Story Of My Life

Cassie Tomlinson is a 19 year old girl who got bullied when she was 16 by her brother Louis Tomlinson, and his friends Liam Payne,Niall Horan, and Zayn Malik, Harry didn't really bully her because he had feelings for her she had the same feelings. Cassie's parents hate her they never liked her she had no friends this is all about her when she was 16 but now that she's 19 she has her own house she lives in California and almost a graduate from Standford University. She left her parents when she was 18 her brother and his friends left for the X factor when she was 16 she hasn't seen them since than and she doesn't plan on seeing them but what happens when on direction. Comes to her university to do a presentation?


8. Chapter 6-Cassidy or Cassandra?

Cassie's Pov-

Harry just couldn't keep his eyes off me. he looked confused,and hurt at the same time. please please please, don't remember me Harry Styles! even though part of me wants to because that part loves him.but the other part hates him,for forgetting abbout me,for leaving me,for never coming back for me and especially for sleeping with all those girls! "Cas?,you are you okay?" i looked up confused. "huh?" "um you're crying" Liam said, how come i didn't notice that? "oh,um yeah,i..i-im fine"  i ressusred them while whipping my tears, it's not like they care anyways. 

"okay, like forreal,what's the real reason you're here?" Tess asked getting a bit upset. "well Harry wanted to come and talk to you both" Louis said. why would he want to talk to us? oh my gosh..he remembers me! please.."about?".. "well for starters,you punched me so an apologize would be nice" i groweld at Tess, she chuckled dryly. "your so halerious Styles" he rolled his eyes and turned to me again. "and you" he whispered than aused, i got so nerves and scared. "you kinda look like someone i used to know" he whispred again. i looked over at Tess and bit the inside of my lip. "oh,really, what was her name?" i asked acting like i don't know who i was talking about. "Cassandra was her full name,but she was mainly called Cassie" he explained. "oh well, my names Cassidy"  i lied. he nodded in dissapointment. "what did she look like? what was she like?" i asked him. "well um, this is her" he said showing me his phone screenlock picture. he saved me as his screenlock?! why would he?..i looked again at the picture, i had tears running down my cheeks and with a small weak smile. it was me when i was with Harry in my room and we were talking, he was calming me down that day..


"shh,don't cry Cassandra" harry said holding me in his arms, he's the only one who really called me by my full name. "t-they hate me H-harry" i said sobbing he shook his head and sighed lightly. "they don't Cassandra,they just act like they do, Louis loves you Cas, why wouldn't he? you're his little sister" i shook my head and sobbed harder. "just calm down for me love" i nodded and whipped my tears than sniffled. "Thanks Harry"i said smiling weakily he smiled back and nodded once. than it was silent. me being my shy self hid my face with my hair. he chuckled and removed my hair from my face,i blushed and quickly kissed me. he smiled and kissed me. i smiled too and kissed him back.

"Harry" i said once we pulled away. "hmm?" he hummed. "do you think maybe, just maybe that one day..we'll be more than friends..with benefits?" i asked him,having so much hope he would say yes. "i don't know Cassandra" he whispered. "we can't be together" he continued. "but why not?" i asked with hurt in my voice, i knew why..i wanted to hear what he says. "because Cass.." "you'll get hurt even more and i don't want that for you" he was lying.. "stop lying to me Harry,tell me the real reason please, just..i don't care if it hurts me, just please" i begged with tears in my eyes. "you know i want to be with you Cassandra,you know that..but your brother will hate me for life Cass,if we start dating than i'll get hurt and you'll get hurt even more" 

"i don't care if i get hurt more Harry,there's nothing worse that Louis can do that he hasn't already done to me" i explained to him, he shook his head getting up. "than i'll get hurt" "If you really want to be with me than you'll fight for me'll fight for us,even if it means you getting hurt" i whispered, he shook his head again."i'd do anything to be with you Harry Styles..because I love're not like everyone else..please,just fight for us please Harry,i want to be your girlfriend" he sighed and stared at me "We're two different people Cassandra..I'm sorry" he apologized heading for the door i nodded and whipped my tears. "Harry" he stopped and held on to the door nob "thanks...for helping me calm down" he nodded and opened the door,but i grabbed his wrist softly. "i'll never stop loving you Harry Styles,I'll always love you,i promise" I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks he nodded. he messed with his phone for a while than took a picture of me..while i was crying and a small smile on my face..he smiled weakily than left. 


"she's a very ugly girl,do you love her?" i asked him, i can't believe i just said that about myself. but its the truth, i was ugly back than, i was the ugliest girl in Doncaster. "she isn't ugly, don't say that, and yes. i did love her, and i still do" he said..really? "why?" i really wanted to know. "she was not like other girls you know?, she has different, yeah she was insecure and all but still she had her flaws, and i loved them, she was perfect" he explained. i wanted to cry and shower him with kisses and tell him that i'm the girls he loves but i couldn't. i held it all back in. "where is she now?" i asked. "she commited suicide 3 years ago" who the fuck told him that?! "oh, than why do you still love her? if she's gone,why don't you move on with your life?" he looked down at the floor and sniffled.

"she promised me that she will always love me, that she'll never stop,she  promised..and i want to do the same for her, i'll never stop loving her, i can't move on with me life, she was my life, i just couldn't admit to myself that she was the one for me" he said sobbing. i bit the inside of my lip and blinked back my tears. "why'd she kill herself?" i asked, he looked over at the other boys than back at me. "she was bullied" he answerd. "why do i remind you of her? i'm nothing like her, she's ugly,and fat and she got bullied..and she killed herself,i would never kill myself" that was the biggest lie ever, there was time where i thought about committing suicide,but i'm scared..but all the other things i said is true, i was ugly and fat..and i still feel like i am. cause i am. "you selfish stuck up bitch!" Louis yelled. i rolled my eyes and looked over at Tess. "YOU NEED TO LEAVE! NOW GET THE FUCK OUT ALL OF YOU! AND YOU MOVE ON WITH YOUR PATHETIC LIFE ALREADY! CASSANDRA OR WHATEVER HER NAME WAS IS DEAD! GONE! THE GIRL YOU ONCE LOVED OR WHATEVER IS GONE! SHE PROBABLY DOESN'T EVEN LOVE YOU ANYMORE!" Tess yelled. everything she said was wrong...i do love him,i love with with all my heart.. but she was right about one part, the old me is gone, like she's dead too. this is the new me. they got up and left. 

Once they were gone i started crying my eyes out, while Tess comforted me.. 

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