You Can't Have Both

Katie Pierce was your popular girl in school. had all the friends, and even the hottest boyfriend. she loved her life and she wished it could stay like that forever.

that was until her and her dad had to move half way around the world just after she finished senior year, forced to leave everything behind she loved.

she promised things to people that she now realises she cant keep. hatred soon grew back in her home town over her, after only a month in her new house.

will she try and regain all friendship with her old friends, or will she create a whole new life in an attempt to forget?


13. chapter thirteen

I was contemplating whether to read it or not. 


It's invasion of privacy I know that, but maybe she has written why shes been upset lately. 


I sat down against the wall beside her, took a deep breath in, and opened the first page. 


Diary entry 1

Today, I had to leave Australia behind, and it was really hard for me. I would miss all my friends and especially Luke. I promised them I would keep in touch though. I don't have complete faith in our long distance relationship, but hopefully it will work. I really love him. And hopefully London will bring me good things, even though I really don't want to be here.


I leaned my head back against the wall, and sighed, before reading onto page 2.


Diary entry 2

Omg today I met the most hottest looking guy I have ever seen! I went out for ice-cream and turned around and he was taking out trash next to the house next to me! Then I would never have thought he would have smiled at me. My heart wanted to melt. I smiled back trying to act cool before walking back home, but he walked towards me. The whole time we were talking I wasn't really listening, I was just admiring his dimples, and I mean I've written before how much I love dimples. He invited me into his house and we played some sort of 20 questions if you could call it that. I also met his mum and she was so lovely. Oh and Jesus when Harry's face was inches away from mine I just wanted to grab his messy locks and smash our lips together, but instead he tickled me. And I hate being tickled. Well at least I got him back and fully soaked him with the hose. And I'm glad I did, because his abs and tattoos showed through his white, wet tee. Hopefully we could be something more, I feel so comfortable around him.  


"So that's how she felt." I mumbled, a small smile appearing on my lips. 


Diary entry 3

Sorry for not writing for a while, but I've spent all my spare time with Harry. Well, except when he had to go off and spent some time with his 'girlfriend' and to be honest, I hate her. She one of the types of girls where all they care about is shoes, and make-up, and designer brand clothing. She's trained Harry like a dog so he runs around chasing her like a lost puppy. I cant exactly just bring that up and tell him either. He would be heartbroken, so that's why I'm writing to you. And I don't know what to do because the feelings I have for him are growing stronger and stronger every minute I spend with him. And when he showed up out of the blue and brought Rom coms and ice-cream when I was on my period, I knew he was the one I wanted to be with. Luke never did stuff like that, and he hasn't even tried contacting me since I left, and I have no phone because I lost mine. So I think we might be over. But anyway, when Harry and I snuggle, it makes me feel safe. And he called me his girl. I protested but he mumbled a 'you are my girlKatie' and I don't think he meant for me to hear it, but its giving me hope. Maybe just maybe one day I will be his. 


"You will be." I smiled, glancing up at Katie who was still sleeping with her face facing me.


Diary entry 4

Today my cramps were gone. I was free. I went out to tan but heard high pitched screams erupt from Harry's house, and I knew they were not his screams. It was Lauren's. I walked up to our fence and crouched, curiosity filling my body. I watched as he carried this supermodel over to the pool, chucked her in, then he jumped in after. He pushed her up against the wall, and that's when I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I stormed inside, and then went back out side a little bit later, to grab my stuff. I realised I had been wearing one of my favourite shirts Harry left here, and so I scrunched it up in my hand. He acknowledged me like nothing had happened, and I was not in the mood to talk to him. I refused his offer to watch movies later because I know I will continue to have these feelings for someone who is obviously in a happy relationship. I threw back his shirt and stormed back inside, sliding down and cried for ages. I regret being some mean, but my feelings were hurt, and he doesn't even have any idea. My self esteem has just dropped dramatically. I don't even know why I thought I had even the slightest chance with him.


I was speechless. How could I have been so oblivious?


Diary entry 5

I waited a week in bed, for those luscious curls and piercing green eyes to walk through my door and tell me everything was okay, but it isn't, and he hasn't. I went out and bought an iPhone and clothes, and returned with Harry sitting on my front step. I ignored him and walked straight to my room, and he followed. Again I was put second and we got into an argument, which I fully hated because I hate fighting with him. But we were alright at the end and we kissed! It was so magical! Butterflies erupted throughout my body as our lips moved in sync. After that we pretty much just fell asleep in each others arms. After that i wasn't angry with him. How could i be? After we kissed I knew how I felt about him. I love him. 


Katie shifted in her bed and I thought she was awake, so I slammed the book shut. It was a false alarm. She was still asleep. I flicked through the pages trying to find where I was up to. 


Diary entry 6

I woke up and harry wasn't there. He had left me for Lauren. again. For god sake I'm sick of this. I wish I had my best friend here to tell me what to do, but its hard because the one I'm having troubles with is my best friend. Harry called but I hung up on him after a minute. He just doesn't get it. Doesn't get what he has put me through. I checked Facebook and saw that Luke had blocked me as well, and that just sent me into shock mode. I grabbed a bag full of food and I've locked myself in my room. I don't want to see anyone. I wish harry knew how I felt, and how much loving him has hurt me. But he chose the perfect model Lauren, instead of the ordinary Katie. What am i saying, I was never an option anyway. It was always Lauren who was number 1. I'm going for a sleep now, I'll write later. 


I searched for a pen around her room. Once I found one I turned to the next page, and began writing a letter to her.  


Dear Katie,

I'm so sorry for everything I did to you, I never realised you felt the same way I did. I have been confused these past few months, but now my mind is clear. I broke up with Lauren today. I did it for you. You made me realise i was with the wrong person. I know you're sleeping right now, and to be honest I'm kinda glad you are, because i don't think i could be able to tell you this if you were awake, but Your the one I want to be with. I love you Katie.

Love Harry. 


I closed the book shut and placed it back beside her. I placed a soft kiss on her forehead before walking over to her chest of drawers placed in front of the door and pushed them aside. I closed the door behind me and left her house, and went back to mine.


The whole way home, the biggest smile was planted on my face. 


"She loves me." 

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