Sweet Escape<3 (Completed)

Together forever right? Four friends Paige, Kelsey, Manda, and Shania are facing this test of their friendship. They all decided to move in together. A beach house filled with a bunch of potential. Specially when they realize who their neighbors are. Will love tear them apart or bring them closer together? Read and find out. x

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67. Taking matters in my own hands.

Manda's POV:
I decided to stay in my room for a few hours. I had a lot of steam to work off. I laid down on my bed and stared up at the ceiling. I remember this one time I was doing something with some friends. I think it was a play. We were all suppose to be leading ladies. Some how though my character ended up in the beginning being the main one. The girls weren't happy about this and demanded things be changed. I tried to tell that that later one like the next scene things were about to change. It all went in one ear and out the other. The refused to wait and see. They left the play and decided they no longer wanted to be friends with me. It hurt me badly because back then I was going through a lot. I need someone more than ever back then. I sat in my room for days crying and not eating a thing. Then Paige came into my life and helped me through everything. I prayed that nothing like that would happen again. I sat up and grabbed my guitar. I started singing a song I heard on the radio:

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

I felt tears running down my face while I sang the song. After I was done I collapsed on the ground and started crying my eyes out. I looked in the mirror on my closet. Who was the girl I was staring at? She seemed so far to being me. I crawled to my closet and pulled out a box. I opened it to reveal knives and a bunch of wine. I grabbed a bottle and knife then pushed the box back and hid it carefully. I took some big drinks of the wine then opened the knife and pressed it to my skin. I pressed until I saw the ruby water start dripping down my arm. It was painful I admit but the pain made me feel so much better. Unlike Shania I wasn't doing this to kill myself I was doing it to help my pain. After I was done slicing my arm I whipped the knife off then put it back in the box. I crawled over to my bed side. I downed the rest of the wine and just fell asleep on the floor. I was perfectly fine. Plus no one could get in my bedroom. I locked the door. Plus I told Shania that I wanted to be alone so tell everyone to let me be for a few hours. 

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