Safe And Sound (Triquel to Red)

"Elizabeth Ashton was more that just a girl to me. She was my best friend, she was the love of my life, she was my light. Since the day I met her when we were 5 years old there hasn't been a single day that I didn't love her. Without her, I wouldn't be the man I am today. She taught me so many things. She taught me to never give up on myself and to never let anyone tell me who I am, who I want to be. She taught me to believe in myself even when no one else did. Through the 15 years that I knew her, just the thought of her made me smile. Now I can't help but look back on all of the memories we made. The pillow fights, the sleep overs, the ghost stories. She made me happier than anyone else ever could. She put a smile on my face even when I was on the verge of tears and she always knew what to say. So much of the world knows Elizabeth Ashton as the girl who broke free from her past and created a future...

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36. Guilt

***Liam's POV***

"Liam, you alright mate?" Harry asked as we walked backstage after our concert.

"What?... Yeah I'm fine." I told him.

"You sure? You seemed a bit distant tonight." Niall told me.

I shrugged. "Just tired thats all."

They each gave me looks as if they didn't believe that was it. "Just drop it okay?"

They shook their heads and we walked into the dressing room. We changed our of our concert outfits and into our normal clothes. Silently we walked out and followed Paul to the car. The car ride back to the busses was silent but we could all tell something was up. We were never this quiet, not after concerts at least. As we approached the busses none of us really spoke or exchanged glances. Niall and Zayn murmured a few words to each other but that was about it. We got out of the car and made our way onto our bus where we went to our separate bunks without a word. As I lay in my bunk I stared up at the panel of wood above me.

I was only digging myself a deeper hole. I knew it too, and yet, I did nothing to stop it. I wish I could have told her the truth but I knew what her reaction would be. Most likely something like her reaction when she left. The worst part was, I promised her I would never make the same mistakes I did before. I'm just and idiot to think that I deserve Beth. She deserves a guy who can treat her right and not have to hide things from her. One that won't put her in danger, one that is always there for her.  I still remember the moment she left clear in my mind, the words she said, the actions she preformed. 

"I loved you Liam. I loved you with all my heart and not only did you break it, you completely shattered it. I can't believe I wasted these past 14 years loving you when all you did in the end is break me. You are no love of mine, you are no best friend of mine. I hope you look at that picture every day and remember the girl who you asked to sit with on the first day of primary school. The girl you grew up with and fell in love with. The one who was always there for you. And the one who's heart you broke. So Liam, have a nice life. Because I won't be part of it. When you said forever and always, you didn't mean it." 

I let out a sigh. I knew she would eventually find out. It was only a matter of time. My eyes slowly got heavier and soon I let dreamland take over.

The time was slowly ticking down and I found myself lost in my thoughts most of the time. I had not yet told Beth, the longer she doesn't know, the longer she's mine. Beth walked into the kitchen.

"Hey there. You alright? You seem a bit off." She asked, concerned.

"Yeah. I'm fine. I'm just feeling a bit sick." I told her.

I wasn't completely lying. I felt completely sick right now, knowing any day now could be my last with her. 

"Are you sure? I have a tour meeting today but I can cancel it." She said.

I shook my head. "No its fine. You need to go to that meeting. Its important for your tour."

"Okay. If you need me just call me or text me and i'll come straight home. I'll be back in about three hours okay?" She said.

"Okay. I love you." I told her.

She walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me. "I love you too. Bye. Feel better."

"I will. Bye." I said.

She grabbed her keys and phone and walked out the door. A few minutes after she felt I got a text.

I saw her leave. How long? -Dani

Why?- Liam

Because I have her daddy's bail money in my bag at the moment. - Dani


My heart sunk.

This is the last time Danielle. Don't think I enjoy it because I absolutely hate it. -Liam

Whatever Liam. As long as I have you i'm fine. How long will she be gone?- Dani

Three hours -Liam

I'm coming around back -Dani


I groaned and rested my head on the granite kitchen counter. I hated myself. The back door opened and closed and in walked Danielle.

"Pick your head up. Aren't you happy to see me?" She asked.

"Hell fucking no." I mumbled.

"Sorry, what was that? Did you just say no to me?" She hissed.

I looked up. "Yes I did Danielle. Why do you have to ruin my perfect relationship with the only girl I will ever love?!" I asked.

"Because we were the perfect couple. I'm not going to let some other girl ruin that! Now I can walk out of here right now and go to the prison and daddy will be set free or we do this!" She shouted.

I glared at her. "Just get it over with."

She dropped her bags on the counter. "Come on, lets go to the living room."

I stood up and followed her to the living room. I sat down on the couch and she got onto my lap. I just sat there like a stone. She began kissing up and down my neck trailing up to my jaw line.

"Kiss me back or I go set daddy free." She hissed in my ear.

She pressed her lipstick covered lips to mine and forced me to kiss back. Soon we were laying back on the couch snogging. The entire time I thought about Beth, about how hurt, how heartbroken she would be once she found out. 

"Liam focus on me not your little slut kay?" Danielle hissed in my ear.

I glared at her. "The only slut is you."

"Oh believe me babe, I'm not a slut." She whispered in my ear.

She shoved he lips onto mine once more and forced me to lay back on the couch. After a while she forced me to slip her shirt off and slipped mine off in the process. She straddled my waist and began kissing up and down my neck and chest. Her cold dry lips met mine again and I heard a door open.

"Hey Liam i'm ho-" Beth stopped in mid sentence and I quickly stood up.

"Beth please. It's not what it looks like." I whispered.

I watched as a tear fell from her eye as she stood there, frozen. She turned to everyone else who were right behind her.

"You all knew didn't you? You all knew that he was cheating on me..." She whispered.

They all nodded except for Louis who was giving me death glares.

"YOU ALL FUCKING KNEW THAT LIAM FUCKING PAYNE WAS FUCKING CHEATING ON ME?! WITH HIS FUCKING SLUT OF AN EX GIRLFRIEND AND NONE OF YOU TOOK THE TIME TO TELL ME A FUCKING THING?!" She screamed.

She ran upstairs to our bedroom and moments later came down with bags and boxes in her hands.

"No please Beth. Please. Please. I love you. Just let me explain!" I begged, tears rolling down my cheeks.

She only ignored me. Her eyes landed on the two pictures hanging on the wall. I watched as she walked over to them and took both down. She walked over to me and pushed one of the drawings to my chest. I looked down and saw that it was the spaceship.

"I loved you Liam. I loved you with all my heart and not only did you break it, you completely shattered it. I can't believe I wasted these past 14 years loving you when all you did in the end is break me. You are no love of mine, you are no best friend of mine. I hope you look at that picture every day and remember the girl who you asked to sit with on the first day of primary school. The girl you grew up with and fell in love with. The one who was always there for you. And the one who's heart you broke. So Liam, have a nice life. Because I won't be part of it. When you said forever and always, you didn't mean it." She cried, tears falling like a waterfall from her cold eyes.

She turned to everyone else. "I can't believe I ever called you friends of mine. You couldn't just take a moment and save me from the agony of having to find out myself that the only boy I have and ever will love has been cheating on me. Miranda, Emily... Louis... I expected more from you three especially."

She grabbed her bags and boxes and walked out the door without another word. I stood there, clutching the drawing of the spaceship to my chest, the uncontrolled tears slipping down my cheeks. I stood there like stone. Watching the place she had stood. I dropped the frame onto the couch and turned to Danielle with such disgust.

"YOU! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE! YOU COULD DIE FOR ALL I CARE! YOU JUST MADE THE LOVE OF MY FUCKING LIFE LEAVE ME!" I yelled.

"No Liam, you did."  She told me.

Danielle smirked at me and walked out the door. I looked at all my friends. Louis looked like he was about to punch a wall.

"ALL OF YOU! ALL OF YOU KEPT THIS FROM ME!? THIS IS NO ONES FAULT BUT YOUR FUCKING OWN LIAM! SHE IS GONE BECAUSE YOU DROVE HER AWAY! SHE WAS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND AND NOW SHES GONE! THE ONE WHO HELPED ME THROUGH EVERY DAMN THING! ALL OF YOU KNEW AND NONE OF YOU TOLD ME! WHY?! BECAUSE I AM THE ONLY TRUE FRIEND OF HERS?! BECAUSE I WOULD TELL HER?! HELL YES I WOULD TELL HER THAT HER DOUCHE BAG OF A BOYFRIEND IS CHEATING ON HER! I CAN'T BELIEVE ANY OF YOU." Louis yelled.

He was about to leave when he turned on his heel. He walked up to me and his fist collided with my cheek. He walked out of my house and I just lay there on the floor. Still. Heartbroken, almost lifeless. All the bright light in my life had disappeared. I had not only lost the love of my life, I had lost my best friend. As the tears streamed down my face all the memories Beth and I had flashed through my mind and flooded it. I tried to open my eyes but all I saw was her. All I saw was red.


My eyes shot open and I sat up. I looked at the clock and saw that it was early morning. That dream... the flashback, it still haunted me. That day was still clear in my mind. The day I had vowed to myself that I would never hurt he again. And yet, here I am living with the guilt, the regret, knowing that all too soon she would be living with the same pain as before and there was nothing I could do about it. Thats what hurts the most.

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