Learning to Trust

*Sequel to Different From the Rest*
Kady is grown up now. She is now eighteen, a far cry from fourteen. There is no One Direction, if you asked your kids about them they'd be like "are you high again?" Kady's stutter is long gone, but the fears from it will never surrender. Being alone, forgotten, useless. Mainly she can't trust, anyone, not others around her, not herself. She makes a mistake that can't be fixed, and must go on with her life. Kady has to learn that you must leave the past behind you before you can move forward and not all mountains can be moved. It's a bowl of cherries, with a few-no many, nuts thrown in.

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3. Ellen

The next morning, I do what I always do, get up, get dressed, grab a quick bite, then walk on the beach with Scooby Doo. Liam has an interview with Ellen Degeneres and he left early this morning. Though he is not in One Direction, doesn't mean he isn't known anymore. Scooby Doo isn't awake so I go outside by myself. I sit on the sand, right on the edge of the water. I let my bare toes dangle in the water. The sound of seagulls fills the air. I think about my life, again. Can I really trust Liam? I don't let people in, ever. Sure, I don't worry as much about him on the road, but will he really be there for me through thick and thin? Will I be there for him? I don't want to fuck up his life like what I did to Samara who is now six. What if my stutter comes back? Recently, I've had nightmares of being unwanted, forgotten. Liam's arms have always been there to comfort me, but will they always? My stutter has set me back and there's no changing that. Why did Liam even like me in the first place, why didn't he just ditch me on the spot? I look at my ring, imagining taking it off. If I marry him, it's not fair to him. No, I shouldn't even think of that. Though, that thought has been slowly sneaking into my head every so often. I lay down to absorb the sun's weak rays. I pull my running jacket back over my pale shoulders. There are ugly freckles on them. The same kids from yesterday come out from closed doors. A few of them start to walk towards me, "Come here guys, I don't bite."
Two boys and a girl start to walk towards me. They shuffle their feet on the ground. They sit down behind me. 
"Hi, I'm Kady Brown and I'm your neighbor. I live in that house," I say pointing to the abnormally large white house. The kids are no older than seven and they look afraid of me. 
"Hi I'm Lauren and these are my friends Jaxon and John. Mom says to stay away from your house, the man living there is a bad person," the girl, Lauren says, playing with her thumbs. Jaxon and John are doing the exact same things. Their heads are down and they look ashamed. 
"Oh, my fiancé Liam? He's not bad, people just think he's bad because he was in a band," I say. 
"Cool, what band?" asks Jaxon. 
"A band called One Direction, they split up about two years ago."
A head pops out the front door of a light blue house. It's a middle aged woman with winkles on her forehead and lips pressed tightly together, "Lauren, Jaxon, John, come here now."
The kids start to run towards her. She huddles them together and shoots me a nasty glare as she leads the children inside. I sigh, so this is what neighbors think of me and Liam. Just another reason to leave him. But, I've already changed my life to suit him better. For example, I'm not in college. I want to be, but Liam said he gave up his job so he could see me more, it's only fair. Plus, with all the money he made from One Direction can already put us into retirement. But, as I said before, can I trust him? What if he's lying, with no college degree I'll have to work for minimum wage at some fast food restaurant or Starbucks. Starbucks wouldn't be so bad, though. It's just in me, I can never trust anyone no matter how hard I try. I stand up and I walk into the house to watch Liam on Ellen. I try to make a point to watch all of Liam's shows. Also, this one Ellen said will be mainly about me. Oh crap, I'll watch it anyway though. 

"Welcome to the Ellen show!" Ellen says loudly doing some sort of dance. I roll my eyes. She introduces Liam and Liam walks in with a bunch of girls screaming in the audience. It's amazing of how the fans never forgot about Li or One Direction. Liam gives his signature grin and takes a seat across from that nut job. Ellen says hi Liam, then how's life blah, blah, blah. Then it gets to the topic of me. I put my face into a pillow from all the embarrassment. 
"Liam, how are you and your girlfriend, Kady, doing?"
"Well, thanks. Actually um, now we are, you know engaged."
"Wow, a lot has changed since the last time we saw you. Does it bother you she stutters?"
"She doesn't anymore. She worked hard and it payed off, good job doing your research," he says and the audience laughs. 
"I am amazing, aren't I? But why date Kady? There are prettier girls and ones that are more talented," she says and my jaw drops. I want to turn off the TV, but my hand is frozen still. 
"She's amazing, and one of the prettiest girls in the world, some just do not see it, those people are blind. Plus, she's really talented, she may not play field hockey like she used to, but she is talented at other things, like being nice," he says in a small voice. Obviously, that last sentence was directed towards Ellen. My hand finally cooperates and I turn off the TV and I quietly start to sob. People still have not grown up, get used to it, I'm probably not going to leave. My iPhone 9s beeps and it's Yahoo! alerts. Liam Payne defends fiancé and disses Ellen at the Same Time. I open the article and it's all about how Liam is "so mean" to gays and he said that to say gays like Ellen are worthless. I want to throw this phone down right now. Why do people like Ellen get all the sympathy because their different, I'm not saying they are bad, I respect their opinions? Ellen clearly took a jab at me, and no one calls her out for it. What a stupid world we live in. 

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