Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

*Vanilla Twilight Lyrics by Owl City*

Zayn had fallen head over heals for his true love Ariella. But something happened that should never happen to a love so strong. Two became one. Zayn didn't handle it so well. He kept up with his feelings in his journal. He thinks nobody knows what happens. But everybody does. The worst part, Zayn doesn't want to accept that it did.

Anaise is a quiet and shy girl who is looking for somebody to love her. She is trying to look for a place in this world. Little does she know what the world has in store for her.

What happens when these 2 cross paths?
Will he leave the past behind and look at what's in front of him?
Will she accept him in her heart?


10. Chapter 9

Anaise's POV


I started to grow worried as the time past for Zayn to stop by my room. I knew it would take him a bit to wake up what with having a hangover and all, but what if I drove him away with that letter?


"I just really want this to work Niall. I really care about him." Niall was sitting on my hotel bed as I was pacing back and forth impatiently waiting for another male presence to enter the room.


"Trust me, knowing him, he might not like it at first but then he'll come to the realization that this will be good for him."


"I just really hope he'll share as much with me as I'm about to share with him. It would just make me feel better knowing that we can trust each other. Ya know?"


Niall got up and came over to hug me. "Don't worry, he'll come around. Whatever happens, happens. I gotta go though. See you soon."


"Bye Niall."


He walked out the door and shut it tightly behind him.


Now, I just wait.


Zayn's POV


My headache finally subsided and I got dressed. I slowly walked out of the door in a way not looking forward to what we are about to discuss. I kind of inferred that I had brought up my past while in my drunken state and now she wants to help me live through it. Trying to comfort me saying that she knows what I'm going through.


This just angered me even more. On top of that, we are practically strangers. I still don't know her well enough if I even want to bring any of this up.


I'm also angry at the phone call that I got before I left. It was management saying that people and the fans are noticing my distant moods so they are saying that if nothing works or if I don't get better, I'll have to get a fake girlfriend.


I could never go through that. It made me sick to my stomach being forced to love somebody just for public promotions. It's just a reminder of how twisted the world can perceive love.


My thoughts came to an end as I stood in front of a door that held a girl with too much of a caring nature but also bearing curiosity.


I took a deep breath and rapped my knuckles on the wood three repetitive times. A few seconds later a beautiful and timid girl with white hair draped over her shoulder had opened the door. Blue eyes scanning me up and down. She stepped to the side giving me more access to walk in.


I walked over to the bed and sat on the edge and she pulled up a chair and placed it right across from me. My eyes drifted over to her and her gaze held the floor until she looked up and her eyes met with mine. She gave me a small smile and took a deep breath in.


"Z-zayn. I know you probably don't want to be here right now but just hear me out okay? I'm not judging you. I'm not taking pity onto you. And I definitely won't feel sorry for you. I know you wouldn't want any of that because I didn't. You might not think so but please believe me when I say that I know how you feel."


I looked away angered at what I was hearing. "No. No you don't" My voice was cold and stiff.


"Zayn, I know what it's like to have someone you loved ripped away from you."


My head shot up and I looked at her blurry face with tears in my eyes. "Stop. You know nothing."


She stood up and had tears streaming down her face. "Dammit Zayn! Stop being so stubborn and listen!"


I stood up as well with my anger getting the better of me. "No! You listen! You have no idea what it feels like to lose the one you love! You have no idea what it feels like to wake up alone! I LOST HER!" I screamed in her face and broke down right in front of her. I fell to my knees and held my head in my hands. I couldn't control the choked sobs coming from my mouth. My voice was much quieter.


"I...I lost her. My everything vanished. She h-had cancer and I didn't know. I..I couldn't do anything." I sobbed into my hands as I felt Anaise crouch down next to me. She gently took my hands into hers and lifted my head up forcing me to stare into her blue irises that was flooded with pained tears.


"Zayn." She spoke in a whisper. "I lost my everything. He was my everything. One day he was just gone. This is what I wanted to tell you. You are not alone. I will not let you feel alone in this. Do you hear me?" She took her thumbs and swiped them across my face.


In that moment I didn't feel alone.



After some time, we had finally calmed down. We were now sitting on the bed with both of our backs against the headboard actually talking about our past. She took a deep breath as she began her story.


"I met Matt when I was 15 so that was about 5 years ago. At first we were just close friends but the more I hung out with him, the more I fell for him. We were kind of the opposites to each other. What do they say? Opposites attract? Well I was still so quiet and he was really out there. But something in between us just felt right and I think we both knew that. We finally got together and that's when the truth came out. I found out that he was involved in some type of gang and that ever since he met me, he was trying to get out of it." She shook her head and laughed lightly. "We all know how well that goes. Well with young love comes stupid decisions and he felt that I was in danger because he knew that there was no way of him getting out. So, he persuaded me to leave my family and live with him to go into hiding. And we did just that. For almost 2 years I had no contact with my family and friends. Well within those 2 years Matt and I got closer and I eventually became pregnant. We were so happy and yet scared at the same time of starting a family. We wanted to do it right and we thought that bringing a child into this kind of situation was all the wrong. We had thought about an abortion but I wasn't willing to let go such a delicate present."


She closed her eyes and pursed her lips together trying to hold back the tears.


"When I was about 4 months pregnant, Matt said that he had a feeling that we were found. I thought he was just over reacting and being paranoid. He tried to persuade me to move around again but, I refused. I was thinking of our child. It might not seem like it but I was. I didn't want to put stress on myself and the baby by moving around so much. I just wanted to feel grounded. Well soon enough I learned my lesson."


She looked down at her hands in her lap and started to weep lightly. I rubbed the side of her arm.


"Hey, you don't have to finish if you don't want to." I reassured her. She quickly looked up at me with her eyes leaking and her nose red.


"No Zayn. You need to know this so you can stop thinking that I don't understand. Because I do."


She looked down again and closed her eyes before she began. Her voice in choked sobs and cracking all the while.


"One night, me and Matt were asleep. I thought I had heard somebody come in downstairs and I started to freak out. So I sent him down there to check. I waited for about 5 minutes and I got up myself because I was worried. I couldn't hear anything. Nothing was happening. Or so I thought. When I finally got there, they had Matt tied on the floor. I knew they were waiting for me so they could kill him in front of me. They captured me and forced me to watch as they m-murdered him. After they were done with him, they took care of me and beat me up and left me there to die. I-I was so in shock and traumatized that I went into early labor and ended up having a miscarriage. We were found the next day by our neighbors and they took us to the hospital. But it was too late for Matt and the baby. My parents had found me and they took me home. We then moved to London so I could try and start over. I was so lost. I don't know how I did it, but I escaped the darkness that I was drowning in."


She pulled her knees up to her chest and started to weep lightly. I shifted over to her and embraced her in a tight hug rocking her back and forth.


"God Ana. I am so so sorry. I had no idea. We'll get through this together." I lifter her head up so that she was looking at me.


"I promise."

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