You're Not Alone (Niall Horan/One Direction)

Mia Alexandra, prefers to be called Alex because she got bullied because of her unusual name, now she doesn't just get bullied because of her name. No her life was ruined by her father, he got arrested and put in prison for murder. Her family left her on her own when she needed them the most. Her two best friends turned against her and started bullying her. Will she be pushed to complete destruction? When One Direction turn up at her school, will she let them in and allow them to fix her?

Contains: bullying, self harm and suicide attempts but it also contains crazy moments, sleepovers and love


29. The Funeral!

- Chapter 25 -

Well, this is it, the day has arrived, today being the day that I say goodbye to my best friend, I feel incredibly guilty for having an argument with her and never getting the chance to say that I'm sorry! She died with that argument fresh in her mind...

I haven't eaten and barely left my room, just me and my grief locked in this room, I don't know where the tears are coming from, they just keep streaming down my face, I thought I'd have no tears left to cry but I clearly do.

Getting dressed seemed such a chore today, wearing a simple black skater skirt and a white long sleeved blouse with a black blazer, I made my way down the stairs at a snail's pace, I still can't come to terms with what happened. Niall looked up from his place on the couch as I reached the bottom step, he looked so lost, I haven't spoken to him since that day, he's tried to talk to me but it is like I've built a wall around myself. I miss him.

I walked over to him and he held his hand out for me to take, but I wrapped my arms him and buried my head in his chest, it took him by surprise because he stood frozen for a few seconds before his strong arms encircled my waist and held me tighter. We stood like that for awhile before Liam popped his head round the door frame "time to go guys," we let go of each other but our hands stayed glued together as we walked out the door.

Just seeing the funeral car and the mahogany coffin was bad enough, I don't know what I'll be like at the service. People keep trying to talk to me but I just seem to be blocking everything out, the only person I've spoken to is Niall and that was only to say "can we go? Please!" he simply nodded and lead me to his car.

"I know this is a really stupid question...but, how are you doing?" he asked

"I'll be honest, I've been better, I witnessed my best friends murder and now I have to go to her funeral, I didn't picture this to happen at all." I whispered 

"Are you making a speech?"

"Yeah, I think so,"

"Mia, I've missed you, I know you've been going through hell, but I wish you would have talked to me or at least let me near you. I could have helped you know, been your shoulder to dry on...literally."

"I'm sorry Niall, I've missed you too, it's just what I do when I go through 'grief and mourning' 1) block everyone out, 2) stop eating, 3) don't leave my room, 4) don't sleep 5) cry. I'm sorry I've been so distant." 

He looked at me with a mixture of emotions in his eyes, before starting the car and driving to the church, it was only then that I realized that we were still holding each other's hand tightly, I gave his hand a squeeze and smiled weakly at him despite the situation.

"Mia, I love you, you know that?" 

"I do now, I hope you know I love you too" I spoke clearly whilst my cheeks went from pale to cherry red in 5 seconds

"Good. Promise me that you won't push me away anymore?"

"I promise" 

We had pulled into the church and had stopped the car, he leant over the hand brake and give me a kiss. It actually calmed me down, he does help me. Why am I only realizing this now?

"ready to go?" 

"No, but let's get it over with," I muttered before entering the church and sitting in the bench near the front.

~~~~~~~~~~le miniscule time skip~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"...Now for the final speech, Mia would you like to come forward?" 

No! I thought stubbornly in my head, but I stood up all the same, took a deep breath and walked to the front of the church.

"I'm not going to say what a great person they were, I don't want to give the conventional speech that will make everyone else happy because I know it won't be a true reflection," I started "she was an amazing person, bossy and demanding also, granted she could be an absolute Angel to people, but get her angry well let's just say she will tell you exactly what she thinks of you, no expense spared, she wasn't shy with her choice of words either. On the day she was killed, we had had an argument... as usual, but it destroyed me to know that I never said sorry for what I said. All I really want to say is I'm sorry that she died and I'm sorry for the argument we had, she was my best friend, more like my sister actually, no wonder we argue all the time." I finished my speech with a little bit of humour, not for any reason I just wanted to stay truthful and hopefully lift my mood. I walked back toy seat next to Niall and took his hand in mine as the priest finished the service.

~~~~~~ TIME SKIP AGAIN ~~~~~~~~~~~~

I looked at the headstone once again and I broke down, knowing that she was actually dead and she wasn't coming back, I mean the words said it all: 

                                      Here lies Rosie Pilling,
                                      Beloved daughter, sister
                                                and friend,

                           27th March 1998- 18th May 2014

                                            Rest In Peace

I'm sooooo sorry for not updating sooner!!!!

So verrrrrry excited!!!

Merry Christymas guiiiiiisssssss!!!!

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