Diana

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~A girl once told me to be careful when trying to fix a broken person For you may cut yourself on their shattered pieces~

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14. Decisions

Diana's POV

 

I can't believe what I had just agreed to. I'm meeting people who I've never met and who will most likely judge me. I'm usually never this nervous but I think the fact that these are Liam's friends just makes matters worse. But I'm doing this for Liam. And even myself. I'm trying to prove to myself that I can be something and make an impression on people. I'm doing this before I make my decision.

 

A decision that will change my life forever.

 

I've been swimming in my darkest thoughts for too long now and I feel like that there is no way out. I know Liam is trying but I fear that he came too late. I feel that my decision will just be a retribution to what I've done to my own being.

 

I should have loved myself from the start. Somewhere in the mix did dark and degraded thoughts cloud my mind. If they would have only subsided sooner would I not be making this decision. I haven't done it yet because I feel that I owe Liam. The little time left is when I'm making the best of it, well the best I can of it.

 

You should have seen the look on his face when I told him that I would go. His smile could make a rainy day shine and frowns curve up prominently. The crinkles by his eyes just added to the shower of affection.

 

"I know they'll love you. They're not bad people like others are, you can trust me." And the thing is I do. 100 percent do I put my full trust into Liam's hands. I know he'll take good care of it and I'm not scared.

 

"Where are we even going?"

 

"Just that little restaurant down the way. I think it's called Kleifelds."

 

"What should I wear? If you haven't noticed I'm still in my p jams."

 

We both looked down at my extended legs on the couch and I wiggled my toes which were decorated with little ducks on them. We both laughed and got up.

 

"I actually have some of your clothes here that you left once. I washed them for you too."

 

For some peculiar reason I became embarrassed at the fact that he held some of my possessions. In some way I wish for him to keep them, a reminder that I was here.

 

"Thank you."

 

"We better start getting ready now. They want to meet up in about 40 minutes."

 

"Can I take a shower?"

 

"Of course. I'll make some tea."

 

I nodded and headed off to find my clothes and the shower. I collected my things and stuffed them in my arm and walked over to the bathroom. It was a bit cluttered and cozy. Just what I would expect from Liam.

 

I turned on the hot water and let my body soak in the cascading warmth letting my mind drift off into unsuspecting thoughts.

 

Am I making the right choice? How fair would it be to Liam if I fall through with my plan? This is why I don't get attached to people. They hinder my goals and stop me from succeeding in what I've been trying to do for a long time now.

 

Liam is the last person to have precluded my life goal. And I am going to make sure of it. The time is almost here. I will soon feel serenity and peace.

 

What is my plan you ask? Well that's for me to know and you to find out.

 

 

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