Story Of My Life

This is my story. Well i changed parts of it, as Liam, Zayn, Niall, Louis, Harry and Justin aren't my best friends :(
My story is about selfharm, eating disorders and suicidal thoughts.


8. Boys

"...All your insecurities, all the dirty laundry, never make me blink one time. unconditional, unconditionally I will love you unconditionally..." I sat on Louis bed with my iPod on max volume. The door was locked and I was crying. I would do the laundry of all these boys without blinking, I thought. Why did I eat so much? Why did I eat that less? What would the boys think? I locked myself up in one of the bed rooms when we got home. I cried even louder. I took my earphones of so I could hear myself cry and make sure it wasn't too loud. "Wonderful, can you please open the door for me?" I heard Justin say. I decided to ignore him but five minutes later I realized that it would make things even worse. I sat there for maybe two hours. I unlocked the door and went back to Louis bed. I closed my eyes and fell directly asleep.

Justin's P.O.V

We got out of the car and my beautiful girl ran directly to the house to unlock the door. I ran after her: "Rose, please let my talk to you!" I said. But she was too fast, she locked herself up in one of the bedrooms. It was the one with Louis' Niall and Liams stuff in it. Her bed was in the other room. Why did she go there? why didn't she wanna talk to me? What happened. The other boys entered the house and looked at me. "Justin, she will be fine." Liam said. I didn't know what to do anymore, I sat down on the sofa, watching at the bedroom door. "Justin coke?" "Yeah fine" I answerd Zayn. "Aww Justin, I wanna cuddle you and make you feel better." Louis said. "Babe are you cheating on me?" Harry asked Louis. "No, I love you more!" Louis said as he pecked Harrys cheek. I got up and walked to the bedroom. I nocked on the door. "Wonderful, can you please open the door for me?" I asked. I didn't hear anything. I was so confused, did she hate me? What did I do? Is she all right? How am I going to help her? I sat down with my back to the wall facing her door. After maybe two hours of sitting there I heard her unlock the door. Should I go in? Is she going to join us watching tv? I sat there for maybe one or two hours more without moving. "Bud, are you all right?" Zayn asked me. "Fine" I replied. "Let me help you to get up, It's 1am so we are going to our beds. Maybe you should go as well." He took my hand and walked me to the bathroom. I went to the toilet and brushed my teeth and went to my bedroom. My bed felt empty without Rose. Zayn and Harry were already sleeping. I tossed and turned, I barely slept that night.

Rose's P.O.V

The next morning I woke up with a massive hadache and two armes wrapped around my wais. I turned around and kissed the beautiful lips I saw. Then I looked at the eyes and I saw I was kissing Louis. I rembered I fell asleep on Louis bed and he probbably fell asleep holding me tight. He moaned and opened his eyes. "Morning Coockie" he said. He jumped out of the bed and put on some jeans. "Let's wake up the others" he said with a naughty smile. I kept wondering how he could wake up that fast."That's fine to me" I said with a big smile on my lips. "We're gonna stay up all night and jump around untill we see the sun..." Louis and I sung out loud while Jumping on the kingsize bed of Liam and Niall. Yeah, they sleep together in one bed, cause of little space. "Guys please" Niall moaned. We jumped of the bed and ran to the other bedroom. Zayn jumped on Harry and Zayns bed as I jumped on Justins bed. "Wake up, wake up, wake up, sleepy heads." we yelled. Zayn moaned and Harry asked "Did you make breakfast already?" I stoped jumping and laughed. Suddenly I felt two arms around my wais pulling me down. I yelled jokingly, knowing it was Justin. "Morning beautiful" He said and pecked my lips. "Morning prince charming.' I kissed him on his cheek. We lay there cuddling for five minutes when I fell a tear falling in my hear. I shook up and saw Justin with tears in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a kiss. After two minutes, it seemed to be forever, he kissed me back on my cheek. "Princess, I love you. I am so sorry about last night. I love you and I didn't want to hurt you." he said with a shaky voice. "Justin it's fine, really,.. I love you too, you're the best boyfriend I ever had." He chuckled, knowing that he was my third boyfriend.

-- flashback--

Bryan was my first boyfriend. I knew him for maybe a week when I introduced him to the boys. When he left they all said I should get rid of him. A week later he was back again and he started touching me everywhere you don't wanna be touched as a shy girl. He pulled of my thirt in the livingroom and I started crying. "Stop acting like a four year old!" he yelled. He lifted me up and brought me to mine, Zayns, Harrys and Justins bedroom. He closed the door and lay me on Zayns bed. He started kissing my collarbones when Justin came in. "What the hell are you doing? Leave my sister alone!" Justin shouted. He walked towards the bed and before Bryan could have given him an answer Justin grabbed him by his jacked and pulled him of me. Justins face was red from the anger and he kicked Bryan in his stomach. "Get out of here!" Justin yelled. "Babe I love you!" Bryan said to me. "Get out of here!" Justin yelled even louder. "It's over" I told him "I don't wanna see you again!" Justin pushed him towards the door and locked the house. He came back to me and cuddled me. "Hush Rose, I'm here now." 

My other boyfriend, Tyler, used to be really jealous. After a while of going to his house and meeting his parents and friends, I invited him to come over to me and the boys. He came in and looked around. " You live here with four boys?" he asked "six" Liam said while walking into  the kitchen. "Sit down please." I said to him. "Guys I'm leaving, see y'all in a week!" Zayn said. We all got up to give him a hug. Tyler grabed my hand to make sure I couldn't get up. "Zayn hang on a sec" I stood up and pulled my hand back. I gave him a big hug, he was my closest friend. "Zayn, please be careful!" I said in his t-shirt. "I will be fine" he said looking into my eyes. He looked at Tyler and said: "You should be careful as well, I don't thrust that guy." He whispered in my ear. "I will" I said and pecked him on his lips. "Bye Zach" I said "Bye Coockie" he said and gave me one last peck on my cheek before he left. I felt a tear falling down when Zayn closed the door. "Rose, he will be fine" Louis said, giving me a hug."What the hell, babe! you were my girlfriend, but now you're cuddling and kissing all these boys, I am done with you!" He yelled and left. 

-- end of flashback--

"Rose I really love you and I am so so so sorry about yesterday" He said once again. "Justin it's fine" I said and pressed my lips on his. He opened his lips a little and moaned a little. I smiled and he smiled back. "Guys please!!" Louis said "I wanna join" we all laughed. "C'mon Justin, Let's make breakfast" I said and Jumped up. He moaned once again. "I want one more kiss" he said with a sleepy voice. "Come and get it" I said and ran towards Niall and Liam. "Morning, happy!" Liam said while shaving. Something Zayn should do as well. "Morning! what do you guys want for breakfast?' I asked them. "Pancakes Pancakes!!" Niall yelled. "Okay, You're gonna help me when your ready?" I asked him. "Sure, babe"  "Whaaaaaaa!!!! I'm coming to get it" Justin flew trough the bathroom door. "No you're not getting it!!" I yelled as I ran away. "Breakfast babe, you told me you would make us breakfast" Niall said. Justin ran after me and threw me on the sofa. He held me really tight and we kissed. "Breakfast!" Niall yelled after five minutes. "I am starving! Look, my you can even see my hipbones!" he pulled his tshirt up. "Poor babe" Zayn said. Me and Justin got up and made some pancakes while the others were putting the plates on the dining table. After breakfast we all changed out of our pyjamas and waited for Mike to tell us what we were going to do today. 

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