Because...I can love you more than this [Niall]

[It is a fan fiction - but because it is more like a romance, I will put it as romance]

Meet Jessie Brooks, 16-year-old teenager living in Nanaimo. She did not sing often, but she got her heart broken - unintentionally - by the guy she was in love with since grade 8. So, what happens when she starts posting cover more? Especially - If they are, One Direction covers.

Will a certain member notice it?

[I tried not to make this a cliché Fan Fiction, but it started as one. Also, it is technically 'based on my life' because, well, yeah.]

P.S.: My original story of this consists of 28 chapters - but this one was shorten due to lack of space for some chapters - as some of the ones I posted were shortened.

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22. Chapter 23: Give Him A Chance

Quick note: There was supposed to be a 'Thanksgiving' chapter before this one.

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Jessie’s POV

It was early December. Niall and I had been hanging out more often since Halloween. We are still considered a cute couple – even though we are not really dating. Niall and I are still fake dating. Honestly, I fall for him more and more as the days pass bay. It’s actually the 2nd right now. A few years ago…I started dating my first boyfriend. Well, I honestly still think about that night.

 

** Flashback, December 2nd 2011 **

It was a Friday, and it was our school’s winter formal that night. The week had been busier than normal. Normally I just do school work and such. This week was different. The other day, I told my crush I liked him. He is a nice boy; I can actually call him boy because he is half a year younger than I am. He reminds me of myself a little. Although, he is nerdier than I am. At our school, we have a break between our second and third block classes. I was walking away from my locker to find Grace. Before I could continue to walk away, someone called me. I turned and saw my crush.

 

Aaron, “Hey Jess.”

I smiled, “Hi Aaron.”

He smiled, “So…”

I laughed, “So…”

He started getting nervous, “So… I was wondering… If you…wanted to uh…”

I laughed, “To what?”

He was still nervous, “If you wanted to go to the winter formal with me?”

 

Honest to god, I was so nervous that I actually started walking away without answering. It was not because I did not want to go. It was merely because I did not want to answer there. I mean, I am shy; I rather not answer him in front of a hallway of people. Before I could fully walk away, I heard something.

 

Aaron said, “I take it you want to.”

I laughed, “Sure, yeah. I uh, have to go…”

 

I awkwardly walked away. I turned and saw him with a smile on his face. I walked away and my only thought was, ‘I made him happy, that’s great.’ I walked towards Grace and told her about what happened. She just laughed at how dorky he was.

 

** Skip ahead to winter formal **

I had gotten ready with Mary and Paige. Mary and Paige made sure I looked better than I normally would for a dance. I was actually quite happy, more than I usually was. I mean, lately, my feelings have been out of place. I have been either too happy, or too sad. Today, I am glad it is too happy.

 

When we arrived to formal, it took about 10 minutes until Aaron had shown up. Paige and I were in the gym–where the dance was being held–and Mary was talking to some other friends. When I saw Aaron, I walked out of the gym and into the foyer.

 

I smiled, “Hey Aaron, come on.”

He smiled, “He Jess, you look nice.”

I laughed, “Yeah, yeah, come on.”

He smiled, “Alright.”

 

I dragged him into the gym. Usually at dances, I would dance a lot. Honestly, Aaron is not a good dancer – which is why I was perfectly fine not dancing. Paige noticed I was not dancing. You see, that night, I apparently lost my rhythm. Paige just shook her head at the fact my hips could not sway to the beat well. Slow songs would come on, and all I would do is look at Aaron hoping we could slow dance. Either someone read my mind or something – but someone pushed Aaron and together so we could slow dance. You see, he and I, we were so nervous we apparently could not ask each other to dance.

 

I laughed lightly near his ear, “This was a weird way of asking to dance.”

He laughed lightly, “Yup, definitely weird.”

I smiled, “I’m glad though.”

He smiled, “Me too.”

 

I rest my head on his shoulder – considering he is taller than I am, it was also a little hard to rest my head. I felt comfortable, and safe in his arms. I find that weird though, he has like stick and bones – yet I liked him. I guess to me, that did not matter, what mattered was he was sweet and a gentleman.

 

When the dance came to its ending, it was the last song – ironically, it was a slow dance type song, and my favourite song.

 

--- ‘Cause girl you’re amazing, just the way you are. ---

 

I smiled and looked up to him, “Aaron.”

He looked down, “Yes?”

I smiled, “Want to go out, like you know, boyfriend-girlfriend.”

He smiled, “Sure.”

 

As the song ended, I just smiled. We were just swaying back and forth until it ended.

 

We walked out of the gym and grabbed out jackets. I had all my stuff and he was putting on his jacket.

 

I said, “You were very enthusiastic about your answer earlier.”

He nodded, “What answer?”

I laughed, “To you know, us.”

He smiled, “Right, well I definitely want to.”

I smiled, “Me too.”

 

He smiled and walked away because his mom was there to pick him up.

That was the end of my first night with him.

 

I was not daydreaming about the past anymore. Niall was currently waving a hand in front of my face.

 

I laughed, “Yes Ni?”

He laughed, “You’ve been sitting there for like 10 minutes muttering, he’s so nice and gentleman like. I was getting worried what you thinking about.”

I laughed, “The past.”

He nodded, “What about it?”

I smiled, “My first slow dance with my first boyfriend. He was a nice guy.”

He nodded, “Tell me about it?”

I sighed, “Nah, I rather not bum myself out about this – once again.”

He nodded, “Does it bum you out a lot?”

I sighed, “Sometimes, mostly because he was my first love.”

He nodded, “Alright.”

I smiled, “You’re trying to learn something, aren’t you?”

He blushed, “Err, a little.”

 

I laughed, “Oh Niall… I will tell you some things. I may not want to fall in love – but I am a huge romantic. I mean like, slow dancing without music. Candlelit dinners, moonlight walks–either in a park or at a beach. Going to Paris for our honeymoon. Being together until we’re grey and old.”

Niall smiled, “You’re too cute.”

I laughed, “Thanks Ni, I always love hearing that.”

He laughed, “Ah, there’s the sarcastic part of you I love.”

I smiled, “And there is the adorable singing Irishman I’ve been falling for.”

He smiled, “Glad we’re on the same page.”

I smiled, “Me too.”

 

He leaned in and I leaned in. We both leaned in without tilting our heads…so we ended up crashing our heads into each other. I groaned as our foreheads hit. He did the same thing. Somehow, we cannot seem to kiss properly.

 

He chuckled, “How about we do something else?”

I smiled, “Sure, what would you like-“

 

He picked me up and brought me to his room. I know that sounds like it is heading in that direction. It is not. He knows I am waiting… He carried me and slowly dropped me on the bed.

 

He smiled, “Care to dance, milady?”

I smiled, “Of course, kind sir.”

 

He took my hand and we started slow dancing. I guess he is starting on my list of romantic things. We were swaying back and forth. I looked up at him, and he looked down. We were just grinning. After 5 minutes, we heard light claps. I kept my head on his chest, but looked towards the door and saw the other lads. Liam was grinning as if he were a kid in a candy store. Harry was smiling his cheeky smile, probably wondering why we are slow dancing in his room. Louis was just grinning and swaying himself, probably imagining it were him and Eleanor. Zayn looked happy, probably wondering when Niall suddenly became even more romantic than he had said in the past. I just looked back at Niall. When I did, I noticed a little red on his cheeks. He was probably embarrassed the boys ruined our moment.

 

I chuckled lightly and whispered in his ear, “Don’t worry, nothing is ruining this moment.”

He grinned and whispered, “I’m glad, because I could stay like this forever.”

I smiled and whispered, “Me too and-“

 

Suddenly my phone started ringing. I groaned and quickly looked at it. It was a Tweet, from Grace. I wonder why. I mentally shrugged and closed the app. I looked back at Niall. He looked concerned.

 

I whispered, “It was a tweet from Grace.” He just nodded and continued swaying. Until, suddenly my phone rang again. I groaned more.

 

I looked at my phone and saw it was a Facebook notification from Paige – saying I was tagged in a post, alongside Anne, Audrey, Mary and Elizabeth. I sighed and decided to look at it.

 

I looked at the post and saw that Paige had travelled to Ontario – but she was hurt. Apparently, she had been in a car accident. I guess her mom signed on to tell us, us meaning her best friends. I sighed. I do not know if they are hinting to me having to go back again or not.

 

Niall looked down, “What’s wrong?”

I sighed, “My friend… Err… Remember her, the random one who’s currently dating my first ex?”

He nodded, “What about her?”

I was actually close to tears, “She uh, she was travelling to Ontario…and apparently she got in a car accident.”

 

He suddenly stopped swaying and pulled me even closer. He brought me into one of his famous Horan hugs. Honestly, I have known him over a year, and I am still not used to this. I could tell he felt bad for me. Honestly, people thought I was idiotic and somewhat jealous when my best friend started dating my ex. Anyone else, I’d probably be pissed – but those two go better together than Liam and Danielle do, more than Louis and Eleanor, even more than Zayn and Perrie. Honestly, that is saying a lot. They were made for each other. They have too much in common – but it is good for them. Some couples do better on differences. Them, they do better on similarities. Suddenly, I felt more body heat on me. I turned and saw the boys joined the hug. I guess they stood there wondering if it was all right to join or not.

 

Niall sighed, “You’re alright, right Jess? Do you want to go back to Canada?”

I shrugged, “I don’t know… If it gets worse maybe – but currently I just want to stay here. This is my home now, that place will now be known as my hometown.”

He smiled weakly, “All right, we could always fly you there. Maybe we can do that, and it can be our trip, and you could show us around your hometown.”

I smiled, “That does sound good.”

He smiled, “Good, now let’s go pack and we can surprise them.”

I smiled, “Even belter. Thanks Niall.”

 

He was about to say something. The boys coughed.

 

I smiled, “Thanks you four too.”

Liam smiled, “Welcome. Hope your friend is okay.”

I smiled, “I think she will be. Actually, I know she will be.”

Harry sighed, “I hope it goes well.”

Louis agreed, “Yeah, hopefully it doesn’t get worse.”

Zayn sighed, “I don’t even know what to say.”

I chuckled, “Whoa, Zayn Malik, speechless, and it isn’t even Perrie?”

Zayn chuckled, “I’m glad you try to be happy in a sad time.”

I sighed, “Honestly I am on the verge of tears…but I’m not that type of emotional person.  I hide it. I bet you, you guys leave me alone for a few minutes and I’ll start tearing up then.”

Niall sighed, “Jess, just cry. We’re here for you, always.”

I smiled, “I know, but that isn’t what I’m worried about.”

Niall nodded, “About Paige.”

I nodded, “I know she’s strong, but I still worry.”

Niall nodded, “Come on love, let’s go get some tea or something.”

I smiled, “Doughnuts?”

Niall nodded, “Whatever you like.”

I smiled, “Doughnuts it is then.”

Niall laughed, “Come on love.”

 

I smiled and Niall walked me back to my room so I could change. I walked in a let a few tears slip. I put on some dark blue skinny jeans, with a bright blue shirt. I put a blue hoodie on. I added my usually hat I wear, or toque. I walked to the main area of our flat and grabbed my black boots.

 

Niall smiled, “Ready love?”

 

I nodded and we walked out of the flat. Niall opened the door of the car. I guess we are going in two cars. I was in the car with Louis driving. Niall and Liam were with me. Zayn and Harry were in the other one. I sat next to Niall. He put his arm out signalling for me to cuddle with him. I gladly accepted. I snuggled into him letting my tears come out slowly. Niall started rubbing my back soothingly. Liam looked back and sadly smiled. He turned on the radio. Suddenly, I heard a familiar song… One of Paige’s favourite she always wanted to learn on guitar, but I do not think she ever did.

 

--- You’re beautiful, it’s true. ---

 

I started crying more and more. Niall noticed and got Liam to turn it off.

 

Niall asked, “What’s wrong love?”

I sniffled, “Paige liked when I used to play that song on guitar…”

He sighed, “How about, when we return to the flat, you play the song?”

I nodded, “Sure…”

He smiled, “Great, it’ll allow you emotions to come out – instead of being bottled.”

I smiled, “Thanks Niall.”

He nodded, “Welcome Jess.”

 

I smiled and leaned back onto him. I was getting tired. I started nuzzling my face in his neck. Honestly, he smells good. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. God, that reminds me of Paige again. She always used to say the people you are not related to smell good. This is apparently, why I smelled so good to her and my other friend, Josie. It became an inside joke while were in Abbotsford for May long weekend. –if you aren’t Canadian, May long weekend is when we celebrate Victoria Day– It was a nice trip though. I felt a tear slowly slide down my cheek. Niall must have felt it – I mean who wouldn’t. Unless you just think it’s raining inside a car with a roof, it would make no sense. Then again, Niall has his blond moments.

 

Niall sighed, “What’s wrong now?”

I laughed, “You smell good.”

He raised an eyebrow, “Ouch, is that bad, or good.”

I chuckled, “It’s good, actually great. It just reminds me of a trip with Paige…”

He sighed, “Tell me.”

I chuckled, “So. Paige and I, well a few others – but that is not important. We went to Abbotsford. It was May long weekend. We had just gone swimming. So, we shower after swimming and stuff. Then we go to White Spot, and Paige decides that she is going to sniff Josie – one of our friends – and stat a fact. Apparently, when you aren’t related to someone, they smell good. So they walked around the table and sniffed everyone. Apparently I was the best smelling.”

He laughed, “So that’s why you smell good… I thought it was like the body wash or something.”

I laughed, “I thought that at first, but apparently I didn’t smell like Strawberries then, so it wasn’t.”

 

I sighed and nuzzled back into Niall’s neck.

 

He chuckled, “Love we’re here.”

 

I groaned and got up. Niall was out of the car and helped me out. Suddenly I heard flashes everywhere. I sighed and mentally slapped myself because I did not have sunglasses – I guess I cannot even wear them due to my normal glasses. Niall looked at me and sighed. He hated being in public sometimes, like, to the point everyone knows you are there. He handed me a pair of sunglasses that look like Harry’s. Sure enough they were Harry’s, they had a H on them. I smiled up to him a whispered a thank you. He just nodded. We continued walking into the café where the doughnuts where. I sighed as I noticed which café it was. It was the one I no longer work at. We walked in, and I saw the one person I had not seen in over a month.

 

I sighed, “Hello Mark.”

He turned, and hissed, “What do you want Jess?”

I sighed, “Mark-“

He cut me off, “No, I don’t want to hear it. You two are dating.”

I sighed, “Come with me, quickly.”

He sighed, “Fine…”

 

I pulled him to the employee’s area. I sighed as I started explaining.

 

I said, “Mark, I wasn’t lying I was in love with you, maybe not now. I just could not say I love you because I rather hurt myself by hurting someone else, than having someone hurt me. I know it sounds selfish, but it was how it worked. I will say I did have feelings for Niall when we were together, but it was you, it was you I wanted; the one I already had. I feel sorry for drifting away from you, causing our break up. Niall and I are not together. Not in reality, but publicity type thing. Yeah, yeah, I know we have feelings for each other. Do you want to know the reason why I cannot date him right now? It is because I am not heartless, I still care for your feelings, I still care how you’d feel if we just started dating immediately. But I didn’t, I did it for you.”

He sighed, “I’m sorry Jess… I’m sorry I was being a jackass. I just didn’t want to lose you to some pop start. Turns out, I had you all along, and no one could have changed that. Yet I did.”

I sighed, “I know, I can say, I miss us, but I’m all right with my life right now.”

He sighed, “I know. I feel like shit for losing you. Can I ask something?”

I nodded, “Anything.”

He smiled, “Can we be friends, like just friends, no boyfriend-girlfriend relations. Just strictly friends?”

I smiled, “I’d love that.”

He smiled, “Great, now Jess, take Niall, allow him as yours – because there will be a point he won’t want you anymore. He may say forever. It’s true, his feelings will, but that doesn’t mean he’ll wait forever. There will come a point someone else will ask him out and he’ll no longer be single. So allow him, I don’t care about yours and mine past, just yours and his future. So go, tell him you want him.”

I smiled, “Thanks.” I kissed his cheek and walked back to Niall.

 

I walked back to Niall looking happier than I thought. Niall looked at me confused. He was probably wondering why I was so happy.

 

I smiled, “Mark gave me advice.”

He nodded, “So no more Messie situations?”

I nodded, “Yup, Messie is better off as friends.”

He smiled, “Alright, so how about Jiall?”

I chuckled, “You’re talking about me right? Not you and Bieber?”

He shrugged, “Honestly, I don’t know… Both?”

I giggled, “You are a weird one Horan.”

He smiled, “I know I am, Brooks.”

I smiled, “Hey I have to talk to you later – privately.”

He nodded, “Sure.”

 

I smiled and we waited in line a little longer. I had the perfect way to ask him out. I guess, I mean, it is the best. I hope that it will work. Niall and I ordered our snacks and waited. Once everything was ordered, we walked back to the car. Louis and Liam were sitting there chatting.

 

Liam said, “Hey, so what did you two get?”

Louis mumbled, “Other than you two kissing…”

I smacked his arm, “For your information Louis, I ran into a past.”

Louis raised an eyebrow, “Care to explain?”

I chuckled, “I ran into Mark.”

Louis said, “Did you two make out?”

I laughed, “Funny one Tommo, but now. He gave me advice actually.”

Louis said, “What would that be?”

I leaned in closer to his ear and whispered, “To give Niall a chance.”

Louis smiled, “Do it.”

I chuckled, “Later.”

Louis nodded, “Fine.”

Niall coughed, “Err, what are you, two talking about?”

I giggled, “Something, important.” I winked.

Louis smiled, “Very important.”

Niall laughed, “All right, let’s go back to the flat now.”

 

I nodded and we piled into the car. We drove back to the flat. The drive back seemed shorter than the drive to the café. I looked at Niall and he looked like he was in deep thought.

Niall’s POV

We were back at the flat. On the drive home, all I could think about is what Jess wanted to talk about in private. I mean, she said Mark gave her advice, but on what? I have wanted to ask her out since her and mark broke up. I know she would not say yes, not because she did not have feelings, but because she had feelings. Sounds weird, but it is not. She just is not heartless. That is what I like about her. I was in deep thought and suddenly I felt someone flicking me. I turned and saw Louis smirking.

 

Louis said, “Mate, you’ve been sitting there staring at Jess.”

I sighed, “I uh, never mind.”

Louis laughed, “You want her, don’t you mate?”

I nodded, “Always, she’s like an addiction.”

Louis laughed, “Well talk to her.”

I nodded, “Fine.”

 

I got out of the car and let Jess out of the car. Jess and I walked inside to our flat. I walked to my room and grabbed my guitar. I sat next to her.

 

I said, “Play, play the song that reminds you of Paige.”

She smiled sadly, “Fine…”

 

She grabbed the guitar and slowly started playing the song. She did not seem to know all of it, but she knew the beginning of it. I smiled as she played; she was not bad at it.

 

She sighed, “I uh, never learned the full song. I decided not to.”

I nodded, “It’s fine, do you have the lyrics or something?”

She nodded, “Yeah, I do, on my iPod.”

I nodded, “Okay, I’ll grab it for you.”

 

I grabbed he iPod from her bag. I gave it to her. She put her headphones in and started singing,

 

---

My life is brilliant.

 

My life is brilliant.

My love is pure.

I saw an angel.

Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.

She was with another man.

But I won't lose no sleep on that,

'Cause I've got a plan.

 

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

---

Jess repeated the song again and I slowly started singing along with her.

 

Soon enough, the lads walked into the flat just listening to our voices harmonize. I never really heard this song, but it says so much. It probably means a lot to her now. I like this song. It is different from what I usually listen to, but it is perfect. When we finished singing, Jess was still humming it; it must be the rest of the song, which she does not know how to play.

 

Jess smiled, “Thanks for letting my emotions come out.”

I chuckled, “A weird thing to thank me for – but I’ll take it.”

She giggled, “Actually I wanted to thank you a different way.”

Harry cheered, “Go Nialler.”

I shushed him, “Shh Haz. Now what exactly are you thinking?”

She smiled, “Let’s go out, like a date.”

 

I gulped; she is asking me on a date. Shouldn’t I be the one asking her?

 

She chuckled, “I know you Ni. I know you are wondering why I am the one asking, and not you. Well, the answer to that is because I need to take charge on my love life for once. This is where it starts.”

I smiled, “Alright, it’s a date. But where?”

She chuckled, “Just get ready, we’ll be outside tonight.”

I smiled, “Alright.”

 

She laughed and went to her room. I grinned wondering what we were going to do tonight. I guess I should go get ready now. Louis looked at me as if he knew what was happening. Maybe that’s what they were whispering about.

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