Suffering In Silence (DISCONTINUED)

Have you every heard the phrase " suffer in silence"? That explains most of my life. I go to school everyday and plaster a fake smile on my face. When I go home I'm pulled straight back into my sad reality. I just wish for once, that someone would see through my fake smile. Until then, I will continue to suffer in silence.
* Original ideas, I am not copying anyone's work *
*Warning: story will contain some foul language.*


3. Same routine



     School ended and I began to walk home. I heard a group of laughter coming from a short distance behind me. I turned around to see Louis and his group of friends. " Hey Audilee!" Niall shouted while catching up to me. " Hey Niall." I smiled. " where you heading?" Harry asked as he caught up to Niall and I. " I'm Just heading home." I said as I continued walking. After the rest of the boys caught up we began to talk about random things. When I got to me flat I waved and said goodbye to the boys. " Bye Audilee!" the all shouted saying goodbye. And now I'm back to hell.

     I turned the corner of the small hall way and headed into my room setting my book bag to the floor. My drunken father headed into my room and walked right up to me. " Where the hell have you been all day" he hissed while grabbing my arm in a tight hold causing it to bruise. " School" I whimpered, trying to get free from his grip. " Such a fucking slut! you fuck up everything don't you!" he yelled while slapping me. Slap after slap, kick after kick. This is the same routine every day. I remember when I was around seven years old. He would always yell at me and call me a screw up. I never knew why. My mother never did anything to stop him, she couldn't. He left my room leaving me on the cold, wooden, floor gasping for a breath. I got up and finished my homework. Dad was past out drunk on the couch. Shocker right!? Yeah not really.

 I woke up the next morning and grabbed my diary.


Dear Diary,

     last night wasn't as bad as usual. Just a slap and kick here and there. I met a few new people at school. they seem nice. Not sure if I would be friends with them or not but I'll still be nice to them. Another day of hell, another day of pretending how I feel. Wish me luck!!!

Love, Audilee <3


     I slipped on a  pair of skinnies and a purple laced stop with a pair of sandals. Shit! I looked in my mirror and saw half of my face covered in bruises as well as my arms. And I'm out of makeup. Great, just damn great. I guess its going to be a hoodie day. I grabbed my hoodie and headed out the door without waking my dad.

 I walked into the building with my face covered by my hoodie and hair. Maria and I headed off to our separate classes and we started our day.

     "Good morning cla-" The rest of the class was a blur.* RING* as the bell rang the halls grew crowded. I dodged through the crowds of people while reaching my locker. " Oh hey Audilee!" I heard someone shout my name. I turned around to meet the curly haired one. " uh hey Harry" I smiled while rushing off. " hey what's the rush? classes don't start for another ten minutes." he said while catching up to me. " oh I uh just want to be there early" I mumbled while trying to keep my check covered. " alright well see you later then." he smiled walking off. In the corner of my eye I could see Kristin and her ' posy' giving me glares. b*tches. I thought. 

     I tried to ignore everyone for most of the day. I headed into the canteen and took a seat by Maria. " Hey chica what's up with you? I haven't seen you all day." she said. " Oh just busy I guess." I said over  the loud sound of giggles and "ohhs" and "awws" coming from the table by Maria and I. We turned to see Niall, Liam, Louis, Zayn, and Harry surrounded by half of the girls at our school. Louis caught my gaze and smiled while him and the others headed towards us. " Why are you going over there!? they're just a bunch of sluts" one of the girls scoffed while the girls surrounding her snickered at her so called ' cleverness' as the boys glared at her, causing Maria and I to laugh and the boys taking a seat by Maria and I. " hey guys." Maria smiled at the boys. " Hey Maria, hey Audilee." they all smiled. " don't you ever get tired of all of that?" Maria questioned. " Well sometimes but, we love all of our fans." said Liam. " Audilee, its so hot out! how do you have that hoodie on!?" Louis asked astonished. " I uh I'm just cold." I mumbled nervously while pulling my hair in my face. " You alright?" Zayn asked while looking unconvinced. " Yeah I'm fine. Well I'm going to go. See you guys later." I said while making my way out of the canteen. 

     " Hey Audilee wait up!" Zayn shouted running up to me. " yeah, what's up?" I asked. " nothing. Just wanted to talk." He smiled. " Uh can I walk you home today?" he asked. " Uh you don't have to." I said nervously but still keeping that stupid fake smile plastered to my face. " yeah. I know but I want to. You and Maria are the only girls we can actually talk to without them creeping the boys and I out." he said. " Oh. Okay sure." I said while we both walked into our different classes.

     " You need a ride Audi?" Maria asked before stepping into her car. " No. It's alright Zayn asked to walk me home. I'll see you tomorrow Love you bye!" I shouted as she drove off. I met Zayn by the front door of the school and we headed off. 

     " So what's your family like?" Zayn asked as we continued to walk. What the hell am I supposed to say!? Oh yeah my mom is in a coma and my dad beats the shit out of me, how about you? " Oh just a normal family, nothing much." I said quickly trying to change the topic. " I have a few sisters and my Mum and Dad. They are all sweet." he said while I heard his Bradford accent flow out of his mouth. " That must be nice." I said while imagining what it would be like to have a happy family. " what would be nice?" he asked. " Oh uh, I was just think what it would be like to have sibling." I said. " So your an only childe." he said. " yup, just little old me." I smiled up at him. " Uh well this is my stop." I said as we stood on my front porch. " alright well bye Audilee, have a nice night." he said and leaned in to hug me. " Bye Zayn" I said as I walked into the front door. * smack* " Who the fuck was that!" my dad yelled as he towered over me. " Just a friend. He is just a friend." I whimpered scooting slowly away from him. " He fucking better be just a damn friend!" he kicked me once more before leaving me sitting by the front door. * Knock Knock* ? I groaned as I stood up to get the door. Zayn stood in front of me looking worried.... what am I supposed to say? 


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