My (chemical) romance.

It's about the band My Chemical Romance (Gerard Way, Mikey Way, Frank Iero and Ray Toro). We all know the guys didn't like it at school and struggled with things. I'm gonna put that in the story and I'll also make things up like Frerard... Or is Frerard real... They never denied... :'D

I hope you'll like it! :D


7. If awkwardness was a sound

Silence but not the same as when I came downstairs. If awkwardness was a sound I would say I'm hearing too much awkwardness right now. Awkwardness and the footsteps of two guys who nothing have to say. Maybe I expected to much from Frank. I should dare to do more things. I'm afraid to do things wrong, but even if I try to do it right, I fail. Do I need to try harder or is this what I deserve? Do you always get what you deserve? I don't understand life.


''What's on your mind?''


Maybe a little conversation will let the awkwardness dissapear.


''I don't feel well...''

''You can tell me if you want to.''

''Can I ask you something..?''



It hurts to see Frankie like this. I'll always be here for him whenever he needs me. I'll make that clear today. If it works out, I've done well. If I fail again, it won't surprise me.


''Imagine you're gay, you tell your parents and a few days after you told them, they actually are very mean to you and... Uhmm yes, that. What would you do?''


Shall I tell him my story? Shall I tell him I'm gay too? I promised Mikey to tell him everything, I should tell him first but I can't see Frank like this. I need to help him. Make him feel better. I'm sorry Mikes, I'll tell you everything when I get back from school.


''I don't know but I think I need to tell you something.''

''Oh okay...''

''I really wanna help you but I don't know either. I'm gay too. I've told no one so far, except for you...''

''Really..? Are you kidding me?''


Does he think it's a joke? Doesn't it show that I don't like girls? Oh well maybe that's because I don't move or say that much when there are people around. I don't like people. I don't like opinions. People always have opinions. And they show it too much, too fucking much.


''No, seriously. I never told anyone. Even not Mikey...''

''Wow, I didn't expect this. I mean... I  thought maybe you were... But not for sure... Why didn't you tell anyone?''

''Me neither. Don't you think I'm already weak enough? They would hate me more than they already do. I can't get take more of this shit.''


I never thought I would actually talk about all this. I never talked about the bullies, my gay being or even just feelings. I feel like I finally have someone to talk with about it. Maybe only to talk about being gay and not getting respected by everyone around you but it's something. It's a start of sharing feelings, thoughts and spend time with people instead of drawing, singing, crying and hurting when you're all alone. I think it's called making friends. Maybe thinking positive, is the answer. Nothing much went wrong today. I'm different from me.


''I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that. You don't have to tell anyone. I just don't understand why you didn't tell Mikey.''

''Me neither. I'll tell him later today. If I know how...''


I know my brother was not against gay people but he treat Frank a little different since when he told he likes guys. I shouldn't compare myself with Frankie. I need to help him first, I'll think about Mikey later.


''I'm here if you need help. And about the people who bully you... You can always go to my locker when they do it again. I'm always there in the breaks with Ray. Sometimes Mikey is there as well. I guess you just need some people to be with, friends, people who can defend you.''

''Thanks, that's really sweet of you. No one ever did that for me...''

"No problem! I always see you sitting all by your own and I thought maybe you wanna... Yanno...Hang out with us..?''


Cutie. He's adorable. I never knew he was also this insecure. We could be friends. I'll go to his locker today. I guess this is the new start. The start that I always wanted.


''Yes, of course. I really appreciate your caring for me. If I ever can do something fo..''


This embracing was the best I had since years. I always wanted Frank his hugs. My tears fell on his dark blue jacket and I could fell his warm breath in my  neck.

His arms wrapped around me.

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