You're Not Alone (Niall Horan/One Direction)

Mia Alexandra, prefers to be called Alex because she got bullied because of her unusual name, now she doesn't just get bullied because of her name. No her life was ruined by her father, he got arrested and put in prison for murder. Her family left her on her own when she needed them the most. Her two best friends turned against her and started bullying her. Will she be pushed to complete destruction? When One Direction turn up at her school, will she let them in and allow them to fix her?

Contains: bullying, self harm and suicide attempts but it also contains crazy moments, sleepovers and love

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10. Finally something good to remember

- Chapter 9 -


It had been a month since I told the boys my history, they didn't leave me, they didn't judge me. They helped me get better, I trust them all now, I think. I definitely trust Niall the most, because he was there from the beginning and he stopped me committing suicide, but I like him more than a friend, I know he doesn't think of me in the same way. After I told the boys about my attempt to end my life they have been more protective over me. Walking me to every lesson, walking me home, I practically live at their house now I'm always round there I even have my own room.

I've also realized that something good does come to those who wait. I've got that good thing now, I've got friends that all care for me... now I just need a loving family to go with them. 

Yeah that's never going to happen is it? No I didn't think so!


 ~~ FLASHBACK ~~

"I love you, Alex" my auntie Emma told the 13 year old me.
"I love you too, Emma." I told her 
"You, Alex, will never be left on your own baby girl. I am always there for you, uncle Simon is always there for you. Just call us and we will be there, you can stay round my house, there is always room for you here." Emma told the younger version of me.
"Please don't leave me like everyone else." I pleaded.
"I will never leave you on your own, I promise".

~~ END OF FLASHBACK ~~

 This was the last time my auntie and I spoke rationally and without her calling me a waste of space and a "problem child", it hurt even more than it did when my old friends say it because I was so close to her. That's why I don't allow myself to love someone because everyone that I love lies to me and then leaves. I'm cursed.

 If I had known she was lying I would never have replied to her, she broke her promise to never leave me. I can't believe she lied to me, we did everything together. I was her favourite niece and she was my favourite auntie. I could talk to her about anything I wanted she was always there. She hurt me the most when they walked out my life telling me they wanted nothing more to do with us, that we aren't to contact them anymore.

I've still got the conversations we used to have on Kik, Facebook and Twitter. I try not to look at them but when I'm feeling really lonely and upset I read through them for comfort and to forget what has happened, most of the time it works but other times I just break down and cry. It is good to cry, or so I have been told. I'm not sure some say crying is a sign of weakness but others say it shows how strong you are.

I don't know what to think about anything anymore!

I will always have the past month to remember, the boys have all stuck by me, this is something that I have dreamed of since the start of this terrible nightmare of life. They brought me the hope that there are still some people in this world who won't judge you because of what others have done. They have finally given me something good to remember for once instead of nasty memories of the past. For that I will be eternally grateful.

I met Zayn and Louis' girlfriends the other day and they took me shopping they are kind-hearted and extremely beautiful, I have to admit I kinda felt like the ugly duckling in the trio, anyway shopping with the boys and their girlfriends was an experience I would never forget, Louis had his heart set on a giant carrot in Toys-r-us, we had to drag Zayn away from the hair products, we had to stop Niall from buying all the food in the food court. Harry and Liam were the only two that didn't run riot.

 They bought me a whole new wardrobe, much to my disgust, I don't want to seem like I'm using them for their money. In the end I let them pay because they went ahead and paid for them anyway so my arguments were pretty much invalid. My arms felt like they were about to drop off with the amount of bags that were hanging off them, there was about 20 on each arm!

 We went to nandos afterwards for tea. Niall ordered the whole menu but it was delicious he still managed to eat the leftover food we hadn't eaten where does he put it all? However I can safely say it is my new favourite restaurant of all time. 

We have arranged to go to a theme/water park this weekend, which should be fun! Shouldn't it?

 

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