Let me love you - Friendzone

Emma O'Brian:
Never thought that one night could have changed my life as much as this night did.
but there must come something good out of all the bad right? but for now I'm done. Done with boys, done with friends, done with everything.
just didn't think that that night would have changed that too..

Niall Horan:
feeling lost, feeling alone and felling like I'm going to stay that way forever isn't what people needs to see. so hiding at my dads house was the only way to disappear for a while. at least until people knows I'm there.


5. Final decision

- Emma -


We hadn't talked about last night at all more than me agreeing to marry him. we ate and then he had to go back to his dads place. he had been there all day and he sent me a text saying he was going to stay with his dad for the night, since he had given him a guilt trip for not spending that much time with them.

So while he was staying with his family, I was packing up my room and all of the stuff that I was going to have with me when I moved out. My room was full of boxes and I was just about done with the last box of clothes when the doorbell rung. I had high hopes on Niall to stand by his proposal, that he would help me out of this even if I wanted to be independent and just move to a place of my own first. I needed him more now than I ever thought I would come to need anyone in my life, more than I ever thought when I first met him in the park just a few nights ago.

I had gotten some boxes down from the attic last night when I couldn't sleep. I just wasn't sure where to go yet. I had looked online but hadn't found a descent apartment that was good enough and Niall's proposal was still bit confusing. did it mean I was suppose to come with him at all times or was I suppose to sit and wait in his house or was he going to get me a house of my own? Or was it just a joke? He did sound sincere when he said it but Carter sounded sincere when he said he was going to love me for the rest of his life too. I was torn, I had so many thoughts and questions running through my head I almost forgot about the door. 


the doorbell rung again and this time it was a knock on the door soon after. Opening the door finding Niall on the other side made me smile. Never once did I ever think I was going to met someone better than Carter. Some one that would mean so much to me like Niall had started to do but then again he did save me, he did listen to me and he was a friend when everyone else I thought where wasn't. I really hoped it wasn't a joke.

I stepped back and let him limp inside to the kitchen.


"Have you thought more about that thing I asked you the other day?" he asked as he saw me making myself busy in the kitchen taking out some popcorn and two beers from the fridge.

"what thing?" I asked and tried to sound as I didn't know what he was talking about, so if he was just joking he wouldn't know that I actually considered it.

"the marriage thing." he said.

"you where really serious about that?" I asked surprised but yet not of his answer.

"yeah. I was. I am." he told me.

"but why? I mean you could have any girl you want because of the fame thing." I said feeling a bit stupid for Google him last night to just fill in the gaps between the things Niall had told me about him yesterday, witch wasn't much there for the Google search.


it was more like, I was on the x factor, didn't win and now I'm touring the world with my band. like I said, there wasn't that much he said about himself or about his band and I must say that I was really surprised to find that he was maybe a bit more famous then he had let on. the songs I found on you tube was amazing and I instantly felt proud of him, like a friend would do for an other friend. Because that is what we where, at least in my books, he was my friend and that wouldn't change. 


"I just want to settle down, All the guys have girls and things settled and I am just tired of being the single alcoholic little leprechaun that everyone expect me to be. I want to settle down too, not because everyone else is doing it but because I just want someone to care about and someone that cares just as much about me that isn't my family." he sighed taking a sip from the beer I gave him.

"why me? out of all the girls in the world?" I asked sitting down next to him by the kitchen table. 

"you're different. you seem genuine and you didn't know who I was when we met and you didn't judge me out of what tabloids had written about me or what people are saying about me. we don't know each other that well since we did just meet a few days ago but that doesn't matter. It feels like I already know you as cheesy as it sounds but it's true." he said giving me a sad smile.

"it's weird but I feel like I can trust you, like I already know you too." I said twisting the bottle in my hands.


it was silent for a few minutes, but it wasn't uncomfortable. it was just like we didn't know what to say.


"So you'll really do it then, marry me?" he asked.

"I said yes, didn't I?" I mumbled but it was loud enough for him to hear me.

"I just wasn't sure. I was just making sure I just hadn't dreamed it all." he let out a sigh of relief.

"so how's this going to work? I'm suppose to get out of the house by the end of the week." the words leaving my mouth before I could even stop my self.

"Dammit." I gasp and the blush stains my cheeks.

"what? why?" Niall asked and looked at me confused.

"I didn't mean to say that. forget I said that." I sighed deeply and went back behind the counter to make some sandwiches just to occupy my self.

"what do you mean you're suppose to get out of the house?" Niall asked and sounded worried.

"my mom didn't get her way. It was probably the first time ever I told her no and that didn't set with her very well." I said.

"you can stay with me? I mean if this marriage thing is going to happen we should live together right?" he said sounding  a bit exited but trying to hide it and sound like it was no big deal, making him even more adorable than before.

"How exactly are we going to make this work? we barely know each other. we met 4 nights ago. that doesn't really give great odds for a marriage." I said looking down at my feat.


I did say yes to marry him but I don't really know if we are that compatible. living together, sharing a life together is a big deal. If we where anything alike we wouldn't want to try this and then get a divorce because it didn't work out the way we planed.


"We'll make it work. it not going to be a easy ride but at least we'll have each other right? besides if we get married now, we do have the rest of our lives together to get to know each other." he said griping my hand.


I hadn't even noticed that he had moved, I looked up into his eyes and I could see nothing else but him being honest. We were so alike then, we were both alone a lot and we both wanted to have someone to care about. Someone that would take care of us, that we could take care of in return. 


"like a you and I against the world- kind of thing?" I chuckled. 

"like a 'Nothing can come between you and I' -kind of thing." he joined in my chuckles.

"did you just do what I think you did? you really wanna go there?" I started laughing even more, recognizing one of the songs I had listened to last night.

"yeah I just went there." he laughed too, a heart warming and genuine laugh that set of a domino effect and we couldn't stop laughing.


it took us several minutes to even calm down enough to notice how close we where. I cleared my throat at that and we both stepped away. friends first, then everything else.


- - - 


we watched the Avengers, the pizza we ordered was already done. the beer bottles empty on the counter in the kitchen and we where on the couch. Niall had laid down to stretch his knee out a bit better and was resting his head in my lap. I couldn't help but to run my finger through his hair as we where looking into each others eyes. it was a bit hypnotic actually, his eyes so blue and honest. 

we knew more about each other now. it was like we wanted to fit a whole year of dating, and a year of courting into just a few hours. 

Niall had made some calls earlier to his bodyguard telling him that he wanted the privet-jet to be ready in the morning and that he needed someone to get my boxes into his new house in London. he was firm and made sure that there where no misunderstandings about the arrangements and I was really impressed. it made him sexy, this authority image he was showing. 

I couldn't stop smiling around him, I nearly missed what he said as I couldn't really focus on more than his eyes. 


"ready for tomorrow?" he asked again when I didn't answer him. 

"uhm, yeah.. I guess. As ready as I ever be." I smiled.

"so, Marc got us a slot early tomorrow. I have to tell my dad I'm leaving." he said sitting up.

"yeah, I should probably pack a bag." I said pouting at the loss from his warmth.

"just a few outfits and the most necessary. I'll buy the things we need when we get there." he said, missing my pout as he wasn't facing me.

"you know you don't really have to buy me things right? I mean my dad made sure of that." I said.

"I want to spoil you, I want to buy you things." he said turning to look at me.

"What I wanted to say is that is no need to." I told him.

"I know, since you did your research on me I kind of did some of my own on you?" Niall confessed looking a bit guilty.

"you did what?" I asked.

"just... Marc may have done a small background check on you it's not that big of a deal." he said.

"I did a small Google search and listen to like one or two songs with you on YouTube and you made your bodyguard do a background check on me?" I asked.

"i'm sorry?" he asked back.

"you could have just asked, I wouldn't had lied or anything." I said.

"I know, but Marc felt more at ease when he did and I was curious so I couldn't help but to look into what he found." 

"okay." I said.

"you mad?" he asked.

"yes...  no, not really." I sighed.

"so found out anything fun about me?" he smirked and his eyebrows danced.

"just enough to fill in some of the blanks you left." I said getting up strolling into the kitchen. 


I knew he followed as I heard him limp slowly or as fast as he could behind me.


"like what?" he asked.

"just like.. I don't know.. it was pretty much just the stuff you said, it was just more detailed, more than one sentence." I said getting a water bottle from the fridge.

"so, is it anything you want to know?" he asked.

"you seem to live your dream, you are young, tell me again why you want to marry me?" I said.

"I told you, I just want to settle down. I want to have someone by my side through all of this. what is a dream worth if you can't share it with someone?" he told me stepping closer.


we weren't drunk, a little tipsy, yeah but we knew exactly what we where doing. and right now we where standing way to close. closer than we probably have been since we met. my eyes slowly drifted down to his lips. they looked so kissable. 

All I wanted to do in that moment was to kiss him. to pull him close and run my fingers through his hair again. I was breathing heavy I knew that, but so was he. it was like we had ran a marathon. 

Niall was looking at my lips and then back up into my eyes. he stepped closer and we where just so close that our lips nearly touched. I could feel his breath on my lips and his eyes was piercing into mine. there was so many emotions running through me that it felt overwhelming. I closed my eyes and just as we where suppose to really kiss the silence broke and Niall's phone went of. 

it was 8 o'clock at night and he was suppose to go back to his dad's house tonight to pack and say goodbye. this was going to be the last night that I was alone. 

I stepped back and Niall fished up his phone from his pocket answering the call. he kept his eyes on me and mouthed out an 'Sorry' before leaving the kitchen to talk with who ever it was on the other end. 


I let out a breath as I tried to make my heart slow down. I was definitely attracted to him that was for sure and from the look of him he was as attracted to me too. 

for the first time of my life I knew that this, what we had was so much more than just a deal. for the first time of my life I had felt so much more than what I ever felt the times when Carter and I was this close. I was never in love with Carter, I realized then. but I was way on my way to fall in love with Niall, and that scared me. 

it was different to think you might could fall in love then to actually realize that you're all ready falling in love. 





what do you think..? honest thoughts.. I know it sucks...


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