Cara Mitchell; a girl who's done with her life. Been hurt too many times, broken so deep that the scars in her heart can never be together again. One horrible day will change her life. She'll learn things that she never thought about a person.. A person who changes her whole thinking of her life.


1. Chapter 1

Life has always been a challenge.. A challenge with people, a challenge at home, and with yourself.. You never know what is going to happen...
Your life can be good, or it can be bad..
You can't control what happens in your life..

At the age of 14 I started self harming.. I was nothing but broken and depressed. Wanting to leave because I didn't belong... Until the one day that changed my life.. My complete mind changed from one simple act..
I never knew that this would happen to a person like me....


I take the paper and pen and start to write my final goodbye.. I can't take it anymore.. All of this pain has overtaken me.. I just can't do it anymore.. I'm done.. As I start writing my heartaches, knowing that everyone will be better off without me..

I start the letter off as "Dear Mom" the only person who I live with. At least she should know..

"Dear Mom,
Once you get this letter... Ill be gone.. Ill be happier; in a happier place away from this pain, this life.. I want you to know that I love you and I always will, and that you'll be happier when I'm gone.. I cause all this unneeded stress that you don't deserve... You deserve someone a lot better than me.. I'm not worth your time or your strength in fighting for...I just can't take this anymore. I can't take the neglect that you have towards me. I know you hate how I feel, and I know you don't like me. I just want you to know that I will always love you.. To the moon and back.. -Cara xx"

The tears run down my face as I finish the letter.. I know I can't leave, but I need too.. She'll be happier and so will I.. I fold up the note and put it on the dinner table... She'll be reading this once she wakes up.

I grab nothing except my cellphone and car keys. That's all Ill need.. I won't be answering any messages, I'll just say goodbye to my closets friends to say goodbye..

I drive to the nearest train station.. My heart beating faster and faster as I drive in. The tears streaming down my face, unable to control my emotions. I keep thinking over and over again "They'll be happier once I'm gone. They don't need me here." I pull in locking the car, and wiping my eyes. I walk into to the train station purchasing one ticket, even though I'll never use it. The train should be arriving any second now. I approach the platform ready to jump.

I can hear the train. This is it. I'm really going to do this. Tears fall down my face as I get ready to throw myself against the train. My heart feels like its going to beat out of my chest. As the train comes closer I try to jump off the platform, but I couldn't. All I could hear were gasps and cries. Someone grabbed me, I blacked out.

- - - -

I wake up to the noises of the monitors and bright lights. That's when I realize that I'm still alive. Failed once more. I just hate me more knowing that I didn't succeed. I look around the room trying to see if anyone is here. I see no one that I know. The only person I see in the room is this blonde haired man standing worriedly over my bed.. He looks around my age. "Hello." He says smiling down at me. I don't reply. I can't help but be mad, he's the one who didn't let me jump.

Why couldn't I have succeeded..? I want to get away from this life. Away from everything. I start to cry. The man can tell how upset I am. He walks away. "She's awake." He tells one of the nurses out in the hall. Seconds later a nurse in blue scrubs and a doctor come in. "Hello sweetie." the nurse says. I don't reply... I hate hospitals, and I hate doctors. "What's your name?" the nurse asks. I left my wallet in the car.. "Cara, Cara Mitchel." I answer. If they look through any of my files, they'll remember who I am, and who's daughter I am. Moments later a woman runs through the room doors. It's my mother.

"Cara!" she says loudly. "What happened here?" she asks while looking around the room. "She tried to jump in front of a train. I caught her before she could." The blonde hair man answered. She should know the answer, since this isn't the first time I've been in here. "And who are you?" My mother asked in great concern.. "Niall.. Niall Horan.." He replies.

"Thank you Niall. If you need anything just call me at the office.. I can't thank you enough for what you've done today.. You saved my daughters life." She's smiles at Niall handing him her business card. Wow she's acting like she actually cares.. All she cares about is money and power.. Don't even care about your only child.

"Could you guys give us a few moments of privacy? I would like to have a few words with my daughter." She asks all the people in the room.

"Right away Madame Mayor." The doctors and nurses reply. Everyone exits the room. After everyone exits, my mothers eyes dart straight to me.

"I can't believe you..." She's says softly.

"What? You can't believe what?" I spat at her. "You can't believe that your daughter tried to commit suicide again.. That you can't believe that your daughter is a suicidal wreck; you can't believe what?" I could care less about my harsh tone right now.

"We talked about this.. You said you weren't going to try again.. Do you know what this could do to my career?" Of course she changes the subject back to herself. "You have no idea how hard my life is, do you? You don't realize what I have to deal with everyday." She has no idea what I have to deal with. She doesn't know how hard my life is; dealing with a powerful mom that neglects you, getting bullied constantly, everyday at school.

"We'll talk about this when you get home. We'll talk about YOUR problems, after I get this whole thing straightened out with the public." MY needs.. Wow. "You really don't care for me, don't you." I'm choked up by tears. "I SAID WE'LL TALK ABOUT THIS LATER CARALINA!" she yells. Always put my needs last. I can't even speak anymore. My mother calls everyone back in. Surprised to see the blonde kid Niall still here.

"Mayor Mitchel, we're going to be keeping Cara overnight, you'll be able to pick her up tomorrow." the doctor informs her. She nods in reply. She doesn't want me home.. I should just run away.

"Goodbye baby." She kisses my forehead. Not like she means to call me baby. I fake a smile. My mother walks up to Niall. "You're invited for dinner tomorrow night. I don't know how much to thank you for saving my daughter." Niall seems speechless by his facial expressions. 'Oh.. Umm. Thank you." He stutters in reply. "Here's my address. Thank you so much." She hugs Niall handing him the address to my home. I don't think he quite realizes how pissed off I am at him.

Once my mother, the doctors, and the nurses leave; Niall stays. I'm guessing he wanted to talk in private.

"Why are you still here?" I asked in an annoyed tone. "I just wanted to make sure that you were okay. You one tried to jump in front of a moving train, two I could hear you and your mother arguing." He replies walking towards my side of the hospital bed. He seems nice, but I'm beyond pissed at him for not letting me die.

"You don't realize how badly I want to be dead. My mother hates me. She was yelling at me, because she has to fix what I did, and lie to so many people.. She's never cared about me.. Ever." People don't understand what I go through. "If you didn't stop me, there wouldn't be this conflict!" I yell..

By his expression he seemed hurt. I could care less about what he thinks.. Life would be so much easier if I was never born..

"I'm sorry... I don't know what you're going through, but I don't want someone to take their own life.." He says softly. He doesn't.. He doesn't know what I'm going through...

"No, no you don't... You shouldn't have saved me... I deserve to die." Why do I keep answering him.? He should just leave..

"No one deserves to die.. Everyone has a purpose on this earth" his voice is tender and sweet.

"Can you please just leave... I just need to be alone..." I try to ask politely, but it came out a bit harsher then I intended. I'm angry and just tired.. I don't want to be around anyone right now... I just need to be alone...

"I understand... I'll just see you tomorrow." Niall gives me a shy smile. I don't reply.

Why the hell would he be seeing me tomorrow?! Dammit... I completely forgot my mother dearest invited him to brunch... Great...

Niall leaves around 7pm, I shortly drift off once he leaves.. At least I'm alone..

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