Change My Mind

I don’t know if I’ll ever love someone as great as Harry so that’s why I never want to forget this feeling. That’s why I’m scared of moving on. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to be in love with Harry Styles, especially the feeling I got when Harry Styles used to love me back.


83. Stay With You

Lily’s POV

“Hello, beautiful.”

“Hi,” I breathe. Hearing his voice causes a rush of happiness to wash over me that ‘hi’ is all I could get to come out of my mouth, too overwhelmed with the feeling to say anything else.

I missed you. Well, I still do.

I smile as I lean back against the headboard. My hand reaches up to clasp Harry’s ring in between my fingers. “I miss you, too.”

 “How’s your day so far?

“It’s been good. El helped me finish get my room done. How about you? How was your interview?”

It was good. It’ll air tomorrow if you want to watch it.

“Of course I’ll watch it. I’ll make sure to watch all of your interviews.” I smile before I look at my laptop. “Where are you right now?”

I just want to see his face already. I want to see his smile.

On my way home. I’ll be online soon.

My smile widens. “I’ve been waiting for you all day. Our call is still on.”

I hear him chuckle. “Sorry to make you wait. I’ve been counting down the minutes until I get to go home and see your face again.

“Hope it wasn’t too distracting.” I bite my lip, holding back my smile.

Of course it was but I didn’t care.

I glance at my laptop again. “I loved your note. Perfect way to start my day.”

Glad you liked it.” I can hear his smile through the phone. “That counts as a letter, by the way.

I laugh. “Oh, does it? I was expecting letters to be in my possession, not through a screen.”

I’m joking,” he laughs. “I’ll start working on that.

I shake my head. “I told you, Harry. You don’t have to write me letters. You can just tell me everything through the phone. You know how much I love hearing your voice.”

I know that Harry’s busy so I don’t want him to take time out of his free time writing me letters. I’d rather him use it to talk to me on the phone or on Skype.

Well, I love making you happy and I know that my letters somehow do. So, I’m going to write you letters whether you like it or not.

I’m about to argue back but he interrupts me.

Just a second. I just got home. I’m just gonna take a shower and then I’ll call you again.

I hear him yawn.

“You should take a nap, babe. We can talk later.”

No, no, I’m fine,” he says, yawning again.

I giggle. “Take a nap. I’m going to help El and then I’ll call you after dinner. I’d rather you be rested than passed out on Skype.”

He quietly chuckles before he takes a deep breath. “Okay. Thank you.”

I smile. “No worries. Talk to you later. I love you.”

I love you. Bye, baby.

Even though my heart tugs as the line clicks, I know that Harry needs his sleep. We talked quite late last night and he had to wake up early today. 

I still leave the Skype call on before I get out of bed and head out of my room. I walk into the living room to see El watching TV. I sit down beside her and see that she’s watching Dear John. A smile erupts on my face as I think about every part of that movie that relates to Harry and I.

The moon.

The quotes.

His letter.

“Were you able to talk to Harry?” El asks.

I nod. “Yeah, but he’s taking a nap so I told him we could just talk later. Have you talked to Louis?”

“Yeah, he’s with Zayn right now so we said we’d talk later, too.”

Our conversation ends there as both of us focus on the movie. I can’t help but smile every time one of the quotes that Harry wrote in his letter is spoken through the movie. I remember every single quote that he wrote and most of them, I even anticipate.

I decide not to discuss it with El. I want to keep this between Harry and I.

By the time the movie finishes, it’s past 4pm so we decide to make dinner. I notice that El received a text in the middle of us eating and I know that it’s from Louis because a smile appears on her face.

I know that she’s eating faster because she wants to finally talk to him so I eat faster, too. I take her plate when she finishes and offer her a smile.

“I’ll clean up. Go and talk to Louis.”

She gives me an appreciative smile before she gets up. She did the same thing for me last night so I owe it to her.

“Thank you. Good night, if I don’t see you for the rest of the night.”

I just nod before she turns around and heads to her room.

I clean up the dining room table and wash the dishes before I turn off the lights and head to my room. I take a shower and brush my teeth. I grab Harry’s sweater and put it on before hopping onto my bed. It takes me a second to realize the still body on my screen.

I smile as I see Harry sleeping peacefully on his bed, his face relaxed but partially squished against the pillow. Of course I take a picture.

I notice that the position of his laptop changed, realizing that Harry must’ve moved it so I could see him as he sleeps.

I smile at that thought as I continue to watch his shirtless back move up and down slowly.

I decide to take out my journal as I wait for him to wake up. I keep Harry in my view as I lean back against the headboard. I take my pen and flip the book onto the song that I started last night. I just put every feeling, every thought, every emotion that I was feeling after Harry left and poured it all onto this song.

I occasionally look over at Harry as I tweak the lyrics until I have an entire song written.

I glance over at the screen and see Harry still asleep so I get up and grab my guitar from the corner of the room.

I carefully sit back down on the bed, making sure that I don’t wake him up. I place my journal in front of me, open to the page with my new song.

I strum the guitar once very quietly, looking over at Harry to see if he wakes up.

He doesn’t.

I focus back on my guitar and the journal as I play around with some chords, humming along with harmonies that would go well with my lyrics.

I smile as I find one that’s perfect for my song before I take a deep breath and start from the beginning.


“We've been together for a while now
We're growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there's no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I'll stay with you”

“Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you”

“Though relationships can get old
They have the tendency to grow cold
We have something like a miracle
Yeah, and I'll stay with you”

“Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you”

“And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for a lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you
I will stay with you”

“Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you.”

I smile again, even bigger this time. I’m still in disbelief that I wrote this song in one day. This new part of mine and Harry’s relationship is so new to me so of course it’s brought me inspiration.

I love this song. I really do.

“I loved it.”

I snap my head up and look over at the screen to see a sleepy-looking Harry giving me a lazy smile.

I feel my cheeks heat up. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to wake you,” I mutter.

He moves up to rest on his arms and he blinks slowly. “It’s okay. I’m glad you did. That song was lovely.”

I blush again as I try to hide my smile. “Thank you.” I look back up at him. “When did you wake up?”

A cute expression erupts on his face as his eyebrows scrunch in thought. “Around the time you were playing around with the chords and you were humming.” A smile spreads across his face again. “I thought I was dreaming for a second. I didn’t want you to know I was awake though in case you would stop.”

I playfully narrow my eyes at him. “Well, I was going to play you that song anyways.”

“Hm, I know you would but I liked seeing you like that.”

I can feel my face soften at his words. “What…what do you mean?”

He shrugs. “Just…you’re just so captivating when you play when you think that no ones watching. It’s different than when you know that someone is. I can’t really describe it but…it was mesmerizing.”

As if I couldn’t blush even harder, Harry manages to do it with his sweet words. “Thank you, Harry.”

“So, I hope that I’m not making a fool of myself thinking that that song is about me, right?”

I roll my eyes and smile as I shake my head. “Of course it’s about you, you goof.”

His smile widens and his eyes light up. “When did you write it?”

“Last night.”

His eyes widen. “Wow, really? That's amazing. It’s beautiful. It really is. I can only dream of being able to write like that, especially in such a short period of time.”

“Thank you, Harry.” I find myself just watching his smile and mine widens when his does, too.

“And speaking of songs,” Harry says, breaking me from my thoughts. “Our album comes out tomorrow and I can’t wait for you to listen to it.”

“I can’t wait, either. I wish I was there to listen to it with you.”

He gives me an understanding look. “It’s okay. I wish you were here, too, but this will do.” He nods towards his laptop and I know that he’s talking about listening to the new album through Skype.

I’ll take it over not being able to share that moment with him at all.

I want to talk to him about Ed’s offer to record my songs for his management because I feel like Harry will give me great advice. Even though I got a little taste of recording when I recorded my song with Ed, I still have no idea what to expect when I record my other songs, especially by myself, and especially with the thought that a record label is going to be listening to it. And most importantly, because of the fact that my future depends on those songs.

Those songs will determine if I have what it takes to make it into the music business. With Harry’s success with the other boys, I feel like he has great insight on the situation. I feel like he’s had enough experience to be able to give me advice about what I should do.

I’m about to bring it up when I hear a knock on the door.

I’m kind of hoping that El would answer it but I know that I would feel bad since she’s talking to Louis right now.

“I have to get that. I’ll be back in a second.”

He just nods before I slide out of bed and make my way out to the front door. I look through the peephole but it’s pitch black.

Of course my heart beats faster. It could be a freaking serial killer. I grasp my phone in my hand, ready to call the police as I clear my throat.

“Who…who is it?” My voice shaky as I speak through the door.

“It’s me, your favourite person in the entire world.”

I gasp as I hear the familiar voice.


I immediately open the door and set my sights on my best friend.



Sooo sorry for taking so long to update! BUT like I explained in the author's note from the previous chapter, I'm training in the hospital now so I've been super busy. I understand that you guys want me to update, trust me, I do too. But I train at the hospital and then I'm so tired when I go home that I literally pass out and sleep.

I really hope that I'll still be able to update once a week but I just want you guys to understand that I can't update like I did during the break. I will try my best to update as much as I can though :)

So, 35 votes and 15 comments! The next chapter is already finished so I will post it as soon as this chapter reaches this votes and comments!

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