The Secret Instagram

Blurb Who would want me I'm just me. I've been the same old Jess for 13 years nothing special here. Who would want a girl that suffers from post traumatic stress who lost her best friend , the girl who's family doesn't want her anymore. Why would they want me and love me when I don't even love myself. I promised Brenden I would accept them. But what happens if they don't accept me. ? Maybe they are my ticket to seeing Michael again but I can't leave Bodee. What if he will leave me first? What if they find my Secret Instagram


4. The after math...


2 years later 

Jess's POV 

After Becca's funeral I changed into a completely different person. It wasn't for the better either. I started to stop talking to everyone except Brenden my mom got so frustrated with me and didn't want me anymore so she put me in foster care 3 months after becca's funeral. 

I am now 13 I made one new friend in here but other than that I never talk to anyone else. I still stay in touch with Brenden I meet him at the tree house on the last Saturday of every month. I miss him a lot but I met a boy that was a lot like him his name is Bodee he is my only friend in here. That's only cause I never talk to anyone else. Bodee understood me like Brenden  but I could never like him or love him like I do Brenden.

When I first got in to London Orphanage I was raped by the one staff member Zack he was 24 years old. He told me we were going to the lunch hall but he pushed into a closet and raped me and told me if I ever told he would kill Brenden. I didn't have to tell anyone because there was a hidden camera in the closet soon after Zack was arrested and sent to jail all the way in America so he could never find me again. 


One day I started walking down the hall when I saw this boy about my age on the stairs he just looked all alone he had a paper and pencil in his hand and was writing a lot. I walked over to him careful not to disturb him and see what he was writing when I realized what it was I tore the paper from him ripped it in half and broke the pencil. He stood up and the first thing I did was hug him I was not going to see this happen again. I didn't even know this boy but I felt connected with him. He hugged me back and started crying by this time I was in tears I don't know why but when I realized what I just did I was proud of my self. I grabbed his hand intertwining our fingers and walked with him to my room. 

I grabbed my key and unlocked the door I lead him over to my bed and sat down I started at him. I started to talk.

"why" I croaked 

"Why not no one loves me anymore I have no reason to live everyone hates me. They are always telling me to do it so was finally giving them what they want." He yelled 

" No" I said 

"No what it's true" he still screamed 

"No it's not true listen here ? A -a-a?


" Listen bodee I just met you and I can already feel a connection between us and I will not lose a connection this strong again" I looked at the ground and thought of becca

" What do you mean again?" He questioned 

" I knew I would have to tell someone in here this one day just never knew it would be this soon. I lost my best friend 2 years again to suicide that's why I'm in here. I got so depressed I never talked to anyone and my mother got so frustrated with me she didn't know what to do so she put me in here." I was worried about what he would say I'm very touchy about this. 


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