Save You.

What I would do to save you.

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4. chapter 2. Despair.

"People who die by suicide don't want to end their lives, they want to end their pain."

-Anon.

 

 

 

 

Chapter 2.

 

 

He always had a smile on his lip's, always helped other's who were in the need. I don't understand why he would do this to me, to all of us. How would the press take it? The fan's?

 

All I understand right now is that he is gone now, And I can't do anything about it. 

 

" Sam? Love, are you decent?" Anne's soft voice came from the door. Anne had flown in this morning, to help us mourn the death of Niall.

 

 

" Yes, Come in." I croaked out. 

 

He had been gone for two day's and I can't help but feel nothing. Nothing. Aren't I supposed to be sad, depressed, angry?

 

 

The door opened and a woman about 5'5 walked in, wearing a blue sun dress.  On this day, the weather is beautiful. I wish my mood could fit it.

 

" Oh, honey. I don't know how you feel, but I truly wish for you to be better, with all of this." Anne sat on my bed, next to me. I felt my heart ache, this wasn't what I had planned to do on my Friday, Mourn for my best friend.

 

" I can't help but feel like it's my fault, I should have known, For god's sake! I was his best friend!" I didn't cry, I didn't shed a single tear.

 

" Honey, what happened was not you fault" She wrapped her arm's around me, I took in her kindness, It's what I needed.

 

" Are you gonna attend the funeral?" She asked, My heart ached. It's his funeral.

 

" Niall would want me there" I sighed and held in the heart ache.

 

" On this day, We lost an angel. A man who will never be forgotten-" I zoned out during the ceremony. I couldn't stand listening, I didn't want this to be true.

 

" Would you like to say a few word's- Samantha" The priest asked, How could I say no?

 

I stood from the chair and walked next to the coffin. 

 

" Niall-- he-he was my best friend. I never thought I would have to speak at his funeral. He loved living with harry-" I heard sobbing from the back. I looked to see the boy's in the back, tear's rolling down their cheek's; stern looks on their faces.

 

"--Harry, he and Niall had gotten closer than ever. It was crazy, as children. We used to play in the play house under that walnut tree. I remember him always having the worst luck, always getting hit on the head. One day-- he -- he started crying, I didn't know what to do." I laughed at the memory. More sob's came from the people he loved.

 

" He was my first kiss" I laughed, my cheek's turned red from the memory. 

 

" He was my first crush." I can't believe I'm telling them this, I've never told anyone.

 

 

 " I can't believe he's actually gone. " A tear finally came from my eye, the first one, even though it should't have been.

 

" Now, I could go on and on about the memories we shared, But for now... I'll leave with this. I would have done anything to have been there earlier, to save him from himself. "

 

 

I sat back in my chair, his cousin's and friend's patting my shoulder or giving me sympathetic look's. I sat there, until it was over. Not saying a word. I have a feeling that's how this is going to be.

 

Silent. 

 

 

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