Don't Forget Me...

I'm awake... But nobody can see me.. I wake up in my house but nobody can see me not even my brother Louis.. Idk what's happening anymore. I almost gave up hope when he could.see me... He knew I was there.... He gave me hope.. I just prayed he wouldn't forget me...

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6. What to do

"Please tell her I love her Harry" Louis said almost pleading for Harry to tell me.

Why don't you just tell her yourself She can hear you, but you just can't see or hear her mate"

"Jam, I love you, and I am sorry about what I said the other night at the party, I swear to god I didn't mean s single word that came out of my mouth that night." I smiled,

"Louis, I love you to, and I am fine right now, I didn't mean anything that I said wither I swear, I just don't know what is happening anymore, and I am so scared"

 I told Harry, and he immediately repeated what I said.

By this point I think Louis couldn't hold back anything, he was on his knees full out crying covering his face with one hand. I ran over to him, and knelt down beside him trying to rub his back, but I knew it wasn't any use, he couldn't feel it, he couldn't feel my here for him. I wanted to be so badly, he was crying, and it was because of me, he was crying for me.

"Louis she is right beside you" I could tell he looked up, and all around expecting to see me there, but I wasn't.. I wanted to be, every single part of my being urged me to be there for him.

I started to cry, and for the first time since the entire thing happened, I felt a tear shed down my cheek, that didn't feel anything.

It was almost an indescribable feeling, I couldn't feel it, but I could tell it was there, is was just a soft tingle feeling.

I looked over to the bed, and there it was, the small tear that was floating down my empty body on my cheek. It was the only one, and no other tears came before it, or followed after it, even though I was crying my eyes out.

 

 

LOUIS POV***

I couldn't believe that Jamie just said she hated me, it almost shattered me inside, and I thought it did at the moment.

I didn't know what to say, I sat there trying to think of something to say back, but the first thing that came to my mind was to say it right back in her face. I didn't want to say that back to her, I knew she was just drunk, but before I had the chance to think that, those three words escaped my mouth.

I could see the hurt in her eyes, but it didn't stay there, because I could see the resentment taking control of her body.

I was going to come back in a bit after she had cooled down to pick her up, but I fell asleep. I didn't want to leave her there, but I couldn't stand there and watch her make a fool of herself anylonger.

I went to bed, and didn't even give it a second thought, and now I feel stupid.

It was a normal morning, and I had completely forgotten to check on Jam, but I had assumed that she was either in bed hungover, or at Chelsea's. Well I thought that up until the moment my mom called. I knew something was wrong as soon as I answered the phone, she never calls this early in the morning, and her voice was shaky like she had been crying, or running. She was short of breath, and I could hear it.

The first sentence came out of her mouth in a huge muffle, but I could still understand it. Honestly for a second I was frozen with a feeling that was a mixture of, hate resentment, fear, and depression all mixed into one big clump that stopped anything from coming out of my mouth.

It just felt like it wasn't real. we are a normal family, and this doesn't happen to people like us.. it can't happen. The person that has the biggest impact in my life could be gone for all I know at this point. I got to the hospital, and laying in that dull hospital bed was Jam. She laid there pale as a ghost, and motionless. There was a tube running down her throat from her mouth, and Iv's all over her body.

I couldn't bare to look at her, and know that it was my fault. I should of made her leave with me not matter what she said to me, I should have done more, I.. I shouldn't had fallen asleep.. I am her big brother, and I am suppose to protect her, and I let this happen to her.. this is my fault...

I don't think that I have ever been so mad at Harry.. well until he made up the shit about seeing Jam. He knew how badly I was hurting because of everything that happened, and he knew that I felt responsible for it. You can't do things like that, it made me almost want to punch him.

I was going to punch him until he said the thing about Gabriella.. nobody, and I mean nobody knows that besides me, and Jam.

Was she really here? I asked myself, I mean I knew it sounded crazy, but then Harry kept on telling me more things that only me, and Jam knew, and I knew that it was her. She was really there, and I just felt like a weight had been lifted off of my body. Mainly off of my heart, and I loved it, but there was so many things hat I had to say to her, that I felt were impossible to come out of my mouth.

I finally burst out what I needed to say, and I honestly couldn't bare to wait for a response, I needed to know that she was okay, even if her body wasn't.

It was almost impossible to believe, but when all of the proof was right there standing in front of you, and your best friend was telling you this.. you just had to have faith in it. What else can I have faith in?

JAMIE'S POV**

Louis was the best brother ever, he was so much more then just family to me, he was my bestfriend.

Harry got a call, but I couldn't take my attention away from Louis he was still crying, and he wasn't stopping anytime soon. I knew he felt like it was his fault, but it wasn't, and no matter what  he hears he is always going to blame himself for this.

I had forgotten that Harry had a girlfriend, and she needed him.

"That was Sam, she needs me to come pick her up, and take her to a party"

Harry said not sounding impressed that she was going to a party without him.

"Harry you can go with her.. It isn't a big deal.. I have nothing to do anyways" I said looking down at Lou still sulking in his hands.

"No it is fine, I will be back in about half an hour" I just nodded.

"Will you atleast help him back up please Harry"

He smiled, and walked over to Louis helping him up really gently making sure not to startle him, or hurt him. He was in such a fragile state right now, and I couldn't blame him, come to think of it, I didn't even know what state I was in... I don't know why, but I felt calm, and okay.

I am only 16, and I don't even know what going to happen to me... I might not ever get to hug my parents or my brother ever again.. I might not get to go to prom, or see my friends ever again... I won't get to do anything like that.. I will never have a life, I haven't even had my first kiss yet.

I haven't lived yet.. and now I might not ever get the chance to....

 

 

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