Careless -Complete-

You were my best friend. We did everything together. You were my first laugh, my first trouble, my first time. Then you left when I needed you most. So Liam, please tell me why you're back. I want us to be the same but how can that be? We can't because back then we were careless...and I'm a mother now.
Warning: Mature scenes and language.

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17. Hot Chocolate

 

“You promised!” I yelled through the speaker.

“I know and I’m sorry but you should’ve seen him Eden. He was so beat up about it.”

I was on the phone with Harry, berating him for telling Liam about Jamie. Turns out that Harry told him while they were gone. So since they came back he knew but decided not to believe it. Ugh, why did he have to read the hospital chart.

“That doesn’t give you the right.”

“I just…you weren’t going to tell him and he deserved to know.”

“Well that’s too bad because we’re not talking.”

“What do you mean ‘not talking’?”

“I mean I know he doesn’t want this life and I don’t want to be dragged into yours so it won’t work.”

“How do you know he doesn’t want it? Everyone wishes to have a family one day.”

“Not when they’re twenty! I mean come on, Harry. You’re freaking famous and have many more fun things to do than stay home with a kid.”

“But we both know Liam. He’d be there if you let him.” His voice was soft, feigning reassurance.

“You don’t know that.”

“And apparently you don’t either.”

“Harry…” I feel the need to hang up now but I can’t.

“Oh and I’m coming over in an hour to pick up Jamie. Liam is picking you up after that so be ready at seven!”

“Wait, what!?”

“See ya!” He hung up.

An hour passes with me playing around with Jamie and watching a couple of programs when the door bell goes off.

“Who is it?” Jamie asked. I laughed, “Well let me check first.”

I open the door and my smile dropped. “You were serious.”

Harry smiles that dimpled smile. “Of course I was. Why aren’t you dressed?!” He pushes

“I’m not going anywhere, but you are.” I attempted to close the door but he pushed it back open and walked in.

The hell?

“So here’s the plan. I’m taking Jamie back to our house while you go on your date with Liam. Alright?”

“No no no I never agreed to this.”

“Well that’s too bad because he’s already on his way sooo…”

I froze.

“Why. Would you. Do that?” I snarled.

He laid a hand on my shoulder and squeezed. “Let’s face it, love, you’re stiff. You need a good lay.”

“You did not just say that.”

He laughed, “Oh but I did. Come on Eden, let him talk to you.” I rolled my eyes with a groan, “I guess so.”

“Good! Okay pack Jamie a bag and we’ll be on our way.”

I went to Jamie’s room and packed him a bag. Not a diaper bag, geez he’s three years old he doesn’t wear diapers. I walked out and handed it to Harry. He was holding Jamie, who had the biggest smile on his face.

“If anything comes up, call me.”

“Alright, mom” Harry teases.

“And you behave yourself, okay?” I told Jamie. He nodded. “I mean it Noah” I sternly spoke. “I know mommy.”

“Bye mom!” Harry said, waving as they left out the door.

Okay…I’m gonna do this.

A date with Liam.

A date?

Ugh.

What do I wear?

OMG what do I wear?!

I dash to the bathroom and take a quick shower.

Where is he planning to take me?

I cut off the water and step out of the tub. I blow dry and straighten my hair. I really need to get it cut.

Now time to pick my clothes. It’s October and nearly never sunny around here so I throw on a pair of light skinnies and an over sized pale pink sweater. I slip on my black fur boots and put my pearl earring into my ear. I grab my phone and send a quick text to Harry, Niall, Louis and Zayn.

-You guys better take care of my baby-

They responded back with ‘Alrights’ , ‘Don’t worry’s’ and ‘We’re smarter than you think!’

I sat on my couch and waited.

Ten minutes passed and there was a knock on the door. I nervously paced to the door and unlocked it. I opened it to see Liam standing there with small smile and his hands behind his back. “Hi” I said, my voice barely above a whisper. “H-hi.” His breath was shaky and he seemed nervous.

What did he except me to do? Throw bricks at his face? His face. That beautiful face.

Ok Eden, focus.

“Um, what’s behind your back?”

“Oh…yeah.” He brought out his hand and he was holding a bear. Very similar to Clark, my superman bear that he got me on ‘that night’ and Jamie can’t get enough of. The bear was wearing a Robin costume and on his shirt it said. ‘Holy____!’ I slightly giggled as I took it in my hand. Li and I used to make fun of Robin because he said ‘Holy’ a lot. From Holy bikini to Holy Houdini.

The fact that he thought of something like that warmed my heart.

“Thanks Li” I smiled, leaning up and pecking his cheek. Oh why did I just do that? I quickly pulled away to find his cheeks flamed and felt that mine were too.

“Um…I-I’m just gonna put this somewhere” I nervously stated before leaving to the living room and plopping Robin onto the couch. I met Liam at the door and gave him a half smile, telling him that I was ready to go. We left my flat building and went onto the street where his car was. I had already eaten so I hope he wasn’t taking me out to eat.

The drive was silent. Awkwardly silent. I didn’t know what to say and by the sound of it neither did Liam. It was a whiles drive and we still weren’t at our destination. Where was he taking me. My eyes widened a bit when I saw the sign to our hometown.

“Why are we here?” I sighed.

“We’re going to the park?”

“And why is that?”

“Because it’s our park.”

I rolled my eyes, letting the topic go. When we had finally got there we both hope out of the car and started to walk the path to the play ground.

“Why did you want to see me?” I asked.

“We’re friends, Eden.”

“You could’ve fooled me.”

“Look, I…I feel the need to talk to you about things regarding Jamie and I just wanted to do it in private.”

“We were alone at my flat.”

“But you seem happiest when you’re here.”

“I guess so.” He was right.

We got to the swing set and both sat in one. I lightly pushed off the ground and softly swayed.

“So what do you have to say?” I softly asked, not really wanting to hear his heart braking answer.

“I…I want to be a part of his life, Eden.”

I looked at him with wide eyes, “What?”

“I mean… if I would’ve known about him I would want to be here and now that I do I can make it official.”

“It’s not that easy, Li. It takes a lot of responsibility to be a parent and you’re all famous. I don’t know how you’re gonna keep up with it.”

The chains of the swing creaked, reminding me of the time Liam pushed me so high I ended up falling off and scraping my knee. He took care of me that day.

He sighed, “I know. I just hope you’ll agree to touring with us.”

“Touring?”

“Well, yeah. I’m being serious about this. I wanna make up for lost time.”

“I don’t know if Jamie and I are cut out for that life.”

“Won’t you just give it a try? If you don’t then you can come back and I’ll visit every time possible. We can make this work.”

“You know, you being with Jamie doesn’t mean you and I are together” I said.

“I plan to change that.” He smiled, confident in his answer.

I felt the heat rise on my cheeks. I looked down at my lap to hide it.

“It’ll just be so overwhelming with cameras always in your face. Like, look there was a camera flash behind those trees. Do they ever leave you alone?”

“No…but it’s fun to give them a show.”

I looked in his direction and smiled, “What do you mean?”

“Come closer” he leaned in.

I did this same, hoping he’d tell me.

I realized his real intentions when his eyes shifted to my lips. Oh Liam.

I pressed my lips against his in a sweet kiss before pulling away. He smiled and I did the same. At that moment I had hope that things were getting better.

“That’ll be front page tomorrow” he said. I shrugged, “It was worth it.” He laughed and hopped off his swing. He walked behind me and asked if I needed a push. I eagerly nodded. He gently pushed me, making me catch the wind in my hair.

Things were starting to look up.

The brief second that his hands touched my back had me tingling. I felt it down… there.

Just the thought of his hands all over me had me writhing in my swing seat.

After a bit of swinging we chased each other around the park as if we were kids again. Not caring that there were flashing cameras and people watching. Let us be public. Whatever ‘us’is.

By the time we got back to the car it was nearly nine. It was another forty five minute drive so we settled ourselves into a comfortable conversation.  My phone buzzed so I picked it up and held it to my ear. “Hello?”

“Mommy!”

“Hey baby!” I smiled.

“Uncle Louis made me cake!”

“Cake?! Put him on the phone for me?” Liam gave me a confused look. ‘Jamie’ I mouthed, letting him know who I was on the phone with.

I pressed the speaker button so he could hear as Louis greeted me on the phone.

“Hello?” He said, sounding like his mouth was full. Cake.

“Louis who told you it was okay to give kids cake at nine pm?” I rhetorically stated.

“He said he wanted cake” he defensively said.

“Oh, so if he wanted to watch and adult movie you’d let him?”

“He’d find out how it works someday!” he laughed.

“Louis” Liam scolds.

“Oh hey, Payne. How’s it going?”

“I’d feel better if you weren’t being so careless with Jamie.”

There’s that word again.

“Oh alright daddy direction. Niall get off the phone!” We heard Louis yell throughout the house.

“Shut up Lou!”

“Alright, we better let you go. Just bring him home in the next hour or so. He better be asleep” I told him.

“Kay bye!” he said and hung up.

I groaned, “People these days.” Liam laughed at my statement. “The boys have been making fun of Niall lately.” “Awe, why?” I asked. He sighed, “He got a new girlfriend and they’re…um…in the cupcake stage.”

I laughed, “The cupcake stage?” “It’s like new relationships and stuff when they act all cute towards each other. It gets annoying after a while, ya know?”

“Well, leave him alone. Niall’s adorable. Let him be.”

“I guess so. I mean his girlfriend, Elizabeth, is nice and but it’s strange seeing Niall in a relationship.”

“Boys these days” I chuckled.

By the time we got back to my flat complex it was raining. Liam rushed me inside with his hand on the small of my back. No matter how cold it was outside I still felt the burn of his fingertips. I slipped off my boots and socks as we walked down the hallway as they were dripping from the puddle I stepped in.

Liam took off his snapback and ruffled his hair before putting it back on. “Why are you wearing this? It’s not even sunny.” I took it off and held it in my hands observing it. “Give me it, Eden” he said trying to reach for it. I laughed as I stretched it further away from him, “No.”

He gave me a stern look but he wasn’t fooling anybody.

I settled it on my head backwards and took a few steps back. “Oh, look I’m Liam and I sing. I’m broken, do you hear me. I’m blinded, cuz you are everything I see” I sang.

He looked at me with a wide smile. “Oh so you listen to our music now.”

“Don’t flatter yourself, that’s the only song I know.”

“Sure it is” he teased, taking another step towards me.

I know what he’s doing, trying to distract me so he can take his snapback. I began to pace backwards. “Don’t even think about it” he said.

“About what?” I asked with wide innocent eyes. Before he could say another word I turned and dashed down the hall way. I could hear his loud thuds follow me. I quickly unlocked my flat door and ran into it. He came in seconds after me with a playful smirk on his face. “Eden, we both know I’m faster AND stronger than you.”

“In what world?” I teased as I crossed my arms. He laughed then charged at me, swing me over his shoulder. I yelped in surprised. I held my hand to my head to keep the hat from falling off my head. “Liam!” I screeched.

“Ed!” He mocked. He swung me around a few times, knowing I would get motion sickness. “Okay okay! Put me down. I’ll give your hat back!” He let me go, letting me slide down the front of his body. Our chests pressed against the others with the space between us or the lack thereof.

“You don’t play fair” I smiled, taking off the snapback and placing it back on his head. “Whoever said I did?” he whispered. I felt the need to kiss him. To be with him. I guess he felt it too because within seconds his lips were on mine. It started slow but then turned hungry as we devoured each other’s mouths. I held him around his neck pulling him closer as he held my head, doing the same. Our tongues massaged the others with the need to make the other feel what we felt. I teasingly bit his bottom lip. He did the same, taking my top lip between his teeth, causing me to moan.

We walked down my hall with our mouths still intact. My room door was open and we clumsily stepped in. My bedside lamp was still on so there was a dim setting to my room.

We stumbled onto my bed with me on top of him. I had each leg either side of his waist as I settled on top of him. I took off his snapback and threw it onto the floor so I could run my fingers through his hair. He moaned when I raked through his scalp. His calloused fingertips ran up my back, lifting my shirt, exposing my needy skin. He left trails of heat blazing as he smoothed the surface of my spine.

He flipped me onto my back and grounded himself against me causing us both to writhe from the pleasure given. A crackle of thunder startled us, braking apart and turning towards my window where we saw the rain fall. The only sound was of the splashing pavement, the rumble of thunder and our heavy breathing.

“That scared me” I breathily laughed. I looked up at him and awed at him. So perfect. He shifted his gaze to me and penetrated my brown eyes with his. I placed my hand on his cheek and guided him back down to my lips. This kiss was more emotion filled and deep. Slow and rhythmic. He knew what he was doing. I curled my fingers on the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head. He gave me a look as if asking a question that he basically already knew the answer for.  I gave the slightest signal of a nod before removing my own shirt from her torso. Liam’s eyes lingered on my chest in adoration, making me blush. He kissed down my neck, collar bones, chest, stomach, as I whimpered and squirmed beneath him.

He popped the button of my jeans and slowly, teasingly striped them from my legs. He threw them onto the floor and made his way back up. Leaving kisses up my thighs, brushing his lips over my hips. I softly moaned at the foreign sensation. The lost sensation. His lips met mine again and as we kissed I undid his jeans and slipped them off his narrow hips. He kicked them off and began to focus his attention on my neck, finding that one spot that spiked electricity through me. “Liam…” I moaned. I locked my legs around his waist and raised my hips, brushing myself onto him through the thin fabric of our underwear.

He skillfully undid my bra and dragged the straps down my shoulders as my chest heaved up and down with heavy breaths. A twitch of a smile appeared on my face as he watched me watch him.

“Can we get under the covers” I panted trying to say something before he could say some snide remark.

He effortlessly wrapped an arm around my waist and brought me further onto the bed as he peeled the covers back. He settled us onto the sheets before draping the cover over his torso and settling back on top of me. “Better?” he teased. I playfully rolled my eyes before grabbing his face and bringing him down to kiss me. As his mouth was pressed to mine I felt his thumbs hook into my panties and drag them down my legs. I pushed them off the rest of the way with my feet and then again wrapped my legs around his waist. He removed his briefs and then settled himself above me.

He rested his weight on his forearms with his forehead pressed against mine, just how were the first time. I gripped the cover and slid it further up his body as it began to slide down. I then loosely wrapped my arms around his neck. He gave me two sweet pecks before slowly connecting us so we became one.

I let out a long soft moan. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him grip the sheets between his fingers as if holding onto the control he once had minutes ago. Another rumble came but it was softer and right over me. It came from Liam as he slowly moved against me, keeping a steady rhythm. I panted with my agape as his eyes bore into me, making everything more intense. I moaned once again and squirmed beneath him, unable to hide the amount of feeling I was holding. He cursed under his breath letting me know he couldn’t handle it as much as I couldn’t.

This was it. A moment that has been long overdue and needed between the both of us. A moment that I couldn’t think about with any other person besides Liam. A moment of passion that only we could share.

I thought of nothing else at the moment. Only this scene right here, right now. This boy above me that I grew up with and shared everything with, including my purity. The boy that left when his help was heavily needed, but no, it was not his fault. It was mine.

This boy that came looking for me and succeeded.

This man. The father of my child.

“Oh Liam…” I whimpered.

Never have I ever felt anything like this, not even the first time. That time was out of curiosity and wonder but this time felt as if we’ve both been longing for this moment our whole lives.

The feeling was out of this world and nothing I could compare.

I guess pain does turn into a good feeling.

The pain in my chest when Liam left was faded by the thought of his unknown children.

The pain of child birth disappeared when I first held my babies in my arms.

Liam’s accusations of my past and the heartbreak he gave me left when I realized that this, the feeling of him slowly but deeply moving against me, was the best I have felt.

Soon enough his movements became desperate and quickened. His breathing huffed and my name tumbled from his lips more than once. He looked into my eyes deeply as in looking for something.

Searching…

I loudly moaned realizing his search. What he was looking for. Release.

I felt it to, build up inside me. Wounding me up and tightening with each move. The pulling of my insides brought me back to the entire struggle in my life. Facing my mother after months of ignoring me, packing my bags and leaving home with a kid at eighteen, keeping food on the table for my son.

It got tighter and tighter and I knew there had to be light at the end of the tunnel. A release.

Then, with one deep thrust I was gone.

I was let go and quickly unwinding as wave after wave hit me hard.

“Oh god…Liam!”

We found it. Our release. Everything else from the past was now lost and enabled us to start a new.

***

I woke up to a buzzing on my nightstand. I grumbled as I struggled to open my eyes. It was daylight and my muscles felt weak. The warm presence beside me wasn’t unnoticed. We lay facing each other with my face snuggled against his neck. His strong arm around me constricted me from moving but I didn’t mind.

I want him to hold me. I don’t want to think about him going home to the boys. Not yet.

The boys. I wonder what they would think about Liam being Jamie’s dad. Well Harry already knows so that leaves three.

I hope Jamie is okay with them.

Oh crap, Jamie!

I quickly reached the phone that was previously vibrating and realized it was Liam’s.

I pressed the home button and a text conversation popped up.

H: I’m about to leave right now. Jamie’s asleep.

It was sent last night.

L: You mind keeping him over night? Ed and I got kind of caught up.

H: Doing what? ;)

L: Shut up.

H: Hahaha. I have an idea ;) But it’s cool I don’t mind keeping him.

L: Thanks.

I smiled as I read through them. I decided to call Harry back.

“Hello?” he answered. I lowered the volume because the speaker was a bit loud and I didn’t want to wake Liam.

“Harry…its Eden.”

“Oh, hey. Were you asleep?”

“I woke up a few minutes ago.”

“You know it’s almost noon right?”

“Really? Oh gosh, I’m sorry. Well, um, you called a few minutes ago. What’s up?”

“I was wondering what time I should get Jamie home.”

I looked over at Liam seeing that he was still heavily asleep and won’t be up for a while.

I sighed, “Bring him home now, please.” “Sure thing. I’ll be there in twenty.”

I set the phone back down on the nightstand and snuggled up to Liam.

“Liam” I mumbled, tracing my finger along his collar bone.

“Mmm” he groaned.

“We gotta get up.”

“Why?” he complained.

“Harry’s on his way with Jamie.”

He sighed, “Alright” He opened his eyes but held me tighter.

“That means you’ll have to let me go” I giggled. “Never” he smiled. He looked down between us and raised an eyebrow.  “You’re naked” he smirked. “And you are too” I smiled.

He playfully rolled his eyes and sat us both up. “I’m tired” I mumbled, resting my head on his shoulder. He yawned, “Me too.”

We sat there with our backs on the headboard, talking. I had to keep raising the sheets to conceal my chest and he chuckled at my shyness. We changed into some appropriate clothes after a while because Jamie will be here any minute. We were still pillow talking when there was a knock on the door. I got out of the covers with Liam’s shirt hanging loosely to mid thigh. I pulled on some pajama shorts and went to open the door.

Harry stood there with a cheeky grin and Jamie in an arm. “Mommy!” Jamie exclaimed, opening his arms for me. I held him in one arm and took his overnight bag from Harry in the other.

“Thanks Harry…for watching him.”

“No problem. We don’t mind keeping him busy while you’re busy with Liam” he smirked.

I swatted at his shoulder, “Shut up Harry.”

He laughed, “Well, I’ll see you later.” “Kay bye, drive back safely” I said and shut the door after he walked away.

I kissed Jamie’s cheek as I set the bag down on the floor. “Were you a good boy at Uncle Louis’?” He nodded. “Liam’s here” I told him. “Daddy?” he whispered. Ever since he had that dream of Lea he keeps talking about Liam and mostly asking questions.

‘Does daddy like football?’

‘Does he make hot chocolate like you?’

‘Does he play teddies?’

I wish I could answer him truthfully but in all honesty I don’t know the answer to half of his questions.

“Yes…daddy. But you can’t call him that, alright?”

“Why?” he nearly cried. I pecked his eyelids, “Because he’s not used to it yet…okay?”

He nodded again. I let him slide down my leg and let him sprint off to my room. I walked behind him. “Liam!” he exclaimed and jumped on my bed. “Hey Jamie” Liam smiled and took Jamie onto his lap.

“You have fun?” He asked. “Yes! I had cake!” Liam laughed, “I heard. Was it good?” “Yes! We got special cake ‘cause other cake was no good for me.” Liam glanced at me and I smiled, knowing the boys bought soy free cake batter.

“That’s great bud.”

I sat next to them both on my bed and smiled at the both of them. “How about I go make hot chocolate?” I asked them.

“Yes!” they both said in unison. I leaned over and kissed Jamie’s forehead, “I’ll be right back.”

“Where’s my kiss?” Liam teased. I leaned in and gave him a sweet kiss on the lips. I smiled and left the room to make the cups of chocolaty treats. I returned to the room with the steamy cups, making sure to put milk into Jamie’s to cool it down. I made sure to lay a towel under Jamie just in case he spilled his.

He settled between Li and I. He took a sip and scrunched his nose, “Hot” He said.  “Really? I was sure to put milk in it just how you like.”Liam then chuckled a bit, “You might’ve given him mine.” They traded cups then both took sips, satisfied with the others. We laughed a bit while drinking our hot chocolates, mostly at the things Jamie told us.

When we were done I set our empty cups on the bedside table. Jamie looked sleepy and a bit worn out from the day. He needed a nap. Before I could take him to his room he had already drifted between Li and me. I lay down as well, pulling him back so his back pressed against my belly.

“What time do you have to go back?” I asked. He checked the time on his phone before replying, “I can stay a few more hours.”

“Enough hours to nap?” I innocently asked with my bottom lip poked out. He smiled and settled down next under the covers. We faced each other and he had a protective arm around the both of us.

Jamie shuffled closer to Liam and snuggled his face against his chest.

“Sleepy daddy.”

Liam glanced to me and gave me a sympathetic smile which I returned. He leaned down and kissed the top of Jamie’s head “Sweet dreams bud.”

He then leaned into me and gave me a deep kiss. I laid my hand on his cheek to keep my stability. I pulled away. “Don’t start something you can’t finish, Li” I teased. He raised an eyebrow, “Who said I couldn’t?” I rolled my eyes before pecking his lips once more and snuggling closer to him and Jamie.

A/n: Okay so...awwww. How did you guys like this chapter?!?!? I chose Elizabeth to be Niall's girlfriend but don't worry Charlotte...I got you ;)

Sorry if there are any grammar errors!! I would've put MA content in the beginning but that would've been a spoiler alert

-Mone'

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