Are We Over?

I'm Kennedy Angle Rite. I'm 19 years old and me and Niall are in love with each other. We've been dating for three years. But it's been becoming depressing, cause I'm always alone. And he's always out either with the boys a friend or tour. What should I do?

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9. Tour Mates

Kennedy's POV.....

It's been the best five months ever! Well actually I feel empty, like I'm missing something or someone. But Tori is engaged now. And I feel like third wheeler on my tour with Jordan with us. And yes I agree it's kind to young for her to be engaged. But hey love is love. I can't stop it.

A lot has changed in five months. In one month days I'm gonna be 20. My hair has changed to a dip-dye blue with electric high lights (Like Jade Thirlwall used to have). I've done 90 shows goal is 100. I'm in Paris now touring. And today I get my tour mates of who is gonna tour with me. All I've got is John Newman and someone else.

And today I get to meet both of them.

I wake up hearing the birds chirping and I smile and get up and brush my teeth wash my face like usually. Then I put on some sweats and a tank top then left putting my hair in a pony tail knowing that my hair stylist/makeup artist/designer Leanna would help me. I arrive and Heather pulls me to the makeup room and says.

"Leanna she's here. And John will be here in 20 minutes. The other crew will be here in 25 so that gives you time to get changed and makeup done."

"Okay."

Is sit down and Leanna shows me a outfit.

"So I think you'll like this so get changed Girly!"

She says excitedly. I give her smile and start to change in a half bathroom.

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I go out and she gasped.

"You look gorges. Now lets fix your hair."

I sat in the chair and she started to dye my hair more blue and put more electric blue highlights in my hair. She got finished and Heather knocked on the door saying three it.

"John is here!"

I get up from my seat and say to Leanna.

"Thanks."

"Welcome darling."

And I walk out then see John. I tap on his shoulder he turns around and I say.

"Hi! Nice to meet you I'm Kennedy."

And I embrace him with a hug feeling nervous inside. Then he says.

"Very nice to meet you. I'm John."

I let go and say.

"I was actually really happy to meet you."

"Just to hear that from you feels great. And I was actually thinking like err I don't think she'll like me or not."

"Oh just act like I'm a old best friend."

"Ha! It's kinda hard doing that cause I'm talking to the Kennedy Rite. A born legend like wow. But I'll try."

I laugh and say.

"Well, I'm a cool person so u won't judge cause I'm weird, crazy, clumsy so yeah. But it's a pleasure to meet you darling."

"You to."

And we start talking about clothes and fashion and other celebrities.

Niall's POV.......

It's killing me not seeing Kennedy every time I try I screw up. I tried jumping off a hotel building but Liam caught me, I tried starving myself but Harry cooked good foods, I tried throwing up but Zayn stops me, and I tried taking pills but Louis took me to the hospital. I've tried anything to kill myself but nothing will work! All I want to do is see Kennedy and have her in my life forever and never let her go ever. Perrie is still angry at me and crying that she can't get her best friend back and it's all my fault so what I'm going to do is not try at all, and to not give it my best so everyone can be happier with me.

As we leave to the black van I hear that we will be touring with Kennedy and John Newman and just hearing her name made my heart break more than it is right now. Then Zayn says.

"Niall.. You gonna be alright?"

I sigh and mumble.

"....sure....."

We arrive and the car comes to a complete stop and as we get close to that door my stomach grows butterflies.

The doors open and I see lots of people in the studio then I see her laughing with some guy which makes me jealous quickly then her manger leads us to her ad that guys and clears her throat she looks up with her sparkling gorgeous eyes and those eyes look straight at me and her smile turns into a frown and my face stays into a frown. I look down breaking our eye contact and Heather says.

"John Newman, one direction. One direction, John Newman. Hurry and introduce each other and then John Kennedy recording time then you guys go to your hotels and relax for the rest of the day."

And Heather leaves talking on her phone.

Kennedy's POV.....

When I saw them I frowned and only at Niall cause he looked so pale and horrible and it killed me inside seeing him have so much hurt in his blue eyes and pale and I missed him so much but I have to stay strong.

"Hi I'm Liam, that's Harry, Louis, Zayn, and Niall... And hi Kennedy."

And I mumbled.

"Hi."

And John shakes all of there hands and says.

"Nice to meet you boys and Kennedy you know them?"

"Yeah dated two outta the five.... Shall we go to the booth now John?"

And I turn around followed by the boys and then John gave me a piece of paper of the two songs I was gonna feature in from his album tribute and he gives me the lyrics to Cheating and Losing Sleep and first was Losing Sleep. We both went in the booth putting the head phones on and the music starts so John sings first.

John:

It's 3 AM, I'm calling in to tell you that without you here

I'm losing sleep

I'm losing sleep

Nervous, I'm around these lonely eyes, that's leaving me filled with fear

I'm losing sleep

I'm losing sleep

Kennedy:

And I know what it's like

To be a child scared of the night

Kennedy/John:

Please don't stop loving me, loving me

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Wanting me, wanting me like you do

Please don't stop caring now, caring now

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Caring now, caring now like you do

Kennedy:

I know you have to work out there, it's for the best, but can't you see?

I'm losing sleep

I'm losing sleep

Remember telling you to go, you've always done what's good for me

I'm losing sleep

I'm losing sleep

John:

And I know what it's like

To be a child scared, so scared of the night

John/Kennedy:

Please don't stop loving me, loving me

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Wanting me, wanting me like you do

Please don't stop caring now, caring now

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Caring now, caring now like you do

Running from the dark but I just can't hide

Dreading sundown, yeah I'm dreading the night

Need you back here 'cause it feels so wrong yeah

Please don't stop loving me, loving me

(Kennedy: No no no no no no no no)

Loving me, loving me like you do

Darling no oh oh

Please don't stop caring now, caring now

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Caring now, caring now

Please don't stop loving me, loving me

No no no no no no no no

Wanting me, wanting me like you do

John: It's 3 AM, I'm calling in to tell you that without you here

I'm losing sleep

I'm losing sleep.

The song ends and I smile at John we switch the lyrics to Cheating and I skim threw it and it has some pretty hard core lyrics and so when the music starts John starts to sing.

John:

I saw you Sunday, Monday

Hanging with your man again

You came back on a Tuesday

With that cold-heart look of shame

Oh I could love you better

Better than you once knew

And if you're cheating, cheat on, yeah

'Cause cheating's just a thing you do

It's just a thing you do

Kennedy:

I saw you Friday, Saturday

Tearing up another heart

You came home a' crying

Why'd you take it all so hard?

Kennedy/John:

You know I love you better

Better than you once knew

And if you're cheating, cheat on, yeah

But I would never cheat on you

Yeah, I could love you better

Better than you once knew

And if you're cheating, cheat on, yeah

'Cause cheating's just the thing you do

It's just a thing you do, yeah

John:

(Kennedy:Ohhh)

I've been told you baby

Girl you done some things so bad to me

And I know

John:

You are the one that's creeping,

You are the one that's cheating,

But if your heart is beating,

Bring it on, bring it to me.

Kennedy:

You are the one that's creeping

You are the one that's cheating

But if your heart is beating

Bring it on, bring it to me.

Kennedy/John:

I could love you better

Better than you once knew

And if you're cheating, cheat on,(Kennedy: yeah)

But I would never cheat on you, no.

I could love you better

Better than you once knew

And if you're cheating, cheat on, (Kennedy: yeah)

'Cause cheating's just a thing you do, oh no no no.

We end and I felt like crying when I looked up and saw Niall with teary eyes trying to hold his tears. Back sniffing his nose but I held it all in and left to booth with John behind me everyone claps and heather says.

"Okay you guys have the rest of the day off have fun."

She gives us the hotel keys and we get into a van for all of us and I'm sitting right I front of Niall feeling so awkward. The van finally comes to a complete stop and I jump out and run into the hotel with the boys behind and our bodyguards. We finally make it inside skipping the fans and the paparazzi and head to the fifth floor which was the highest and I had room 304 John had 303 Niall had 305 Zayn had 306 Liam had 303 and Louis had 307. And then before they call go into there rooms I say.

"Wait! Guys you wanna celebrate to this tour? And new tour mates?"

And John says.

"I'm in."

And Zayn says.

"What time?"

"About 8?"

"Count me in love."

Louis says and heads inside and I smile and Niall gives me the littlest smile and I frown of seeing how beat up he is and he frowns and looks down and walks inside then John comes into my room with me and says.

"I want to help pick out your clothes."

And we go searching threw my clothes. Hopefully this won't be so awkward.

Niall's POV......

Her smile sparkled the whole world until she made eye contact with me and frowned and I felt unwanted then Harry says.

"Niall!! We totally need you to get her back bro. It's hurting us and bringing us down if one isn't feeling right."

"Harry's right lad. What can we do?"

Liam said.

"...I..I don't know..."

"Well we will try anything just to get you to back together promise. Now get ready lad. Dress nicely impress her."

Zayn says as he leaves my room patting my back and I just stand there empty with my Kennedy in my arms telling me its gonna be alright and giving me hugs and these amazing kisses. I can't take it anymore!!!!

I grab a knife from the kitchen and go to the bathroom then I start to cut myself badly and deeply. I then stop myself hearing Louis say.

"You alright buddy?"

Threw my room door and I say.

"Yeah just tripped on my suitcase I'm alright..."

"Okay bud call me if you need me."

"Alright!"

And I hear silence and wipe up all the blood and put skin makeup on my wrist.

I miss her so much.....

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