my new life (1D fanfic)

Have you ever felt alone? That's how Ariella felt. Her parents died when she was fourteen and her sister was eighteen. Ever since then her snobby sister abused her in every way possible. She has always gotten bullied in school, and has no friends. Her only one was when she was sixteen. But he moved away to go to the X-Factor and he never talked to her again. When she is seventeen, her sister gets married to a boy that she has been dating for a while, Ariella and her sister, Melissa have to move from Cheshire to London. The twenty-one year old man lives with four other friends. But when she finds out who they are, there is only one question left:

What will happen?


8. Great Escape

my new life:

Great Escape.


Ariella's POV: (WARNING: Emotional- should be last one until later)

"Louis is alive, and awake." He says. I feel a great weight get lifted off my chest.

"Can we go see him?" Niall ask. The doctor nods. The boys run to his room. I thank the doctor and walk there. All the boys are talking to him.

They are all joking around, having fun. Pretending what just happened, is impossible. They continue this for a hour before I have to interrupt.

"Boys? Can I talk to Louis. Alone?" I ask. They all nod and the four of them leave.

"Yes Ella?" He ask.

"Louis promise you'll never do it again." I say with a very serious voice.

"But but I can't I can't-" He rambles but I interrupt him.

"Yes you can. It's hard. Very hard to. I would know. I also do it." I say. I tell him about Allie. "After that I tried to kill myself a few times. I over dosed but then the pills didn't kicked in and I just woke up with memory lost(don't know if that happens). I tried to hang myself, but Melissa found me. Then the last time I cut way on my neck but a neighbor found me again. I still have the scar." I point out the huge jagged scar on my neck. I always put my hair on the right side to cover it up. It goes in a medium sized line from my jawline down to my collar bone.

"I've cut myself since I was about fourteen. If I count how many scars I probably have over one thousand. And I'm not over exaggerating. But you know what. It does nothing. The pain comes back. Ten times worse. Then you end up cutting even more because of that pain. Then you get addicted. Then you try to kill yourself one day. Then everything ends." I say tears sliding down my face.

"One of my favorite quotes are  'Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse. Suicide eliminates the possibility of it getting better.' (I forget who said this but if you know please comment and tell me so I can give credit please )."I say smiling at the thought of the beautiful words.

Louis just nods. Tears are falling out of both of our eyes. We hug for what feels like forever. Both of us letting go of all of our pain. After we cry it all out Louis says something I've never heard before.

"Ariella, you say this stuff, then you'll go home and do it all again. Please promise me you won't. Swear to me that you won't cut anymore. You are so beautiful, and sweet, and caring. You've been through so much that you didn't deserve. Please promise Ariella." Louis says.

"I promise Lou if you do too." I say.

"I promise." He says. Then I see the first smile since he woke up, even since the boys were in here he just faked a smile. But this is a real smile. We hug again.

"I love you. Like a little sister of course." He kisses the top of my head.

"I love you too. Like the big brother I never had." I kiss his cheek.


"Don't you say you had a part of it

I guess we'll never know

oh would you say that had a part of it

Well I guess we'll never know


Constant recovery

I see you choke and it takes my breath away


But all is good, we close our eyes

They all accept a lie


So bury what you are outside

Brother, promise you won't leave me


I know your tortured within

Your eyes look hungry again

But I'll never wander, my friend


Will somebody believe in this suicide?

Am I the only one who thinks you should stay alive?

Oh, I became ashamed as you back up on the ropes to

arm yourself and lie


And so I scream 'Maybe, I'm in trouble, send somebody

On the double


Scratching at the floor inside my mind

They all accept this lie


So bury what you are outside

Brother, please don't be afraid of.....


I know your tortured within

Your eyes look hungry again

But I'll never wander my friend


I let you down

And I started to run

Never meant to be your pain

What have I become?


Show me and show me the way back

Show me the way back home


I know your tortured within

Your eyes look hungry again

But I'll never wander, my friend

No, I'll never wander again


I know what I want,

But it's not what I need


Can I just have one more taste

Just to make it through the day

You're tangled in

You're tangled in the great escape


Great escape, oh


I never meant to hurt nobody, no no, yeah

I never meant to hurt you, no no no no

I only meant to do this to myself, to myself, to myself

Great escape

Great escape

Great escape

Oh, great escape

Let me out of this, yeah

Let me out of this yeah." (Tangled in the Great Escape- Pierce the Veil)

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