Can You Be Trusted?!

Second book to: If You Really Cared--------

Carter still hasn't found the meaning of her life. She's still learning to trust the five boys she has always known as bullies. Now that her family is all dead, in jail, or hates her guts she has to turn to someone. Who will it be?


26. Chapter 26

Carter's POV

I throw myself onto Louis's bed and cry there. This is all my fault! I should have been stronger! Damn't! Why cant I ever do anything right?! I could have saved him! He shouldn't be like that, I should! I don't understand, I can never do anything right. He's good as dead now, I SHOULD BE THE DEAD ONE!

"Shit Carter..." I mumble under my breath and wipe some tears only to have more stream down. I fuck everything up... EVERYTHING! I should die... If I just die, I could see Kyle, my mom... I could give the boys a break... If I just died. I wipe some tears, grab a paper from a close by drawer, jab a pen into my arm and don't hesitate, and then begin writing un-neatly on a ripped corner of the paper.

"I'm sorry Louis, I could have saved you... I understand its my fault. I should have burnt in the fire, it should have been me. I'm sorry Harry for letting you get shot... I'm taking my punishment. I love you all... goodbye.      -Carter"

I lay it as neatly as possible on the pillow by my mascara stains and tread towards the bathroom. I slowly turn the doorknob and listen once more to them all downstairs.

"You know who this is Louis?" Savannah asks. "My mom?" I can hear the un-sureness in Louis's voice.

"Yea... see and that's all of us, together." Liam says. I let another tear fall and continue into the bathroom.

"Bye," I sigh into the mirror and begin my search through the cabinets. I finally find the small bottle of pills I had seen in here before and didn't think much of then but what now?

I sit on the side of the tub and read the bottle. I know I'm trying to procrastinate this whole thing but I cant... not anymore. I grip the top of the bottle with my, now freezing, fingers and begin to twist it. The top comes off easily, too easily and I pour every last pill into my palm. My freezing but still very sweaty palm.

"Bye world..." I say my last words and lift my hand towards my mouth. My mouth opens and the tension hurts every muscle in my, now living, body but I continue. The sulfur taste enters my mouth and I begin to swallow. 'Goodbye'

Harry's POV

"I have to," I sigh and run up the stairs after Carter it's been like fifteen minutes and Liam quickly follows behind me. We used to could hear her sobbing slightly but the past few minutes have been so silent it's deadly.

"Carter..." I knock on Louis's bedroom door but knowing she wont answer I push the door open. She's not there. Nothing. I see a small note sticking up from a pillow on the bed. Oh no... not again. I run to the side of the bed and grab up the note. Read, read, read, read...
"Liam!" I almost holler and in seconds he's running towards the bathroom. He must have read over my shoulder.

"Carter!" he bangs on the door and I can hear slight sobs coming from inside. Zayn, Louis, and Niall all rush to us followed by Savannah with tears in her eyes. I practically throw the note at Zayn and they all read it. Even Louis.

"Carter!" Liam screams again. He begins to kick the door, hard, over and over again. I hear a click from inside... what can she be doing? I know she cant be killing- I cant say it. Finally Liam bursts the door open and he's the first one inside...




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