Change My Mind

I don’t know if I’ll ever love someone as great as Harry so that’s why I never want to forget this feeling. That’s why I’m scared of moving on. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to be in love with Harry Styles, especially the feeling I got when Harry Styles used to love me back.


77. Awkward Breakfast

Lily's POV

I wake up feeling extremely hot, a layer of sweat covering my body. I feel Harry's body lying on top of me and I pry my eyes open and squint to see Harry fast asleep beside me, his head resting on my stomach. His arms are around my waist and I'm surprised his hand underneath me hasn't fallen asleep.

The events of last night play through my mind and I smile widely as I stretch carefully, making sure not to wake Harry. I just relax in bed and allow myself to wake up a bit more, softly brushing my fingers through his hair.

With Harry's sweater I'm wearing and Harry himself wrapped around me, I start to sweat even more. I slowly pull the blanket off of me with my feet and breath a sigh of relief when the cold air cools my sweaty skin.

I suddenly feel the need to pee, knowing that I would need to either wake Harry up to get him off of me or be a ninja and slip out of his grasp without waking him. I try to lift Harry's head off of my stomach but it's too heavy. I try to slide out of bed but his arms subconsciously tighten around me.

I sigh before I reluctantly move up to rest on my elbows. I take one of my hands and brush it through Harry's hair.

"Harry, love," I say. He stirs on my stomach and I feel his arms tighten around me again.

"Harry, I need to go to the bathroom."

He just groans before he rolls off of me and blindly grabs a pillow and hugs it. He snuggles further into the bed and pulls the blanket higher over him. I slide down and rest my hand on his cheek.

"I'm just gonna take a shower and make us some breakfast, okay? I'll be back."

Without opening his eyes, he puckers his lips and extends his neck out towards me.

I giggle before I lean forward and place a quick kiss on his lips. He hums in satisfaction and smiles like a kid, still keeping his eyes closed. He cuddles into the pillow once again and settles back to sleep.

I slide out of bed and head over to my suitcase. I pull out a pair of shorts and a t-shirt, deciding to change out of Harry's thick sweater. I grab a new pair of underwear before I go into the bathroom and take a shower. I put Harry's sweater into the laundry bin when I finish, knowing that I need to wash it soon. I've been reluctant to wash out the smell of Harry on it but it's getting a bit dirty and I want to make sure I take good care of it.

Maybe I can secretly spray some of Harry's cologne onto it before he leaves. Maybe I'll spray all of my clothes with his cologne.

I smile and shake my head at my ridiculous but kind of brilliant idea before I quietly leave my room, closing the door behind me.

Seeing as how Louis and Eleanor went out clubbing last night and that Harry and I fell asleep before they got home, I was surprised to see both of them in the kitchen when I walked in.

"Oh, good morning, guys. How was clubbing?" I ask as I go over to the coffee machine to make a fresh pot of coffee.

"It was fun. You and Harry should've went with us," Eleanor says. I hear them quietly laugh but it quickly stops when I turn around to look at them.

They don't say anything so I just walk over to the pantry to see what I can make Harry and I for breakfast. Eleanor brought over as much food she could get from her old place. I see boxes of cereal and knowing that it'll be the easiest thing to make, I take one of them and set it on the counter.

"Harry didn't really feel like clubbing. He just wanted to stay in," I explain.

Once again, I hear them laugh and Louis coughs to cover it up just as Eleanor stops herself. I don't even want to bother asking them what they're laughing about so I grab a couple of bowls and make the cereal.

"I bet he did," Louis says. I look over at them and see them looking at each other before looking down at the ground.

I just shake my head and make two cups of coffee. I grab a tray and put the two bowls of cereal and the two cups of coffee. I'm about to pick it up to bring back to Harry when Louis clears his throat.

I turn around and look at them, growing slightly curious as to why they're being so weird right now.

"You might want to bring this to Harry, too," Louis says. He reaches over to the seat beside him and throws something black at me.

My eyes widen and I feel my cheeks heat up in absolute embarrassment when I catch Harry's shirt from last night in my hands.

The memory of me pulling this shirt off of him while I was sat at the counter that Eleanor and Louis are sitting at right now flashes in my mind. I remember taking it off of him and throwing it carelessly to the side.

I totally forgot about it. I definitely would've picked it up if I had remembered, at least before the two of them came home last night.

I cover my face with my hands as my embarrassment grows, and it doesn't help that Harry's shirt is in one of them.

"Oh my gosh, this is the most embarrassing thing ever," I say, my voice mumbled against my hands.

I peek through my fingers and see the two of them laughing at me.

"Hey, don't worry about it," Louis says, still chuckling. "El and I are just glad that you two are finally back together. And from what happened last night, it looks like you two were more together than you've ever been."

My eyes widen and I internally scream as Eleanor bursts out laughing and Louis just continues to smirk.

"Louis," I whine, covering my face with my hands again. "Stop it."

Their laughter finally dies down and I remove my hands from my face.

"Alright, alright. I'm sorry. The first part is true, though. Both of us are really happy that you and Harry are back together." The atmosphere immediately turns serious but they give me a kind smile.

I sigh happily and return their smile. "Thank you. I...I couldn't be more happy." I walk up to them, standing across from them on the other side of the counter. "I wanted to thank the both of you. I know that you two have always been there for the both of us since the beginning and you helped us get to where Harry and I are now. I don't know where we would be without you two. So thank you. I don't know how I could ever repay you two for being there."

"Lily, you don't owe us anything," Eleanor says, placing her hand over mine. "Louis and I and everyone else knew that you and Harry belong together. We just wanted you two to be happy and we knew that you would only get that from Harry. We love the both of you. We'll always be there for you."

"When Harry lost you, he wasn't the same," Louis continues. "He was never happy like he was when he was with you. I just wanted to do whatever I could to help him get his happiness back. It was you, Lily. You were his happiness."

I bite my lip, attempting to hide the huge smile caused by their confessions. I honestly don't know what I would do without them. Eleanor, especially, has done so much for me since I met her. The fact that we're close friends now, and that were living together, I couldn't ask for a better friend.

I pout before I make my way around the counter and wrap my arms around the both of them.

"I love you guys."

"We love you, too, babe," Eleanor says before we pull away.

"Now go bring your boyfriend some food, I'm sure he's hungry from last night," Louis adds.

I smack his arm as both of them laugh.

"Shut it."

I make my way back to the tray and pick it up with Harry's shirt tucked into my armpit.

"You and Harry better not have done it on our new dining room table," Eleanor says just as I turn around to face them.

Oh my gosh, I need to get out of here. "You two are so mean, especially when you're together."

Eleanor looks down at the counter and grimaces as she leans away from it. "Or this counter."

Louis laughs and then high-fives Eleanor.

"I'm leaving. You two are getting on my nerves." I stick my tongue out at them as I walk past them. They're still laughing as I make my way to my room and it finally stops when I close the door behind me.

Harry is still in the exact same spot I left him, buried underneath the thick blanket and clutching the pillow.

I place the tray and his shirt on the side table and then crawl into bed and lie down on my side, resting on my elbow right beside Harry.

"Harry," I sing. "Wake up." I just run my fingers through his hair again since it's the only part that's not being covered by the blanket.


He just mumbles and snuggles deeper into the pillow. I decide to grab my phone to take a picture of this adorable sight in front of me. I put it away and rest my arm around him.

"Your cereal is going to get soggy and the coffee is going to get cold."

He softly groans and opens one eye.

"Good morning," I say.

A lazy smile spreads across his face as he opens his other eye. "Good morning, indeed." His voice is laced with sleep, his words coming out deeper and slower.

"Come on, let's eat." I sit up and reach over to grab the two bowls of cereal. Harry pushes himself up and rubs the sleep out of his eyes before he sits up and stretches. I don't even hide the fact that I stare at his body as he does so and that I'm liking it.

We've reached the point in our relationship where I have the right to check him out without feeling guilty or embarrassed.

He smirks at me as he takes his cereal from me. "Thank you."

I just reply with a smile before we start to eat. He keeps his eyes on me the entire time and it actually makes me feel self-conscious since I'm stuffing my mouth with cereal.

"Stop staring." I playfully glare at him but it doesn't intimidate him one bit. His smirk just widens.

He finishes his cereal and I take it from him, placing it back on the tray and handing him his coffee.

"Louis found your shirt in the kitchen," I say, nodding my head towards it.

I was expecting him to be embarrassed but he just smiles and shakes his head as he sips his coffee.

"Well, that's one time against the hundred times I found his shirt on the floor every time I visited him at his place."

I raise my eyebrows. "Really? Wow. And they didn't hesitate to embarrass the hell out of me when they gave me your shirt."

Harry shrugs but then a mischievous grin appears on his face. He takes another sip of his coffee and places it back on the tray. "We'll get them back later, before Lou and I have to leave."

I smile at the thought of being able to play a prank on Louis and Eleanor. I look up and see Harry staring at me with a soft expression on his face.

"Why are you staring at me?" I playfully narrow my eyes at him.

A light blush creeps up his cheeks and he shakes his head and looks down. "I'm not."

I place my coffee on the tray beside his and start crawling up to him.

"Tell me."

"It's nothing." He still continues to avoid my gaze but his smile widens slightly.

I place my arms around his neck. "Harry Styles, tell me right now."

He shakes his head but he places his hands on my waist.

I position my knees on either side of his lap and I can see Harry gulp harshly.

"Can you please tell me?" I whisper as seductively as I can.

His eyes finally trail up to meet mine and I grin in triumph.

He clears his throat. "No?" he says nervously, making it come out sounding like a question.

I finally sit down in his lap and press myself closer to him.

"Pretty please can you tell me?" I place my lips lightly against his, teasing him and pulling away when he goes to press them against mine. "Please, baby?" I draw out the last word as I swipe my finger across his bottom lip. I can see his pupils dilate slightly and I know that I have him exactly where I want him.

I love teasing him, especially like this. It's rare to be the one that has the upper hand. Harry's usually the one that leaves me flustered.

I bite my lip, knowing how much he loves it.

"Fine. I was staring because I love your smile. Okay?"

I raise an eyebrow at him and his reddened cheeks. "That's it? Well, I knew that. I can't believe you made me use my trick on that."

I don't even have the time to smirk at him before he grips my waist and pushes me down onto the bed. I squeal as he quickly lies on top of me, trapping my body against his.

"That's your trick, huh? Wanna see mine?"

I know what his trick is and before I can protest, he pinches my sides. I shriek out loud before I start laughing against my will.

"Harry, stop!"

Harry just continues to tickle me with a huge smile on his face. I love his smile, too, and I'm going to miss it like hell when I won't be able to see it in person when he leaves. But I know that I just have to close my eyes and I'll be able to see it as clear as I'm seeing it right now.

"Hey!" Both of us stop as we hear Louis shout from outside. "Some of us are trying to have a peaceful breakfast without having to hear you two do the hanky-panky!

I giggle and Harry rolls his eyes.

"Well, could you two hurry up so we can do the hanky-panky?" Harry shouts back. I swat his arm but he just continues to smile.

"Didn't you two do the hanky-panky already last night? Do you even have any protection left?"

I cover my face in embarrassment at Harry and Louis' banter and I hear Louis say 'ow', knowing that Eleanor is feeling the same way I'm feeling and has retaliated using physical force.

"Oh, don't worry. We have plenty. We could go all day!"

"Harry!" I exclaim, my eyes widening in pure horror. Harry just laughs at me. How are we supposed to go out there now? This is the most embarrassing thing ever.

"Oh, come on. Lighten up. They know I'm just joking."

"Ew!" Louis shouts. "Can you at least wait until we leave?"

I can hear Louis and Eleanor laughing from outside. I guess Harry's right. They should know that Harry is joking.

"Yeah, sure. Could you hurry?"

I just groan and cover my face with my hands again. I just lie there, Harry still on top of me, as him and Louis continue this embarrassing conversation.





I can say that 2014 was one of the best for me and it's partly because of you guys :) I met so many great people through my story. You guys are so sweet and kind and I love you guys.

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