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To get straight to it. I'm sick of not being friends with Emily.

Last year, I remember everyday we used to talk and laugh- where as now, we only talk in the classes we have together.

I don't know if its her or me- maybe its both.

She has her new friends (which is basically the whole grade) and I have my boyfriend and 1 or 2 other friends.

I miss her.

You know what makes this situation worse? She lives around the corner from me.

I don't know who has changed- but one of us has. I don't like it.

I don't like a lot of things in my life, it's actually really pointless me being alive.

I just feel so crap every single day.

It's school holidays at our school right now and my mum asked me if I wanted to have a friend over but I had to tell her 'they are all busy'- but truth be told- what friends? No one wants to be around me anymore. I would just really like to know what I ever did to deserve this.

I honestly think life doesn't like me very much.

Kaela.