoenix bird from the ashes each time. It was something in me that I admired the most.
…. After Dressing up/ Heading to the Hospital ….
“You know what you need? (She took out a huge bar, and handed it to me.) This is your best friend from now on. Chocolate is the thing that will make you forget and never regret. Hehe.” I giggled to how Angela was putting so much effort in making me happy; we were in the lounge just relaxing after our shifts ended earlier. Oh shoot! I forgot about Harry! “Um, Angie I have to go, I need to um, grab something from the market and then head home to prepare dinner.” She stood up with me as my nerves killed me for lying to her; what could I do I had to keep it a secret. “Alright I’ll drive you.” Now what do I say?!“No it’s fine, I think I’ll head off alone today. (I hugged her quickly.) Bye see you tomorrow!” I didn’t give her the chance to reply, as I ran outside the hospital to spot a cab.