His Other Half

He made me shiver just at the sight of him like this. "I found you I finally found you." He whispers before lifting my shirt off me. "Please, no" "Come on babe you usually beg me for this." I gasp at the thought of loving this side of him "I beg harry. Not you." He suddenly stopped being gentle and shoved me into the wall and crashed his body into me. He pinned my wrists to the wall and his nails dug into my skin. "Please don't." I gasped as he threw me onto the bed. He then shook his curls looking at me with those beautiful green eyes I fell in love with. "Spencer! I Told you to run! god dammit GO!" he yelled. His eyes watered up as he sat on the bed in front of me. I Pushed myself onto him and wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist and kissed him. "Harry Please I can't leave YOU! I love you... We can fix you! You can control him." he looked down and hugged me back tightly. Then realsed saying "But the sad thing is he is me. I am a monster."


10. The Right Answer

The 7th bell rang to finish off the day. I drag my feet through the crowded halls as I proceed to my locker. I rub my red eyes at the extremely and utterly long day. I pull out my books, notes, and homework from my shiny red locker as I turn my attention to a few of the images I have displayed of me and Ava, music groups, and just other good friends.


I close the locker and hurry down the staircase and out the main door. I walk to the front of the school and move out of the crowded area and try to locate Jason but he is yet no where to be found.


So I decide to pleasantly walk to a school bench and read. I pull out a copy of "The Outsiders" which I am presently reading in English. I had already read the book in middle school but didn't care since it was such an easy read, and a good read, but also that means a good grade. I study the main character Pony boy as I become very fascinated by his person. I dig deeper into the book before out of the corner I see a figure moving towards me and proceeding by sitting onto the bench.


I turn my head to discover.....Harry.


I clench my jaw as I become very annoyed at his behavior towards me lately. I scoot farther on the bench not wanting to sit next to him but he just slides closer to me. I slam my book shut and stand up slipping it into my bag. I give harry no words or looks or anything, he didn't deserve them. I walk pleasantly to the grass and sit under a nice shady tree as I ignore the previous scene.


I hear a honk as my head jolts up to discover a wave from inside a car, Jason, he instantly enlightens my mood and I stand up. I began walking over to Jason's car as I hear strong footsteps behind me followed by a strong grip on my arms. I am then spun around to face, obviously, Harry. 


"Harry what the hell let go of me you jerk!" I half shout as he maintains his hold on me, drawing a little attention to us by a few glares and whispers.


"Did you hear me you Bastard!" I scream at him as he begins to speak, "Spencer please just hear-" He stops as he discovers Jason's car. I almost become scared as thoughts of what harry could do to him circle in my mind. "So your with him now." Harry spits at me. "Yes I actually am." I proudly and a bit snobly reply. He makes no moment just stares into my eyes.


"Harry I have to go so just hurry and go on with whatever you were saying so I may leave." I honestly reply, but harry doesn't reply. Great.


No instead he pulls me onto the street right past Jason, as he gets out of his car, and straight into the parking lot. I am thrown into his car as I see jason running after me but harry is to quick to get in the car and drove off.


YOu would think at this point I was scared. Yes a little but mostly just annoyed. I mean I have been in Many sisutantions like this with harry.


"WHAT THE HELL! I am sorry but I want nothing to do with you anymore let alone be in your car!" he makes not reply but just speeds down the road. He then pulls over about 2 miles from home, takes out the keys and sits silently. "Umm excuse me hello!" I shout attempting to figure out what was going on...


He then breaths in deeply and turns to me. "Spence, I am so sorry. But ever since I dropped you off I haven't thought of anything but having your soft lips on mine again. Being able to make you laugh being able to hold you and stare into your beautiful eyes forever. I have thought of nothing else. I have longed for nothing else. Please just come back to me. But if I am not what is going to make you happy so be it. But i need to know if you want me like I want you.. Because I can't live anymore not knowing the answer."


I almost want to say yes to jump back into his tatooed arms and wrap my legs around his waist to rip his shirt off the feel his bare skin against mine, to kiss him and never let him go- what am i saying?!


I barley know him! but thats the thing I barley know him but yet still want him so much every day, I have a connection to him that is natural. I breath in knowing I am with jason and I am happy! I can't compete with that. Or can I?


"Harry.." I drift off. "No spencer don't. Just say it just tell me. I need to know if you want me or not." He demands. I breath in. "Harry.. we both know that we had no future we just don't work. I wish we did so bad but we don't..." He freezes and his eyes fog, before he opens his door and slams it shut, I watch as he walks out into the field next to the road and runs his fingers through his hair shaking. I follow him and jump out of the car.


"HOW!? how can you say that but still look at me like you- you want me like you still feel something from me? Tell me that when I'm with you your pulse doesn't fasten that your blood doesn't boil, and your heart doesn't race!"I gulp and stare at me feet knowing all those thing s were completely true. I felt amazing around Harry. I always had him in the back of my mind. I did feel for him. I suddenly felt long fingers brushing my hair behind my ear.



"Spence, I act like a douche bag because you make me crazy, you make me feel like I need to prove myself, be good enough, like I am nothing and I am not good for you but i need to be. You make me full of emotions which I never before have had! you make me so so crazy... Spence say something scream, kick me, anything I just need to know what you think! how you feel?"


I stay silent as i in my mind COMPLETELY agree with everything harry says. I bite my lip. "Harry, why do you have to do this to me! I hate it I hate you! but I don't! I don't know with you! its like you erase all my thoughts and replace them with your self!" He nods in agreement. "I know the feeling." 


"But harry I.... Can't. You aren't healthy or stable your like... a DRUG or something!" I scream hating that I wanted him so much but yet he was so wrong for me. "I can change baby i promise!" i roll my eyes. "No I am so sorry I can't." I walk back to the car and grab my bag and begin walking down the road. 



"SPENCER! Where are you going!" I hear harry yell at me. I turn to him walking backwards and shrugging my shoulders, "Away from you!" I scream "Why.....?" He quietly replies. "SO Im not forced to have feelings for you..."


I said it. I admitted it. I feel for him. I want him.


He smirks. "I knew it." 


I begin to walk faster needing to get away. I hear the car start and instantly its right next to me . "Get in I will take you home." He states not hiding the satisfaction of knowing I want him on his face. "No you will make me do something I will regret."


He laughs as he says, "Trust me I want to but I won't. Tell you what. You go back to that guy and spend the rest of your week with him and on Saturday meet me here and tell me your answer, If you will come back to me or not. If you say no I will drive you home and never bother you ever again. if you say yes I will drive you back to my flat and do all the things to you I have wanted to since we first met." He smirks and I roll my eyes and laugh. 


WIthout even thinking i already know I want to say okay but what would I be doing? Oh yea getting myself right back into my mess with harry... But I wanted him I did I wanted us to work but I don't know if we can...


Screw it.









**Next Day**


I stayed up all night thinking bout me and harry. Jason texted me about it but I just told him to not think anything of it but knowing jason would question me about it tomorrow. But I didn't care. All I cared about was finding an answer. The right answer. 


The next few days flew by and i hung out with jason a lot it was fun but not what I really was craving out of a boyfriend.


It was now friday night and I am getting ready for me and Jason's date. We are going out to a club then to his place. I straighten my hair perfectly then pull up my white ripped daisy doockes and then threw on an british flag tank-top and black converse. I apply light makeup throw my phone into my bag and run at the door.


Just as I assume jason was passionately waiting in his car.


I wonder if harry would wait? NO SPENCER! Tonight is about you and jason not Harry! ughh.


I walk over to the car and jump in.


"Hey- Wow! You look amazing...." He begins to trial off and check me out. "Thanks" I reply as I blush a little.


 He leans over giving me a kiss on the cheek and drives off. When we arrive I hear music blasting and lights flashing. After jason parks he walks over to my side  of the car and opens my door  for me letting me out and we walk in together.


We both have a drink then Jason leads me onto the dance floor. He pulls us extremely close and moves his hand low on my back. He begins to kiss my neck. I gasp. But not in pleasure. It was the weirdest feeling. A feeling of uncomfort.


We continued to dance kiss and drink for about 2 hours before jason asked, "Your just so hot right now! Lets go back to my place" Before he crashes his lips into mine. I push him off, "Jason your drunk. Let's not tonight just take me home."


"Babe are you ok?"


I nod. But I wasn't.


I had a horrible awkward uncomfortable night. I wanted to leave and never go back. I hated it but I felt like jason was still my best friend, and when he was making out with me all I could picture was harry, but it still wasn't enough.


"Ok... sure..."


I felt horrible but I was relieved he didn't ask anymore questions. "I will drive." He tossed me the keys. and the whole drive was silent. I pulled up to my house. And right before I got out Jason stopped my and passiontently kissed me.



That was when I knew my answer. 



The right answer







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