His Other Half

He made me shiver just at the sight of him like this. "I found you I finally found you." He whispers before lifting my shirt off me. "Please, no" "Come on babe you usually beg me for this." I gasp at the thought of loving this side of him "I beg harry. Not you." He suddenly stopped being gentle and shoved me into the wall and crashed his body into me. He pinned my wrists to the wall and his nails dug into my skin. "Please don't." I gasped as he threw me onto the bed. He then shook his curls looking at me with those beautiful green eyes I fell in love with. "Spencer! I Told you to run! god dammit GO!" he yelled. His eyes watered up as he sat on the bed in front of me. I Pushed myself onto him and wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist and kissed him. "Harry Please I can't leave YOU! I love you... We can fix you! You can control him." he looked down and hugged me back tightly. Then realsed saying "But the sad thing is he is me. I am a monster."


11. You

**Saturday night**


I bite my nails eagerly as I attempt to try to confirm my answer but I have no Idea what the outcome may  be. I slide my back down the door in hopelessness and my already red eyes fog a little. I d-don't know... what to do. I laugh at myself as I mentally slap myself. 


I run down stairs in nothing but zebra pajama pants and a black sports bra with a jacket thrown over it. I slip my ugg boots on and dash out the door. I don't even bother to warn Ava or her family, being to consumed by emotions. I can still hear harry's raspy voice in my ear and his hot breath on my neck. I feel flutters go through my body the instant I thought it. I shake it off denying the emotion. I run to the bus station knowing it does a pickup at 12:00. 


But I know I have to hurry. And I don't want Harry to think I'm that hoe who stood him up. but I have no other choice. I sit on the ice cold bench. I look at my phone, 


**12 new texts**


 I check that four where from Jason and the others, Ava. I laugh as I power it off and slide it into my pocket. I sit for a moment breathing heavily into the air to see it in the freezing cold air. I shake my head as the bus arrived. 


I jump on placing 3:00 into the fee box and take a seat in the front. 


I study the features of the people around me closely. There was a man in scarfed up old clothes and a very grown out beard; Homeless. I mentally frown because what a horrible thing. The bus comes to a stop only about 1/2 a mile from my destination. I dash off the bus I sprint I let my emotions free and run.


Once I arrive, I completely stop in my steps as my chest rises and drops heavily. 


"Harry." I manage to say.


I spot his lips open slightly to speak, but before he could I ran to him and jumped onto him as he almost naturally catches me. I wrap my long legs around his waist. I dig my fingers into his hair and kiss him heavily I began to bite his ear as he sucks on my neck. I moan in pleasure. I bite his lip as I want to make love to him right now and here. I laugh as Harry's tongue begs to entire into my month. I willingly accept and feel as if we were the only two people in the whole world.


I flutter my eyes open due to the sudden absence of Harry's lips. 


"Spencer." harry voices softly speaks. "Yes?" I hum onto his lips. "God I love your voice" harry mumbles as I giggle. He quietly then asks, "Promise me something?" "Anything." I pout wanting to have have kiss me again. 


"Never leave me again?" Harry honestly asks. I could tell he really and disparately needed an answer. 


"Promise, but only if you don't leave me no other choice. OK?" I ask tilting his chin up to me and I place an innocent kiss on his pink lips. 


"shit, Spencer its freezing!" Harry slightly yells at me. I laugh as I roll me eyes and he places his freshly worn jacket on my shoulders. 


For some odd reason I loved the smell and warmth of harry on it. I loved the warmth on my arms and scent my my nose. When I return back to reality I find harry looking into my eyes and pondering them very very deeply. I blush as He mouths "You're perfectly perfect." 


Harry then proceeds next to me as he picks me up bridal style and walks with me over to the car. Once I am inside His car i can''t help but grin massively. I bite my lip as Harry jumps in the car. I turn to him and realize how happy he made me. I cant help but have to turn on the music. I turn it to 107.9 and Demi Lovatos voice takes over the speakers and "Two pieces" comes on. sway and hum to the words as harry looks to me and stares at me. I feel not insure but, beautiful. 


I laugh at my nonsense.


Harry pulls up to strangely no flat of his but to the river me and him had accepted our feelings for each other in.


But this time The swaying trees were lit with thousands of lights. As I gasp as I notice the many lanterns in the river. I water up as I see harry at my side of the car and opening the door. I bite my lip as I about jump to him and kiss him he walks to the back of his car and pulls out... his gut-air.


The one that I begged him to play for me, but of course he then had resisted. put me hand to my mouth as I think of the time and effort this all took. harry walks over to me after locking his car and holds me hand as we walk over to the beautiful shore filled with candles and flowers. Harry looks at me.


I attempt to form words but can't even manage a sentence. breath in as I look to him and mange to say, "How did I ever say goodbye?" He smirks as he kisses me. He then pulls away only two began to strum his gut-air.



As he plays rest my head on his shoulder as I am amazed by the beauty of the scene. I then sit up as I hear lyrics strum out of his beautiful mouth.


"Now you were standing there right in front of me
I hold on it's getting harder to breathe
All of a sudden these lights are blinding me
I never noticed how bright they would be.

I saw in the corner there is a photograph
No doubt in my mind it's a picture of you
It lies there alone in its bed of broken glass
This bed was never made for two

I'll keep my eyes wide open
I'll keep my arms wide open

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

I promised one day that I'd bring you back a star
I caught one and it burned a hole in my hand oh
Seems like these days I watch you from afar
Just trying to make you understandI'll keep my eyes wide open yeah

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone
Don't let me
Don't let me go

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let meDon't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of sleeping alone."


By the end of the song I am in tears and I can't help but continue to softly cry. Harry picks me up sitting me on his lap. "I didn't-want to make you cry Spence!" Harry laughs.


"That was the best thing that anyone has ever done, gave, or said to me. I think I'm falling for you.." I smile as I look at harry as he wipe my tears away with his thumb. I bite my lip.


"Me too." harry whispers before throwing me over his shoulder.


I pound my fists onto his back playfully as I laugh. "That's all you got?" harry speaks. Even though I couldn't see him I knew he had a huge grin on his face.Harry sits me down close to the water As I raise an eyebrow. He then pulls his shirt over his head. I laugh in shock and widen my eyes. "HARRY! It is barley 45 degrees! your going to freeze!!! And if you are going to anyways my hell you better let me take them off!" Harry throws his head back in laughter. I grin as I walk over to him and madly kiss him. I then slide his jeans to the ground leaving him in his boxers. I receive goose-bumps but his beautiful body as i wish to stare at him all day.


I shake the thought to the side as I laugh as I point to the water.


"Oh how cute you think I'm going alone?" Harry teases as he walk to me kissing me. He slides his hand on to my back and pulls me closer to him as his hot breath tickles in my ear, "Come on I know you can't resist me." He whispers yanking my shirt off of my body and pulling my pants down my legs and just as i thought his was going to kiss me he pushes me into the water.


"YOU BASTARD!" I yell laughing .


"Now get your ass in here with me!" I laugh loudly. As Harry jumps, splashing me.


even though I was freezing to death it was numbed by Harry's touch which was sending warmth down my spine. We both grew quiet admiring one another. Harry's eyes sparkles as he moves close to me and then speak, "God your beautiful." He then pushes his body right up against mine. I laugh. He then whispers, "You know how rare it is to have me so close to a girl on purpose. But even more keeling at her feet. Harry's shoulders and above soon are the only thing visible outside of the water. He then wraps his arms around my waist kissing my stomach. I laugh as he pulls me down to be face to face with him. I flutter my eyelashes as I fell harry wrap his arms around my waist. And  my arms around his neck pulling me so close to him that my breast were pushed against his stiff chest. I look at the beautiful reflection of the lights in the water and the many lanterns surrounding us. i then feel harry's hand guiding my face to look at him as he kisses me very passionately again. I then completely fall for him over again.




Again and Again



"Spencer?" Harry's voice rings in my ear as he parks in front of my house. 


"Yeah?" I quickly respond, looking at him nervously. 


"You okay?" Each thought rang with the same words. Tell him. Be brave Spencer, just tell him. 


"I think I'm in love with you." I stutter, breathing rather quickly. His eyes widen, not too much but enough for me to worry, and he touches my hand. when a smile overtakes his serious expression, my heart skips a beat. 


"Spence, I love you." He says warmly, knowing that the sound of those words laced with his raspy accent made my thoughts hazy. 


"Harry I also think I'm ready." I say strongly, sitting up a little. I am ready, I can feel it. I want him, I need him, and he needs me. 


"Spencer are you sure??" he asks hesitantly, not certain that I am thinking very well. 


"I've never been more certain of anything in my life." I whisper, gulping and taking my bottom lip between my teeth. He gulps as well, internally debating whether or not to proceed with whatever will happen next. 


"Okay then. Do you want to do it here or..?"


"Harry! No I don't want to 'do it' in your car!" I hit him and he laughs, putting the car in park. 


"So, inside then?" I think for a second about what will happen when I unlock that door and let him in. Once we make love, that's it. I can't take it back. But, something in me tells me that I'd never regret this, not for a second. So, I turn to his gorgeous face, nodding slowly. He shuts his car off and steps out, shutting the door and walking around to open my door for me. I step out next to him and let him follow me to the front door. I unlock it and close it after we are both inside, hesitantly locking it again. He takes my hand and rubs his thumb over my knuckles. 


"We don't have to do this if you're not ready." He mutters, sending a small smile when he looks at me. 


"I'm ready." I repeat, and with each time I say the phrase it becomes more and more true. 


"Lead the way then." He whispers, making chills crawl through my spine. I pull on his hand, bringing him to my room. I open the door slowly, pushing it open. My room, thankfully, is cleaned up and the bed is moderately made. Not for long, my thoughts remind me and I mentally scold myself for thinking that way. Harry's hands come in soft contact with my hips, pulling me closer to him and kissing my lips. I rest my own hands on his neck, gripping a chunk of his hair lightly. He pulls away, smirking a bit as he guides my hands to the hem of his shirt. I shakily lift the fabric up, revealing his chiseled chest to my nervous eyes. I keep pulling upwards, getting the shirt off within seconds. He smiles as I stare in awe at his body, and even rolls his eyes a bit. 


"Your turn love." He whispers seductively, and I glance up. 


"Um, Harry..." I start, wanting to avoid this. What is wrong with me?? I said I'm ready, that I want to give myself to him, and I won't undress for him?? come on Spence where's the logic in that??


"Spencer, you are absolutely beautiful in every single way. If you're nervous about how your body will look like in my eyes, trust me when I say that nothing in the world will ever change my mind from thinking of you as perfection. Please love, you don't need to be shy around me." Butterflies erupt in my stomach at his words and I bite my lip. 


"Would you like me to?" he asks softly, rising my chin up to meet eyes with mine. I nod slowly, eyes remaining connected to his. He takes the hem of my shirt, rising it meticulously up my waist. His knuckles brushing against my skin left a trail of goosebumps, and I lift my arms as he glides it over my head and up arms. The shirt is tossed onto the floor and I am left in my bra, blushing like an idiot as Harry chuckles. 


"Lay down for me." He says lowly, smiling slightly. I obey, walking over to the bed and sitting down. I push up, sliding up all the way to the headboard and leaning against it for support. Harry removes his pants and I hold my breath; I've never seen an actual guy in boxers live in the flesh, let alone in my room stripping for me. I mean I had never actually seen Andrew the most he ever did was touch me nothing more.


"Love, they're just boxers." He comments and I blush, covering my face in embarrassment. 


"Hey! There's no need to feel embarrassed. Perfectly normal love." He assures me, and crawls onto the bed. I sense him hovering over me, and lips touch my cheek. I uncover my face to see his inches away. 


"I know. I'm sorry, I'm just new at this that's all." He chuckles again, pushing hair from my face. 


"It's quite alright. If it's alright, I'm going, to remove your pants now. Okay?" He says carefully, nodding until I agree seconds later. His fingers unbolt ton my jeans and goosebumps are again left, imprinted on the skin touched as he slides them down my legs. This is weird, being nearly bare with Harry's presence in the room. I've never felt so vulnerable, yet I've also never felt so safe. Harry will protect me, even if it's from himself. I know this more than anything. 


"See? Not so scary. Just pants." He says, making sure my heart rate doesn't exceed. I nervously laugh, but take his neck and gently kiss him. He lays on top of me, heating my cold skin with his. My hands wander around his back, feeling every inch of his muscular figure. He touches my body gently, as if I was glass, only letting himself press a little harder if he was certain I wouldn't break. He touches my breasts and I shut my eyes, rolling my head back. 


"Spencer..." He mumbles, pulling his head up and looking into my eyes. I frown a little, then realize that he was indictating that he would like to continue. I take a deep breath and nod again. He sits up, fingers hooking to my panties. I nervously breathe in and out as he peels them off, and shut my eyes as he unclips my bra. A smile forms at the corners of his mouth and I blush.


"I'll be one second." He says quietly, moving to another side of the bed and up wrapping a silver packet. Oh.


My breathing quickens and I realize that this is it; I am about to have sex with the boy I love. Why can I just calm down?? It's Harry, not a full audience of immature high schoolers gawking over my vulnerability. Harry removes his boxers and I immediately blush a bright red, biting my lip. He rolls his eyes and rolls the Condom on before gently moving to hover above me.


"Spencer, I'm asking you one more time. Are you ready?" he asks me carefully, eyeing me intensely. I touch his face, stroking it slightly.




"Please, can you just say it?" he whispers desperately, and I know what he wants me to say.


"Harry, I want you. I...I want to give myself to you. I'm yours, forever yours." He smiles slightly, pressing his forehead against mine.


"It's going to hurt, but I promise you that I will go slow. I don't want to hurt you." He whispers softly as he lowers his lower half, distracting me with a tender kiss on the lips. I suck in my breath and shut my eyes as he enters me, beginning to slightly panic out of instinct. He very slowly moves, and sharp pains attack me each time. Once he starts to roll his hips, I cry out in pain.


"I'm so sorry Spence. I know it hurts. It's okay, I love you. I love you." He says into my ear as his face rests at my neck. Single tears roll down my face, and I fail to control my breathing.


"You're so damn beautiful Spencer. You're doing great baby." He coos, clouding my thoughts. I am doing good. Harry said I am doing good. I have to believe that.


"Fuck." He mutters as he pulls his face from my neck and observes me writhing under him.


"Baby stay with me. Please," He continues to roll his hips as slowly as he can, spreading kisses over my face. I shut my eyes, and my lips part as the pain subsides a tiny bit, replacing pain with a small bit of pleasure.


"I'm almost there, love you're perfect. You're my everything, I promise I will keep you safe. Come to me." He breathily whispers, and I let go of my thinking altogether. He kisses my lips as I force my hands to cling to his back instead over motionlessly laying at his torso. It doesn't take long for Harry to pull out, leaving my presence quicker than I could blink. I lay there in silence as he does something in the bathroom. I did it. I just had sex, with Harry. The boy I love. I have to admit, it hurt like hell. But with Harry... the pain was all worth it.


"You okay?" he asks hastily, returning to my side in his boxers. I nod once, clutching the covers and slipping inside only to over him a spot next to me seconds later. He hands me my underwear before I could ask, and I slip them on before the blush could even come onto my cheeks.


"You were perfect Spence." He continues to compliment me, and I look at him.


"It was my first time Harry I didn't even do anything." I slightly joke, smiling a bit. He brushes my hair to the side and grins at me.


"That doesn't matter. Because it was with you, it felt so much more amazing than it ever could with anyone else. It wouldn't matter if it was your 50th time or your 1st, it would feel amazing to me regardless. Because it's you Spencer. It's me, and You. And I love you. So anything, anything at all, that you do is simply perfect." He says simply, tugging the strings of my heart. Is it possible he could make me fall for him harder than I already have? Because if it is, it's happening.


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