Careless -Complete-

You were my best friend. We did everything together. You were my first laugh, my first trouble, my first time. Then you left when I needed you most. So Liam, please tell me why you're back. I want us to be the same but how can that be? We can't because back then we were careless...and I'm a mother now.
Warning: Mature scenes and language.

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22. Lies

A/N: Might need editing.

“You have everything packed?” I asked Liam.

“Yes” he sighed, exasperated.

“Have you checked?”

“Yes! Twice!”

“How about one more time.”

“You’re kidding.”

I laughed, “Of course, I’m just making sure you have everything for your little trip” I pout.

He runs a hand through his overlong hair, “It’s not little.”

“I know but I’m trying to convince myself that it is.”

He came to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. “You guys can still come” he murmured. I laid my hands on his forearms. “No. Jamie’s not old enough for all this yet. He’s already getting overwhelmed with the people at my job.”

“You mean they’ve been going to your job too?”

“Paparazzi are everywhere” I sigh.

It’s been about three months now since Liam and I started getting on and people are really starting to recognize Jamie and me on a daily basis. Liam makes sure I get from one place to the next without any trouble but without him…I’m lost.

Besides the fans and overwhelming paparazzi, our relationship is great.

I’ve been getting worried because Liam and I have never used any contraception. I know I’m not pregnant…but how?

I took a test the other day to make sure and I was relieved when I wasn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I would love to have more kids but not now. Much later.

I guess it’s the antidepressants that keep me infertile…I don’t know.

I’ll have to talk to Liam about it even though it’ll be an embarrassing topic to discuss.

I’m brought out of my thoughts when Liam pecks my forehead. “What’re you thinking about?”

Our sex life.

“Just about you being away.”

“Only three months.”

“That’s a while, Li.”

He sighed, “I know.”

“You know I’ll miss you right?” I said as I ran a hand through his hair. “How much?” his voice turned low and seductive. I leaned up and brushed my lips against his. “You’ll just have to hurry, leave, and then come back for I can show you.”

He hungrily pressed his lips to mine, invading my mouth with his tongue. I held onto him for stability as the kiss got me dizzy. “Can’t wait” he murmured against my lips.

There was a creak in my door that made Liam and I snap our heads in that direction. Jamie toddled in, whiney and tired. He must’ve just woken up from his nap. He came to me and reached out his arms so I’d pick him up. I did and settled him on my hip.

Liam ruffled his hair. “You need a haircut.” Jamie squirmed away from him. “I don’t think he likes your opinion” I teased. “I’ll take him somewhere” I spoke aloud. “I can get Lou to do it” Liam suggested.

“Lou?”

“Remember?  Met her a few months ago. She has a baby girl. Lux?”

“Oh yeah, she does hair?”

“Yeah, she’s our hair stylist. I can have her cut his hair in a couple weeks, when she’s on break.”

“Sure. Sounds like a plan.”

“I hungry” Jamie croaked.

“Let’s make some dinner then.”

***

“Don’t go daddy” Jamie sobbed. Liam hugged him. Kissing his temple and telling him everything will be okay.

We were in the airport at two in the morning. Waking Jamie up was a horrible idea because now he’s moody and cranky. The boys were saying their goodbyes too. They all know now that Liam is Jamie’s dad. Telling them was…an experience.

Of course Harry already knew. Louis was shocked right along with Zayn and Niall was laughing and saying ‘I had a feeling’. Damn leprechaun.

Elizabeth was at the airport too, right along with Eleanor. Perrie had a thing with her girl group.

Elizabeth wrapped her arms around me and I just laughed. She pretending to cry and said she’d miss me. “Oh get off me! Neither of us is leaving!” I giggled.

She laughed with me and wiped away and imaginary tear. After saying by to the others Liam enfolded me in his arms. “It’s gonna be a long three months” he mumbled. I stroked his back, “Make sure to have fun. Time will fly.” “I sure hope so.”

I smiled.

“I wish you’d come with me.”

“Next time.”

His fingers absentmindedly traced the necklace he got me for Christmas. It was silver with a little pendant of a cape. It lies with the necklace Harry got me for my birthday of the superman sign.

“We’re gonna miss you, Li” I croaked. He kissed my forehead, and then rested his upon mine. He sighed, “Me too.” I leaned up and placed a sweet kiss upon his lips. “Have a safe flight.” He gave me one last squeeze. “I will. Love you, Eden.” I kissed him again. “Mm, love you too.”

***

“I miss you daddy” Jamie said into the phone. I was driving to Lou’s house when Liam called. The two weeks that he’s been gone haven’t been that bad. I miss him yes, but he calls often so it’s good to at least talk to him.

“Bye bye.”

He reached the phone out to me from the backseat and I took it. I settled it between my ear and shoulder as I drove. “I gotta go, Li, I’m driving.” “A-alright, call me after his haircut. I wanna a picture too!” I laughed at his eagerness.

“Okay, call you later.”

“Later Ed.”

***

“Thank you so much for this” I thank Lou. “Oh no problem” she smiles as she snips another strand from between her fingers. I wish I could play with baby Lux but she’s taking a nap.

“You know the boys are doing a live stream today.”

“Really? When?”

“Well, it’s seven hours so anytime really” she giggled.

I shrugged, “I don’t know if I can. I don’t have a computer.”

“Sucks. I’d give you mine but Tom has it and he’s on business.”

“It’s not like I don’t know them personally. I’ll survive without a live stream.”

I shift on her couch, making myself more comfortable. I hold Jamie’s hand from my seat. His little barber’s chair is set right in front of me. He’s boosted high up so Lou can get to his head.

“Can I see you phone?” he asks me. I unlock it and give it to him so he can do whatever on it.

“How are you and Liam?” Lou asks me. I tinge at the mention of his name. “Oh you’ve got it bad” she giggles, noticing my blush.

“He’s amazing” I mutter more to myself than to her. “I see it. You look very happy.” “I am.”

“Is this long distance thing working for you?”

I’ve never really thought of it. Is it?

“It’s working for me, yeah. As long as I get to hear his voice every now and then. I don’t know about him though. He sounds uneasy and nervous over the phone.”

“How would you know?” she laughs.

I gave her a pointed look saying I’ve-known-him-nearly-my-whole-life.

“He stutters…that’s how I know.”

“Maybe he just has a lot on his mind. “

“I…I don’t know. He’s starting to worry me though.”

“You phone locked” Jamie whined. I glanced at the screen to see indeed that he was on my lock screen. “Why does he kiss you?” he asked out of curiosity as he gazed at the picture Li took of him kissing my forehead while I was asleep.

I took the phone and typed in my code. “Because people kiss when they love each other” I explained as I gave him back the phone.

“Daddy loves Danielle?”

I froze.

I take a small notice the Lou did too, stopping mid snip.

“No…”

“Why does he kiss her?”

“What? Who told you this Noah?” My voice was stern but the panic couldn’t be hidden.

“I see picture.” He gave me back my phone and saw that he was on a website. What the…?

“I was trying to find a picture of daddy but that one came.”

I looked at the picture and the air left my lungs.

It was one picture of Liam hugging her on the side walk. She looked so happy. Another of him kissing her cheek. And yet another of him looking to be whispering something in her ear.

What made it worse was that Harry was not too far away…just standing there.

A lump formed in my throat as I tried to stop my tears.

“Now Eden that could be an old picture. You never know” Lou told me.

I checked the website and saw the date. “The picture was updated three days ago” I strained.

“I’m sure it’s not what it-..”

“Please, can you just finish his hair and we’ll be on our way.”

She slowly nodded and quickly but surely cut his hair.

“How much do I owe you” I mumbled. “Nothing. It’s no charge.” “Don’t pity me.” “I’m not; Liam already paid me before hand.”

I wiped away my shed tear and picked up my son. “Thank you” I croaked.

The ride home was silent. My sniffles and half sobs filled the car. When we got home I fed Jamie and sent him to bed.

I need to think.

I sit on my couch and stuff my face into my hands. How could he?

He cheated.

Cheated!

Or maybe he was just saying hi.

Oh who the hell am I kidding?

I don’t even know what to believe.

I let my tears fall and my racking sobs take over.

Is that why he’s nervous? Nervous that I’d find out?

That bastard!

I contemplate picking up my phone and calling him. I…I can’t be with him if he’s cheating. What’d make me feel stupid is acting like nothing is happening even though I have the proof.

I pick up my phone and call him.

“H-hey Ed.”

“Hi” I whisper behind my tears.

“What’s wrong? Are you crying?”

“Liam…”

“Yes Eden, you’re worrying me.”

“Why won’t you just break up with me?”

“What are you talking about? I’d never do that.”

“You’re such a liar.”

“Where the hell is this all coming from?”

“I saw you with her. There was a picture. You could’ve just told me you wanted to be with her. Instead of pretending you wanted to be with me!” My voice rose with every sentence.

“Eden…”

“No! You lied to me! You said you wanted to be with me FOR ME, not just because Jamie is your kid. You told me you loved me!”

“I do!”

“More lies!”

I took a steady breath, making sure my tears weren’t as easily heard as before.

“I think we should take a break” I sighed.

“What!? No!”

“Yes, you obviously aren’t happy.”

“I am happy! I’m happy with you…how could you think otherwise?”

“Because I saw the picture!”

“It wasn’t what it looked like! Please Eden.”

“Tell me. Tell me the logical explanation as to why you two were there WITH HARRY, hugging and being all giddy.”

“I…I can’t.”

“Exactly what I thought. Goodbye Liam!” I said and hung up. I let the dam burst. My tears fell more and more as I went to my room and curled under my covers. My tears stained my pillow.

My phone buzzed. I checked who it was. Harry. Oh hell no.

He knew! They all probably knew. How could they?

My phone just kept buzzing and buzzing. Each time from each of the boys and several times from Liam.

Fuck you!

I felt my bed dip and saw Jamie crawl up to me and cuddle into my chest. I held him close as he was my remedy for my tears. “Why you cry?”

“Because Daddy hurt Mommy.”

His eyes widened, “You have boo boos?”

“No baby. He hurt my feelings.”

“Will you be better?”

“In time but not now. You need to be asleep baby.”

“I had nightmare. Lea keeps showing the same one.”

I frowned at his imagination. “And what are they about.”

“Daddy cries because you won’t wake up.”

I lightly gasp. How weird. “Let’s just go to bed. I’m sure it means nothing.”

He soon drifted back asleep. I cried a bit more from my smarting heart.

Oh Liam.

I love you so, but I can’t be with someone when the love isn’t mutual.

***

The past couple of days have been like my own little personal hell. My eyes are forever red from my tears. Nearly every channel is talking about ‘Payzer’ being back together. Well not every channel but it sure as hell feels like it. Liam calls all the time but the few times that I do answer I have Jamie talk to him. It is his son and I can’t keep Jamie away from him. That’s cruel.

The buzzing of my phone startles me.

I check the caller.

Liam.

I sigh as I leave the kitchen and go into the living room where Jamie is playing with the toys the boys got him for Christmas.

I pressed answer and gave him the phone. “It’s your dad” I told him before leaving back to my pot of spaghetti sauce.

I can hear him from in here, talking on the phone.

“Daddy…Huh…Why you cry?”

Cry? Cry?! He has no reason to freakin’ cry!

“Yes…Sad…You sorry?”

I snap my head in his direction as anger builds inside of me. I march to him and snatch the phone away from him. I leave the room.

“How dare you use my son as a sympathy vote you asshole!” I yell as I close the door to my room.

“What are you talking about?!”

“Liam…stop trying to call me 24/7! Isn’t it obvious that I don’t want to talk to you?”

“You don’t mean that.”

“I do and I’m not going to keep explaining why.”

“Please Eden, you have to believe me. It wasn’t like that.”

“Then what was it?”

I heard his sob through my phone and it constricts my heart.

“I can’t tell you” he cried.

“Is it really worth loosing me?” I whisper. My tears are coming.

“N-no. I just can’t. Please Eden…please.”

I want to give in. I want to forgive him but he gives me no solid reason as to why he was with her. I can’t.

“The day you figure out who you want or who is more important and you answer CORRECTLY, I’ll THINK about forgiving you.”

“You are! You’re more important. I want you! I love you!”

“I wish I could believe you now.”

“I-I’ll prove it to you. I’ll do anything. Then will you forgive me?”

“We’ll see.”

He sighed, “O-okay. Can I speak with Jamie still?”

“Of course. I’ll give the phone to him.”

***

I run and run with a sobbing Jamie in my arms. I turn several corners until I finally reach my car. I strap him in his seat and run around the other side to the driver’s seat. I start the car and zoom off before they can catch us.

Stupid paparazzi.

They made my baby cry.

Their stupid questions about Liam and I breaking up is a constant reminder that he’s not with me anymore.

It’s heartbreaking.

A/N: Oh snap! No more Liam and Eden...probably.

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