I haven't had these nightmares until we started going out a few years ago. Should I split off?

*Guys,this Movella talks about self harm. If you self harm,please stop. It's not worth it. You're all beautiful to me. Every single one of you.*


4. Chapter 4

*Jades POV*

I ordered Louis and I's usuals,paid,and took the beverages to the back,where Louis sat,humming. "Hey Stranger,would you like this? I can't seem to find my boyfriend." I ask him,holding up the cup with 'Louis' written across it. "Sure,have a seat. Your boyfriend must be lucky to have such a beautiful girlfriend." He smiles,motioning for me to sit across from him. I sit,blushing. I take a sip of my drink,and notice he's staring at me. 

"Can I help you?" I joke,and he nods. "Well...what is it?" I ask,motioning for him to continue. 

"I-" He starts,but immedietly gets cut off by a few squeals. Three girls walk over,each in a short skirt and tight tank. And it was like 10AM. The first one has blonde hair,beautiful green eyes,perfectly tanned skin,a thin body,basically everything I wish I had. "Can we get a photo?" She basically screams,causing me to flinch. He looks at me unsure,but when I don't react to him,he answers with a sighed 'Sure.' I glanced up,and watched her gush over him. All three girls looked,well,amazing. I must've looked like something that just crawled out from under a bridge. 

After the three photos,the girls started to exit,but as one with red/orange hair passed me,she whispered,"I look so much better with him." It stung. Even though I knew I shouldn't care,I did. I've stared to believe them. With everything they said. 


Louis was lying on the couch,shirtless,scrolling through photos. I took this as my opportunity to weight myself. I ran to our room and quickly changed into a tank and some short-shorts. I pulled my hair up and ran to the Bathroom. I pulled the scale out,and stepped on,my eyes closed. I peeked down,and noticed that only eating a little a day for a while has gotten me from 138 to 105LBS. The average weight is apparently around 115-125LBS. I still felt...well...huge. I heard footsteps and quickly jumped off the scale,forgetting to hit the 'Clear' button. 

I step out of the Bathroom as Louis reaches the top of the stairs. "Come cuddle." He whines,opening his arms. I smile,"I'll meet you downstairs." He just nods. 



Sorry for any spelling or grammar errors! I type all of this stuff on my iPod so sometimes Autocorrect gets me. Comment what you think! And feel free to check out my other Movellas! It really helps! Thankssss<3

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