These Bruises

"Que sera, you'll never guess who I saw."
I was loved. I was hurt. That was repeated when I left you. But there are two other people who I love. As a single mom with two little kids in California, my life got better. It was six years. Six years since I last saw you. Six years since those little talks. Now you can see that these bruises that I've been hiding for those six long years mean. (Second book in Little Talks duology)


16. Kiss me like you wanna be loved

"And that's my story." I wipe away the tears from my eyes. 

It was horrifying to tell the end. Especially to Zayn. I look at him and he's just sitting on my bed, arms crossed, showing no emotions. 

"So, you had a great life up until that night? When Charlie...hurt you?" He asked. I knew he didn't want to say rape because of six years ago when he thought Harry raped me but it was Justin Rickard. But Justin is in prison, and Charlie moved to Frezno. But thank goodness I moved after he left. 

I nodded, still crying. "After that happened, I wished I never met him. That he should've just went on with his business at that party instead of dealing with me. But then I think of how he brought two important people of my life into the world. He made me who I am. He lifted up my spirit after my heart was broken. You want to know something?" He didn't say anything so I continued. 

"After that night, I went to the hospital where I got stitched up. While I was getting stitched up, I thought I was ugly. For the first time in my life, I felt disgusting. When I got home, I did the thing I never thought I would ever do in my entire life."

His eyes grew large. "What was it?" I stayed silent. "What was it?!" He raised his voice. 

I take a deep breath, and flip my arm over. I point to a faint line that was on my wrist. 

He grabs my wrist and looks at it. "When did that happen?" He asked concerned. 

I'm still crying. "A year ago. I was working and then I had a thought of that night. How I was hurt and disgusted. That was the last time." I pull back. "Every time I have a thought about it or someone even mentions anything about him, I try and resist the urge to cut. As of now, I'm having a hard time trying." 

He cups my cheeks in his hands, wiping away the tears, "Britta," Zayn starts, "don't hurt yourself. You didn't deserved to be hurt like that. Charlie was a git. A fucking git that deserves to be punched in the balls. But Brit, you're not ugly. This is not the Britta Carter I knew six years ago. This is not the perky, fun, spirited Britta Carter who was afraid to go to clubs because of one small night that changed everything. Of course, it was because of me. At that time, I thought I fucked up your life. But now, I think the time you found out that I was sleeping with Megan Lyons, that was when I messed up. 

"Back to what I was saying. Britta Ann Carter, you are not ugly. I know that because you were once my girlfriend. Britta, you're the most beautiful person I've ever seen. And I'm not just saying that because I want you to believe it. I'm saying because it's true. Britta Ann Carter, I love you!" 

And he kisses me. But this time, I didn't stand there. This time, I kissed him back. I play with his hair as he moved his hands up and down my sides, keeping me close to his body. 

He then pushes me down onto the bed kissing my neck. And for the first time after three years, I was taken to another world. 

The first time we've done this in six years. 

And it was better than all those times. 

[I had this idea in my head for a long time. So here's what's going to happen in the story later:

•The return of a few characters from the first story. Like the rest of One Direction and the gang. 

•A shocking return of someone you probably didn't expect and the disappearance of someone important (that probably just gave it away. Haha). 

•whether or not Britta will reunite with her mom and sister. 

•a mention of Britta's dad. 

So QOTC: favorite part of the SOML music video/song? My favorite part of the song is "She told me in the morning she don't feel the same about us in her bones/It seems to me that when I die these words will be written on my stone" and my favorite part of the music video is all the parts with the boys and their family in the pictures (however, I did cry during Louis's picture). 

Songs of the chapter:

Kiss Me-Ed Sheeran

TKO-Justin Timberlake

Roar-Katy Perry

Thanks for reading! Bye!]

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