Insanes Haven

Bradie has a hard time dealing with her who has passed and her father who has been in the army for a while. As she cuts herself Cody, her childhood, best friend immediately suspects something. Cody tries his best to make Bradie feel wanted and not alone. Cody tries so hard to make her happy and as he was trying to make her smile, romance started to appear. But will this new couple drift away over college?

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2. Lust

All those times, my mother and father told me I was beautiful, lies. I am not beautiful, I am worthless, I am desprate, a desperate whore of a nothing, and I finally need to do something about it, to rid this world of my ugly face. I’ve attempted suicide, tried to starve myself, but nothing worked. I walked into the bathroom and held my razor to my pale wrist. I began feeling my skin slowly tear open. I squinted my eyes and let out a moan as the razor dug deeper into my wrist. It was like all of my pain pinpointed my wrist and drained out of me with the blood, oozing onto my forearm. It was a painful yet soothing kind of sensation and I felt happiness as the blood oozed out. There was a knock on the bathroom door and suddenly my  best friend from childhood, Cody, barges in.

“Hey Bradie, you got any….” He trails off as he cites me holding the sharp razor against my bloody arm. I panicked as I attempted to hide it.“Bradie?” Cody says softly looking at me as hot tears rapidly stream down my face.

“Go away, why are you even in here!” I cried as I slammed the bathroom door, locking him out, like I always do, locking everyone out of my life. Nobody knows how I feel, the pain,the feeling to be worthless. To be the ugly runt.

“Bradie, Bradie, let me in!” Cody screamed through the door.

“No, you don’t understand!” I scream out raspily.

“But I can try.” He whispers. I slowly open the door and he barges in and envelopes me in an enormous hug. “Shhh..” He soothes rubbing large circles around my back.

“It’s not fair!” I scream out in between sobs while mumbling out random sounds.

“Bradie, Calm down, Bradie, Bradie.” He tries to comfort me but it just wasn't working. I don't deserve this, he deserves a better friend. I had to push him away, for his own good.

“CODY, GO AWAY!” I storm down the stairs and slammed the front door behind me. I ran to the small lake around the corner and sat by the water, staring at my reflection. I splashed the water so my reflection was fuzzy. I heard voices in my head saying, “Fat, ugly, worthless, stupid..” I tucked my knees into my stomach and wrapped my arms around them. I squished my head into my legs and cried, as the sounds of nature soothes my endless amounts of pain and suddenly hear footsteps behind me. Its Cody.“What are you doing here?” I question.

“Please.” He holds his hand out for me to take. I grabbed it and he swings me to my feet. He then roughly grabs my waist and gently pushes me against the nearest tree and leans in close. He just stares into my eyes for a moment, then he glances down to my lips then back up into my eyes again. Suddenly he roughly presses his lips against mine with a sense of need and passion. I back away shocked since I've always liked Cody and never would have thought he would like an ugly, worthless girl, like me. “Why did you pull away?” he asks upset and confused.

“Um.” I reply, drawing a blank. I lean into the tree, grab his collar and bite my lip staring into his violet colored eyes, then I look down at his pink lips. Remembering the feeling of them on mine. I wanted to kiss him again, so bad. Apparently he can read minds because he hungrily smashes his pink plump lips against mine. I no longer felt my pain, I just focused on how perfect the kiss was. We kissed for a long time and it made its way down on the ground.  I wrapped my bloody arms around him and threw my leg over his. We stopped and looked at each other. “What made you come here?” I asked quietly.

“You. You’re my everything. Ever since I laid eyes on you…” He paused for a moment then went back to what he was saying., “When i saw you try to hurt yourself it broke my heart. And I knew where you would be.” He made me feel so... ugh words just cannot describe the feeling. He made me feel like i'm not the ugly worthless runt I am.

“Cody i’m not perfect! I’m a mess!” I respond.

“ In my eyes you are perfect.” He continues. We talked, A LOT. About things that happened in the past. “Remember that time in Mrs. Wills class when you were leaning back on your chair and fell, right on your head..but then you got up and bowed.” Cody states. “You weren't afraid to be made fun of, you just got up and told everyone out loud that you messed up and you learned your mistake.” Cody spoke again.

“Yup! Little ol’ me.” I continued, laughing my heart out. But I was afraid to get made fun of but I put on my brave face. He gazed into my eyes as he laughed with me. His eyes were like perfect little peridot gems. We stopped and it just got awkward but sensational. “Hey I am going to be okay, I promise I won't do it again.” I say while messing with his chestnut colored hair and pecking once at his plump lips. He really knew how to cheer me up! “Do you even remember the time we met?” I asked.

“Yeah, I remember, it was first grade and this little girl pushed you into the wall, so then I went up to you and told you that I will be your friend and I will never let you go.”

“ OH MY GOD!” I said outloud. “I do remember that! Then we started sitting next to each other on the bus and had play dates every day. Everyone in middle school thought we were dating since we were always together.”

“Speaking about dating...” He continued. “ I wanted to know if you wanted to go to back here, in the woods tomorrow at 7pm and have nice little picnic under the moonlit sky?” He said chuckling a little. I thought about it for a while, because he was my best friend, and if we did break up I wouldn’t want it to ruin our relationship. But I really liked him and he liked me so I said yes. I gigantic smirk grew across his rosy cheeks and he gave me a few soft kisses before getting up and walking back toward our houses.

“See you at 7 tomorrow!” I yelled back to him as he ran toward his house still smiling.

“Bye Bradie!” He replied back.

 
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