Don't Forget Me...

I'm awake... But nobody can see me.. I wake up in my house but nobody can see me not even my brother Louis.. Idk what's happening anymore. I almost gave up hope when he could.see me... He knew I was there.... He gave me hope.. I just prayed he wouldn't forget me...


15. losing it

"Niall" I said running to catch up with him well the rest of the boys walked ahead of me, which left me and Niall by ourselves."I need to know the truth, and I need to know it right now" I said trying to act serious, but he just giggled at me, "your cute when you try yo act tough" he said not paying any attention to me. NIALLS POV- I am crazy about Jam, and I knew it, there was no point in trying to lie to myself. I am to shy to tell her, but there was something else I needed to tell her, and I just couldn't keep it from her any longer.... When me and the boys are at basketball, we aren't actually there... We are part of a gang. I didn't want to tell her, and shit will happen if I tell her, not only to me, but her to. It was so hard to keep this from her, but Lou wasn't going to tell her, and with Lou fighting with the boss.. Well it puts het life in danger. She needs to know what she is up against.. I just couldn't over whelm her after everything that happened. She has been my closest friend for the past 2 years, and honestly I care about her more then the boys. I do care about her so much, and kissing her made that seem even more realistic, but her being involved with me would hurt her, or get her into trouble, and if worst came to worse she could be killed. It made me angry that Harry was going to take that chance with her, he was going to let her be opened up for even more pain, but he wouldn't change my mind, and she was to stubborn to stay away from us. Sometimes I hated her for being so stubborn, but it was something that I admired. I heard her yell my name, and run up behind me. I automatically knew what it was about, she wanted to know about the kiss. "Jam it was nothing, I just didn't want you to be completely unprepared" I said trying to hide the fact that I was lying threw my teeth. She just stopped, I knew she felt something because she looked at me the same way I was looking at her. I don't want her to get hurt, and if she left Harry for me he would flip out. "it was nothing" I said again She looked like she felt stupid, and sad more then anything. I wanted to tell her the truth, but I just couldn't get it out of my mouth. She started to sprint away from me, and I knew she was crying, I just tried to stay strong and stopped. She was almost a block ahead of me when I couldn't stay there any longer, I was sprinting after her. She was going back out to that stupid old fort. I opened the door slowly to the fort and there she was sitting in the middle of it, her face in shock as she held a little white note. She stood up and was pounding on my chest screaming, and crying, "how could you do this!?, how could you not tell me this!?" she demanded answers and she slowly started to lose anger, I felt horrible. I knew what the note said now it was Lou's note, it told her everything including that we were in the gang. He hit me one last time in the chest and I just wrapped my arms around her and held her tight trying to restrain her. She was crying, "you lied to me, I thought..." she stopped herself and burried her face in her hands. "I wanted to" I said, but he didn't want to hear what I had to say. I pulled her away so I could look at her face, I wiped the tears from her cheeks with the sweater I was wearing. "I am so sorry, I" I didn't know what to say anymore, she could be killed just from knowing this. She wasn't looking at me, I grabbed her face lightly with both hands and tilted her head up so she was just glancing at me. "I love you" the words escaped my mouth, and I regretted it. She looked up into my eyes, and for the first time I realized hoe breath taking hers were. They were blue with little hints of green in them, and they were focused on me and what I had to say next. "I... I think I love you to" she said looking up at me with those big blue eyes.. Those eyes that were looking at me, she trusted me, and I wasn't going to blow that like I blew up things with Candace. JAMIES POV) I can't believe that Niall just said he loved me, and I definitely couldn't believe that I said it back to him.. I didn't even know what love was, but now I think I had an idea of what it felt like. I paused looking at him, and he was looking at me, he was dead serious, and the inoccent Niall that I once knew would never be so inoccent to me again. He was different well in the way that I seen him. He leaned down, and pressed his lips against mime, and that feeling.. That amazing feeling that I got from the first time we kissed was back. I felt his hand carress the side of my face wiping the hair out from the view of it. My lips tingled and it felt like butterflies were attacking the inside of my stomach and I loved it. When he pulled away I giggled and just craved the touch of his lips on mine again. I stood up on my tippy toes, and reached up, and kissed him again. This time his arms wrapping around my waist as he pulled me in closer to him. I felt a shiver go threw my spine and it interrupted our kiss, I noticed that I was cold. He smiled, "babe your shaking" he said his forhead still against mine. But he was whispering, and.his accent turned me on. I just nodded my head enough that he could tell, and he took off his goody, and slid it down my arms, and then slowly down my stomach. His touch was cold, but it was still a lot warmer then I was. I smiled, and leaned my forhead against his chest that was warm from his hoodie. "can we get out of here?" I asked him still leaning into his chest. "we can go to the house" he said but I knew that it wasn't his own. He took me to some ratty house just on the outskirts of town. It looked abandoned on the outside, but when we walked in you could tell that people stayed there often. My room is up here, he said leading me up the stairs smiling, it didn't seem like anyone else was there.. It was warm in the house and it had a dingy smell to it. When we got in the room it pretty much looked like Nialls room at his real house. "your going to be to hot with that sweater and jeans on. He went to then dresser, and pulled out a pair of sweats, and a tshirt. He gave it to me and closed his eyes turning around, and I think he was just letting me do it to change, and I did quickly. He turned around, and grabbed my hand leading me to the bed, and let me lay down. He curled up in bed with me on the other side, and got comfy snuggling up to me, letting out a happy groan. I smiled as he put his one arm under my head, and the other on my stomach. He leaned in and kissed my cheek, "why Harry?" he asked me looking at me, but I didn't want to make with.him. "He seemed to sweet at first, and he was, I guess I just wanted a relationship, I didn't want to be alone anymore, and he was there for me" I said looking.up at the ceiling. He gave a weird face, and shrugged it off, I didn't feel this way when I was with Harry not even close. "I didn't know that I could feel that amazing with just one kiss" I said smiling closing my eyes, and thinking back tonwhen he kissed me for the first time. Hr was my first real kiss, and I liked it. I wanted those kisses to never end. "you mean like this?" he said smiling, and leaning in over me, and kissing me again while he got on top of me. I liked it, but I wasn't going to do anything until Harry and I weren't together anymore. I felt his hands slip up my shirt and then it start to slowly go up. "what are you doing?" I asked him. "I-I im sorry jam) he said looking embataased, and actually sorry about what he was trying to do. "don't be sorry, it's just not a good time" I said leaning on how chest. I fell asleep, but I don't think he did. When I woke up he was gone, and I was by myself cold. I looked around, but the room was empty. I started to walk down the stairs, but I was met by the entrance of the kitchen. "oh look Niall brought me a little present how cute" the guy said. I didn't say anything I just studied his face. He was not ugly that's for sure, he didn't look like he belonged in a gang, but looks can be decieving I reminded myself. He looked like he was in his mid twenties for sure older them me anyways. "why don't we take a little trip to my room"he said brushing the hair from my neck, I could feel his warm breath creep down the skin on my neck. "Jason leave her alone she is mine"i heard Niall Say but he sounded mad. "let me guess this is Lou's baby sister?" he asked still eyeing me up, and down, biting his lip. Niall just nodded, and came to me grabbing my hand, "well you know the rules in this house Blondie" he said to Nisll, and then walking a bit closer to me. I just tried to stay close to Niall I knew he wouldn't let anything happen to me. "yeah I do but we were just leaving" he said pushing by Jason. Jason looked mad, and I knew that it wasn't a good thing. "Don't even give him any attention, he is a Newby, a low level creep.. Nothing more then that" Niall said still dragging me outside to his car. "Where are you taking me?" I asked Niall as he started the car, and put it in drive. "anywhere but here right now, Jason may be a low level creep, but he always gets what he wants, and right now his eyes are set on you love" I gulped my spit down, and nodded slowly. "you wanna know why Harry dated that slut Sam?" Niall asked, but his usual happiness was gone from his voice. I just nodded, and talk. "cause all the boys had their way with her, he brought her into the house for that reason, and that reason only. The rule is once a girl is in the house and a guy wants her he gets her no matter what" Niall said so seriously, this just sound like some made up rule, and it was stupid. Girls are people not things that you can have when you wanna fuck. "Niall, please don't let that kid get me.. " I said, and I am pretty sure he could tell how serious I was. "Jam the only person that will ever even touch you in that house is me" I smiled at him. We pulled up in front of Harry's house, and anger filled my entire body. How could he of all people not tell me that he was in a gang, I had to hear it from a suicide note. Harry came running outside to my side of the car opening the door for me. I had forgotten that I was in Nialls sweats and a tshirt. It was cold out, and Harry wrapped his hands around me pulling me in so close to his body. "why didn't you tell me..." I said looking up at him, and those big green eyes pushing away from his chest, and taking a step back. "were you just going to take me back to that house like you did with Sam?" I asked and he looked confused for a second. "Niall you fucking told her didn't you" Harry said walking.over to the car. "No actually Lou left it in his note Harry." Niall was trying to sound so innocent when hr said that, but the innocent Niall I knew was an illusion now. "Harry it doesn't change the fact that you lied to me, you kept a huge secret from me!" I said looking down at the ground. "baby" Harry said letting his sweet side start to peek threw a little bit. I knew I couldn't stay mad at him, but I could try to. He took me inside leaving Niall free to leave the house, and he did. Harry was smiling at me, but I still couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that the boys were in a gang, or that they lied to me about it. "babe?" I asked Harry while we were in bed. "yeah?" he asked almost scared to hear my question. "don't take me to that house ever..." I said, and he let out a giggle. " you are way to important to me to even take that risk" he said as he grabbed my hand.
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