I Can't Live Without You

This is a story about what would happen if my greatest fear came true


2. Chapter 1

*A/N* Hey guys just a warning this chapter has some swearing in it. There will most likely be swearing throughout the story so just warning you know.


*charlotte's POV*

I woke up smiling because I realised it was the first day of the holidays.

"Char can you come down here please?"

"okay hang on mum".

I got up and grabbed some black ripped skinny jeans, a black tank top and my dark purple converse. I quickly had a shower then put my makeup on and put my hair in a messy bun.

"hey mum what's up?"

"Char were going over to Matildas house this morning. Her mum called saying it was important and she was crying."

I had a bad feeling, but I pushed it away hoping it was happy crying or something.


*at Matildas house*

When we knocked on the door I was surprised that Tills didn’t come running to the door to hug me. That bad feeling was back but I just pushed it away. Mel, Tills mum, opened the door. To be honest she looked like shit. Her eyes were read from crying and she looked like she hadn't slept at all.

" Char I'm so sorry. I should have seen it coming. I should have noticed the signs. I-I should have stopped it" her voice cracked on the last part as I realised what had happened. She had actually done it. Mel handed me a piece of paper.

"its written in some kind of code and I cant understand it but it has your name written on the front of it so I figured it was for you."

I hadn't realised I was crying until I noticed tear marks on the paper. I opened the piece of paper and she had written the whole letter in our sister code. When I got to the part about the cutting I lost it. She had actually done it. She had left me to be in some other place.  The last thing I said to her was are you okay. I never received a reply. This is all my fault. I should have told someone about the self harming and got her some help. How was I going to break this to the others. They would be devastated. I could faintly here mum and Mel asking me if I was okay but I didn’t feel like talking to them. I figured I should tell Oliver first. Not just because we were dating but because after me they had the closest relationship. I should call him. After a few rings he picked up.

" hey babe what's up? I was just about to call you. Tills isn't answering her phone."

"Olli sh-she's gone" I broke down at that point. I could here his voice getting shaky.

"what do you mean gone? Like on holidays?"

"No Olli. She hung herself last night. Sh-she left me a-a note saying she wa-as sorry and she loves us all."

"what? How could she leave us Char? Why? Did you know this was going to happen?"

"She had been self harming for a while but she told me she had stopped. I didn’t know she was going to take her own life."

" You fucking knew and you didn’t tell us?! Why?! We could have helped her!"

"I'm sorry Olli please. I need you. Please don’t yell. Please."

"fuck it Char. I'm sorry I need some space. Ill call you okay"

"Olli please do-"

He hung up. Now I had lost my boyfriend as well. I don’t think this day could have gotten any worse…

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