Little White Lies

Did you ever think one decision could change your life?
That one decision or one mistake could follow you forever.

Join Liv and Sarah on a journey of unexpected surprises, tragedies and big decisions. Will the decisions they make be the right ones? Or will they regret them in the future?

(*Warning*- throughout this book there will be some graphic content, if you are uncomfortable with this content please skip the chapter. There will be warnings in the chapters before and in the title of the chapters.)
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31. Why Do I Feel Like This?

Liv’s POV

Everything has been going so well recently. We have become really close with all the boys and their girlfriends. Moving in went well. Harry asked me to be his girlfriend, and I fell like this has been one of the best times of my life. But I can’t help but fell that something is just not how I planned it.

Ever since the day we met the boys in the shop Harry has been so sweet, and romantic and kind. He has always put us first no matter what. But then I look back on the day we moved in and I remember the feeling I got when I saw Liam and Sarah so happy together in their room. I should have been happy for them, but I wasn’t. There was almost a feeling of disappointment. Liam and Sarah aren’t together but I feel slightly jealous about the relationship that’s blooming.

Before we met the boys Sarah and I had been fans. We weren’t ridiculously obsessed but we appreciated their music. When we use to joke about meeting them I would always say that Liam would be my chosen love interest, but surely this couldn’t be affecting the way I feel now. We all say stuff like that about people but opinions always change when you meet someone personally.

Maybe I feel restricted because now I am with Harry. Maybe I’m just playing around with ‘what if?’. Or maybe there is something I’m not admitting to myself?

Sarah’s POV

Waking up this morning I’m feeling overly happy. It’s a beautiful day outside, the business is doing great, I have amazing friends and it’s a Saturday!

I must admit, these past few weeks have been my happiest. I feel like Liam and I have a blossoming friendship, the girls have become some of my most trusted and loved friends, Niall, Zayn and Louis have become my brothers and Harry has become one of my best friends.

Ever since the day we moved in Harry and I have started to become close. We tell each other everything. I trust him with my life and he is so open to me about everything that’s going on. Although we are almost polar opposites we have actually experienced many of the same situations which makes me feel like he can comprehend what I’m dealing with.  Liv has been happy too. Nothing makes me happier than to see that she is happy. She has been through so much throughout her life, I feel like this is her time to be happy.

My clock flashes 10:30 so I decide it’s best if I get up. Turning to grab my phone of the bedside table I notice a note,

I went to the supermarket to grab some things,

I shouldn’t be long but if you need anything give me a buzz!

-Liam

I smile at his note before quickly messaging him telling him I didn’t need anything.  Finally rolling out of bed I head to the bathroom and take a quick shower before blow drying my hair and putting it up in a ponytail. Walking back into my room I choose some comfy clothes for the day before putting them on quickly not wasting any time. Looking around I notice that my morning routing had only taken me 25 minutes! Smiling to myself I decide to make the bed before heading downstairs for breakfast.

**KNOCK, KNOCK**

“Come in” I call to the person on the other side of the door as I finish straightening the bed sheets, looking towards the door I notice Liv with a blank face.

“Hey Liv you alright?” I ask before patting my bed indicating for her to sit down.

“Um.. yeahh I’m alright, I just... I’m just confused” she replies while playing with her nails.

“Okay? What’s happened?” I ask while grabbing the desk chair and placing it in front of her so we were facing.

“No nothing’s happened... you know what don’t worry about it I’ll sort it out it’s probably nothing anyway.” She says while getting up.

“No Liv, come on we are sisters you can tell me anything” I reply while grabbing her wrist making her sit back down on the bed.

“Come on tell me what’s up” I say trying not to sound like I’m pressuring her.

“I don’t know why and I feel like its eating me up inside, I think I’m gaining feelings for someone else. I never intended on it happening, it just did. I don’t know why it’s him or why now but I don’t know what to do and the last thing I even wanted was to hurt Harry, and I am so scared that this will ruin things for us and our relationship...” She sobs while tears streamed down her face. I can tell she is really upset by the whole situation but how she could feel that way for someone else while she is dating Harry confuses me. I never thought I would feel disappointed at her but I truly am.

“Who is it” I ask more harshly then intended.

“I had feelings ages ago for him but I pushed them aside because my head was telling me my feelings were purely because of who he was. But then I got to know him properly and the feelings started to show again. I was able to hide them for so long until the day we moved in.... I saw you two cuddling on the bed and jealousy filled my body..” before she was able to finish explaining i cut her off in pure shock.

“LIAM. THE PERSON YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR IS LIAM” I spit at her so angry I could barely look at her.

“Of all people you could have feelings for and you go after the one guy that I am in love with” I say harshly while getting off my chair and pacing up and down my room.

“You love him?” she asks in almost a whisper as she could sense how hurt I was.

“Yes Liv I said it. I love him. But I’m not like you, I can’t just express my feelings to whatever guy I like. Hell i barely even talk to guys most of the time. Don’t ruin this for me now, you have something so perfect going on for you and you wanna get in the way of my potential happy ending. You will tell Harry. And you will tell him everything, because despite what you think Harry does not deserve this at all and if you don’t tell him I will” i reply cruelly while looking her in the eyes letting her know i was far from joking.

“Sarah I’m so sorry. I never meant for this to affect you. I was never going to act on my feelings, I was just sad and confused and needed someone to talk too. I promise I will push all this past me. I can’t tell him it would ruin him. He’s is so happy right now I can’t ruin that for us. Please don’t say anything” she begs me as more tears stream down her face.

“Yeah well you should have thought about the consequences cause now you might lose everything you love” I say to her in my most harsh voice before opening the door and slamming it behind me. Harry needs to know. He does not deserve this and if it means that i tell him then that’s what I’m going to do, because he is not going to get his heart broken I won’t let it.

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