Loved You First

"Was it possible that all the signs, I had convinced myself were just my imagination, actually were real?

I just couldn't help but wonder how long she'd had feelings for him, even if they were subconcious.
I was sure that I loved her first, but at this point I actually didn't know who she loved first."

A few slightly sexual references (not smut, I don't do that)
A few slightly violent scenes
Use of strong language at times
SELF-HARM references in a couple of chapters


34. 'All You Need Is Love'


Hellooo ppl.

first of all this chapter has nothing to do with the song "all you need is love", just mainly because this chap focuses most on the love between different ppl so yeah ;)

also the song! I wrote it myself, so forgive my sucky poetic skills, and be happy that I'm, not 1D's songwriter ;)

there's a surprise at the end of the chapter.. like not a part of the chapter but as a A/N so yeah..

pleeease remember to comment!!! :D love you lots!! xxxx

ENJOY, xoxo M. ;)





Chapter 28

"All You Need Is Love"


Maggie's P.O.V.


I sat on the bed, as the sound of Niall's fingers strumming his guitar played in my ears. A few seconds later Zayn's beautiful voice filled the room, and my heart with love.


Hearts and hands entwined, love is hard to find

What I found in you, will be forever mine

You turned my world upside down

And I know you'll always be around

Though you may not know, I'll never let you go


Our love is unbreakable

Our love is unshakable

Try to tear us down, but we both know we're capable

Of winning over whatever is thrown at us

Cause our love is strong, an unbreakable bond


When the road gets tough I won't be scared

Troubles and pleasures, everything we'll share

No one can break us, they can't tear us apart

We knew it was forever from the very start

Though you may not know, you'll never see me go


Our love is unbreakable

Our love is unshakable

Try to tear us down, but we both know we're capable

Of winning over whatever is thrown at us

Cause our love is strong, an unbreakable bond


And we can do it together

Make it last forever

With you by my side, we'll handle any weather

Cause you found me, when I was lost

And you lift me up

And I found my haven in our undying love


Our love is unbreakable

Our love is unshakable

Try to tear us down, but we both know we're capable

Of winning over whatever is thrown at us

Cause our love is strong, an unbreakable bond


So don't give up on me, I won't give up on you

Stay with ne now, we'll make it through

Don't give up on us, don't forget this love

Unbreakable, unshakable, don't let go of our love




At the last note I was in tears. It was so beautiful, so filled with emotions, so true. I couldn't believe how lucky I was, that someone so truly amazing loved me so much.

"Babe... What's wrong?" Zayn asked, sitting down next to me sounding worried.

"Nothing... These are just happy tears," I said wiping them away from my cheeks, "that was... unbelievable! I don't even know what to say." I said truthfully, and he wrapped his arms around me, leaning my head on his shoulder.

"You don't have to say anything love," he whispered into my ear, making me shiver, "it was just how I feel. You and I... we're gonna be together always."

"Until you get tired of me." I added, and he lifted my head to look me straight in the eyes.

"That's never gonna happen!"

And then we shared the most wonderful kiss, that sealed our love, and any doubt I ever had vanished into thin air.


* * *


Harry's P.O.V.


"Oh you're such an angel!" I said, as I discovered Mag had brought my sleepover bag, without me even telling her.

"But she's my angel." Zayn added, hugging her from behind, arms tightly around her waist.

I wondered if Lauren and I would end up as nautiosly sweet as Zayn and Mag or Niall and Tally, who by the way now refused to respond to anything but Nally. They plain out ignored us, if we called them be their own names, and it was pretty much impossible to have a conversation with only the one of them.


Lauren and I were still pretty new though, but I doubted we would ever be as bad as the others, as we had this thing called consideration for our surroundings.

Something that Nally obviously never had heard about, since they would start snogging whenever they pleased, not even caring the slightest bit about where they were.

"Should we watch a movie or something?" I suggested, and Louis piped up,

"I'm turning in early, my appointment is at 10AM, and I'm rather tired after all that bowling!"

"You mean all that fooling around and flirting with fans, while the rest of us were bowling." Liam corrected him and Louis looked at him in fake shock,

"I did not flirt with them! I always act ridiculous!"

"You said it." Zayn chuckled and it was actually true.

Louis was always a fool, there was no flirting about it. Probably just Liam's frustrations kicking in again.


I noticed that Mag, Zayn and Louis were all acting normal around each other again... well actually abnormal to anyone else but that was normal for them. I mean they were all weird and abnormal, but they had all been glum lately, and now that was thankfully gone.

"But how are you going to turn in early, LouLou? You're sleeping out here in the livingroom." Tally stated.

"First of all don't call me LouLou, it's mrs. LouLou! And secondly, who is sleeping where?" Louis asked, and we all turned to Lauren, as it was her place and her decision.

"Well... Tally and I will share my room, and I guess Zayn and Mag will take the guestroom and the rest of you sleep out here." She replied and Tally immediately spoke up,

"Okay I'll let the Tally thing slip this once, but you can't break up Nally! Why do Zag get to sleep together but not us? I think Nally should have the guest, and Laury should share your room!"

"How about no?" Lauren replied bluntly.

"And why are you mentioning everyone in shipping names and third person?" I questioned.

Tally sighed before replying,

"Because you aren't Zayn and Mag or Harry and Lauren anymore. You're Zag and Laury. So I can't really say you and Lauren, when Lauren and Harry don't exist."

We all looked at girl/Nally with terrified expressions except boy/Nally who was looking at her like she was a genius.

"You're mental, and I don't want you in my home!" Lauren said, and I actually wasn't sure if she was joking or serious.

"Hey, I exist!" I suddenly piped up, when the shock of what Tally said had passed.

"Yeah so do I... And Mag!" Zayn joined in,and Tally shook her head, and looked at us, as if she was trying to explain something to a kid.

"But I still don't get why they're allowed to share a room and we're not!" Niall spoke up looking offended.

"Well Zayn and Mag have shared a room since they got together, and they know how to behave!" Lauren said looking slightly irritated now, and I rubbed her shoulder to calm her down.

"So unfair!" Tally muttered, crossing her arms and pouting.

"But I have to sleep early, I've been so tired lately and mrs. LouLou needs her beautysleep!" Louis exclaimed with a highpitched girly voice, and I held back a laugh, as I knew he was actually being serious.

"Fine! Louis take the guestroom!" Lauren said with irritation in her voice.

"He has to share with someone, we can only be four people out here." Niall stated almost in a whisper, frightened at how my curlyhaired girlfriend would react.

Lauren's eyes grew wide, teeth were grinding and steam was almost coming out of her ears.

"You guys are impossible! Okay Louis takes the guest with Harry, whatever I don't care anymore!" She said gesturing with her arms.


I'm not sure if she thought Louis and I were good again because we were joking around and stuff, or if she just wasn't thinking and picked me as the obvious choice, but I had a bad feeling about sharing a bed with Louis.


Lauren had no idea about why Louis and I hadn't been talking for a while, and it would be suspicious if I said, I didn't want to sleep with him, since we were obviously friends again. I would have to explain it to her, and I really wasn't ready to tell my girlfriend about my former gay-not-relationship-thing with my best friend, that lasted for three years. I knew Lauren was totally for gay rights and stuff, but I wasn't sure how she would react to discovering her boyfriend was bi. I might tell her eventually, but it was too soon in our relationship.


It's not like I still had feelings for Louis, of course not! But he had this power over me sometimes that I just couldn't resist, no matter how much I wanted to, and it was hard to describe, as I never quite understood it myself.

But I had nothing to worry about, since Louis didn't have feelings for me anymore, so it would be like sharing a bed with any of the other guys, right?


"Fine with me... unless you have a problem Haz?" Louis said looking at me with an undefinable look.

"No... No problem at all Lou." I replied with a smile.

This whole situation had a bad vibe.


* * *

"I'm off to bed... Try not to wake me, when you enter Hazza." Louis said, and I choked on my applejuice.

At first the others looked weirdly at me, but Zayn must have catched on, because he was clearly holding back a fit of laughs.


Typical Louis. He was the master of inappropiate, double-meaning comments. I was reminded of the interview where we were talking about Mario Kart, which in my opinion, was Louis' masterpiece. Since that day whenever I asked Louis if he wanted to play Mario, the other boys would run out of the room.


"Sure, I'll take it easy Lou." I replied with a smirk and Zayn ran to the bathroom where we instantly heard a loud laugh.


Everyone except Tally and Lauren were holding back laughs now and when Zayn came back, we took one look at his face and the whole room erupted in laughter.


"What did you guys take and where can I get it?" Lauren asked and then looked at Tally questioning.

"Do you know about this Talls?" She asked, and Tally shook her head, while holding her stomach laughing.

"No but it must be really funny so I didn't wanna miss it." Tally replied after we finally had calmed down.

"What happened?" Lauren questioned, and I wasn't quite sure what to say.

"You seriously didn't notice Louis' sexual comment?" Niall asked, and I looked at him wide-eyed.

"Oooh... How did I not pick up on that one?" Lauren said smiling to herself.

"So you don't have a problem with him making sexual comments and references to your boyfriend?" Liam asked, and we all turned to Lauren. I thought she would have been upset.

"No, why should I? They're just joking like always. They're both clearly not gay." Lauren replied, and I hoped the awkwardness that followed was just in my head.

"So should we watch a movie?" I asked in a desperate attempt to change the subject.

"I guess... You guys pick something out. Zaynie and I will get snacks!" Mag said running to the kitchen with her boyfriend.


* * *

"Goodnight babe. I'll miss you." I said giving Lauren a kiss after watching "Star Wars Episode III".

"Goodnight Harry. Don't turn to the dark side!" She joked and walked off to her room, where Niall had just carried a sleeping Tally in.

Tally was full of life, but if she came down from her high she would collapse and sleep like a log.


Zayn, Mag, Liam and Niall had already set up sleeping arrangements on the couches and airmatress so I brushed my teeth and washed my face in the main bathroom, afraid I would wake up Lou, if I used the guestroom one.

"Goodnight everyone."

"Nighty night Harry."

"Be easy on Lou, yeah?"

I mocklaughed at Zayn's comment, and slowly opened the door to the guestroom.


Louis was sleeping peacefully, and I noticed his clothes on the floor, which meant he was sleeping in his boxers. Well, why wouldn't he? We were just friends sharing a bed, and we had seperate covers.

I discarded my own clothes, and was about to get in bed, when he suddenly shifted and I sighed. He had now rolled from his usual left side to the middle of the bed, so I would have to push him to get in.

I sat down silently and nudged him lightly, but he wouldn't move. I pushed him a little more forcefully, making him whine and I shifted uncomfortably where I was sitting.

I then pushed him roughly, at which he groaned,

"Hey, you said you would take it easy!"


The sound of his voice indicated that he clearly hadn't been sleeping, and I rolled my eyes at the smile that appeared on his face.

"I thought you were tired?" I questioned, as he finally scooted over so I could get in bed.

"Well, I did fall asleep Hazza, but I woke up when Anakin becomes Darth Vader. You guys had the volume pretty high." He replied and I chuckled,

"So you had to take the mickey out of me?"

"Of course! Don't you know me by now Haz?"

"More than I'd like to admit." I replied smiling, and the look in his eyes gave me a weird feeling.

"Why do you keep calling me Haz and Hazza?" I suddenly asked furrowing my eyebrows.

"You look like such a kid when you make that face. I sometimes forget how young you are." Louis said smiling, but I looked at him seriously.

"Louis, I asked you a question."

"Well it's a weird question! You've had those nicknames for ages!" He replied as if stating the obvious.

"Well things aren't like they were for ages, are they?" I said slightly angrily and turned around pulling the cover up, and wondering if what I just said made sense.


I shouldn't be getting upset about this. I had a wonderful girlfriend, who I cared about, and I hated the fact that Louis still had this power over me, and he didn't even know it. He didn't know how his eyes, his voice, how his lips moved when he talked or how his smile would effect me. Of course he didn't know, because he didn't care... And neither should I!


I wouldn't let him get to me anymore. Maybe he didn't see a problem in using those nicknames, he used to use when we were in our moments. Besides it was only Haz and Hazza he used, it's not like he used those coupley ones anymore. Louis, as anything more than a friend, was my past and Lauren was my present and my future. Nothing was going to get in the way of that, or complicate it in any way. Especially not a certain sassy, toned and tanned, older guy.

"Goodnight Louis." I said calmly, still not facing him, and I felt him lying down and finding a comfortable position.

"G'night... Baby cakes."

Damn, that boy had no shame!


* * *

Zayn's P.O.V.


I woke up rather early, while everyone was still sleeping, and took a look around me. Liam was snoring away on the couch, Niall was missing and Mag was lying next to me on the airmatress, arm across my chest with a smile on her face, her long thick hair framing her face and cascading down her shoulders and back.


I remembered her face when I sang the song I wrote for her. I wanted her to always shine like that, always have that sparkle in her eyes. Not just the natural sparkle that her eyes had, but that sparkle that could only be caused by pure happiness and love.

I had this urge for the world to know exactly how I felt about her, to hear the words I wrote and rhymes I strung together just for her.


After admiring her for a while, I decided there was no way I could go back to sleep, so I got up quietly and changed into my gym clothes. I hadn't gone for a quick morning run in ages, but it was a perfect way to start the day, and there wouldn't be so many people out at this time of the day. In this neighborhood, everyone would be at work or school and the ones who weren't would be sleeping.

I slipped on my running shoes and turned on my ipod, finding an uptempo song, before opening the door and jogging out.


I started out slowly, until I got in the groove and took it up a bit.

Passing a local bakery, I noticed a vaguely familiar car parked out front, but let it go. Tons of people probably had that type of car. There was nothing to worry about.


"Hey Zayn... Where were you? It's only 9.30?" Louis questioned, as I stepped into the kitchen downing a large glass of water.

"Morning run." I answered quickly.

"Don't you have your check-up?" I asked grabbing the towel from my bag.

"Yep! I'm leaving now!" He replied and I noticed something different about him, that I couldn't quite place.

I was about to step into the bathroom, but stopped and turned to him,

"Lou? There were no complications last night were there? With you and Harry?" I asked cautiously.

"Not at all!" He replied with a cheeky grin, grabbing the car keys and leaving.


As I let the warm water run over my body, I let my thoughts run freely. Nothing could have happened between Harry and Lou. Harry was in a good stabile relationship with Lauren and he wouldn't jeapordize that. Besides Harry was a faithful type, unlike what many people thought. It was in his kindhearted nature. Harry could never harm anyone, and especially not someone he cared about. Instead of worrying about things that couldn't happen, I should be happy that Harry and Louis were getting along again and finding their places as friends and nothing more than friends.

But to be sure, I should probably ask Harry, as he couldn't lie for shit, unlike Louis who had been trained to lie about him and Harry for years.

I stepped into the guestroom where Harry was sleeping sprawled all over the bed.

"Harry?" I said sitting on the bed next to him and he groaned,

"No! I'm tired..."

"Did anything happen between you and Lou last night?"

Harry opened his eyes slightly to see who was talking and then closed them again before replying,

"Of course not I have a girlfriend now let me sleep!"

Well, that solves it then.


* * *

Niall's P.O.V.

Every morning I woke up, I couldn't help but be a little bit sad next to being happy, as I knew we were one day closer to going back on tour, but also leaving Tally. I just wish she could go along on tour at least for a while, but she had already taken an extra week off work to stay in Manchester until we leave, and they probably wouldn't be happy if she took a couple months off.


I had suggested that she should quit, but of course she needed money for rent and food. Suddenly I thought of something,and an idea formed in my head. I had to tell her right away.

"Babe..." I said shaking her slightly, but no response.

"Love..." I tried kissing her all over the face, but she was fast asleep.

"Donuts!" I yelled and her eyes flew up as she sat up in bed.

"Where?" She asked looking around frantically.

"Right here babe!" I replied smiling and she turned to me pouting.

"Never. Joke. About. Donuts!" She said, looking at me angrily for a second, but then flashed me a smile and gave me a quick kiss.

"I have an idea... about the tour." I said calmly and she frowned.

"Niall, I told you, I can't leave my work. I have an apartment and rent to pay."

"Well I was thinking that you won't need it on tour, so you can lease it to someone while you're gone like Mag did."

Tally's face lit up, and I felt my heart pounding. She was going along! But then her face changed and my heart fell.

"But babe... When I get back, I'll have to pay rent again, and there's no way to be sure that I'll get my job back." She said seriously, and I felt all my hopes sink. I couldn't be away from her for so long, no way!

"I'm sorry love." She said sadly, and kissed me on the cheek before going to the bathroom.


I wondered how the others would react, when they found out, that Tally and I had snuck out at 1AM and gone back to the hotel after knicking Harry's roomkey from his coat. Probably not so well, but I didn't care. I wanted to spend every second I could with her, while I still had the chance.

"Should I order roomservice or should we head back to Lauren's?" I asked as she stepped out of the bathroom dressed in skinny jeans and a band t-shirt, with her hair in a messy bun.

"We should get back. I have like ten missed calls from Lauren! I swear that girl is worse than my mum!" She replied slipping on her converse as I pulled on my t-shirt and grabbed the car- and roomkeys.


* * *

"Where the hell have you been?!" Lauren yelled at us, the second we stepped through the door.

"Top of the morning to ya! What a lovely day!" Tally replied cheerfully, ignoring Lauren and walking past her into the living room.

"We were worried sick!" Lauren continued, following Tally, who rolled her eyes as she threw herself on the couch.

"We went to the hotel okay? We wanted some privacy, is that a crime mom?" Tally spat out at Lauren, who stood towering over her, arms crossed.

"You know what? Just take the guestroom from now on! I guess there's no way to keep you apart anyway." Lauren finally said, giving up.

"Why do you even want to keep them apart?" Zayn questioned emerging from the kitchen looking very fresh considering it was only 11.30. He would usually be yawning until after noon.

Tally and Lauren exchanged a look before Lauren finally answered,

"I'm just looking out for my girl."


"Hello hello people and space monkeys! I brought donuts!" Louis exclaimed cheerfully walking through the door and all of us attacked him grabbing the big box in his hands.

"Whoa, easy kids! There's plenty for everyone!" He said following our group into the kitchen, where we started fighting over our favorites.


It got pretty ugly when Zayn and Tally both went for the last creamfilled chocolate grazed, but Louis managed to slip in and grab it, resulting in a chase scene between the three.

Eventually the poor donut ended up smooshed on the floor, when Louis tripped and Tally screamed at the fate of the wonderful cake.


"Why suddenly so generous Lou?" Liam asked as we all had consumed more donuts that any human should.

"Hey, sharing is caring," Louis replied with a smile, but we all kept looking at him so he continued, "well I slept wonderfully last night, and I got great news from the doctor! I'm healing very well, so in about a week I can jump around like an idiot again. A few days before we go back on tour!"

We were all very happy about the news, but at the mention of going back on tour, my mood changed, and I had to think of a way to get Tally to go along. I knew there must be a solution, I just had to think hard enough.


Finally it hit me like a lightning. There was a way, and I wondered why I hadn't thought of it earlier. It might be a bit far-fetched, but it was definitely possible and worth a try.

"Liam! I have to talk to you now!" I said pulling Liam into the guestroom.

"What's up Niall?" He asked looking at me curiously.

"Well, you know how I've been thinking of ways to get Tally along on tour?"


"I have an idea, but it concerns you... A lot. Just hear me out and promise me you'll think about it?" I nearly begged.

Liam looked at me confused, but finally nodded, and I told him my plan.

This had to work!


Liam's P.O.V.

"I'm not sure Niall..." I said hesitantly, after Niall had told me his plan.

"Please Liam, this is really important!" He begged, and I scratched the back of my neck.

"It's no problem for me... I just... Are you sure that you and Tally are ready?" I asked, looking at the Irish boy with his pleading eyes, and he nodded enthusiastically.

"Okay," I said taking a deep breath, "I'll think about it for a couple days but YOU have to talk to all the people about her going along!" I said sternly, and he pulled me in for a bearhug.

"Thank you Liam!"

"I want you to be happy Niall," I said patting his back, "but you know it's not only up to me."


No matter what I said, Niall wouldn't stop smiling, and it made me happy to see him like that.

I was happy he finally found his princess, and honestly they were perfect for each other!

After he left, I took out my phone to call Skye, as I knew she had her break by now.


"Hello?" She picked up sounding stressed.

"Hey Skye, how's paradise?" I asked, smiling at the sound of her voice.

"Liam," she replied, and I could hear the smile in her voice, "it's really hectic! We have a show in the weekend and Cruella is working us like maniacs! Being an intern does not mean having less work! My feet are swollen and sore by the end of the day, and my hands are aching!"

"Sounds pretty harsh." I said furrowing my eyebrows.

"It is! And I love it!" She replied making me chuckle.

"My boss is so brilliant! She has the most amazing style and visions and I'm really proud to be a part of it. I wouldn't have it any other way!"

I smiled at Lauren's reply. She was definitely born for a life in the fast lane, I knew that the first time I set eyes on her.

"So... You're not missing Manchester?" I asked, not daring to ask about one person in particular.

"Manchester is great, but London and fashion are my two great loves! Although I do miss the company."

"Well the company misses you too." I said, blushing even though she couldn't see me. She would definitely have picked up on what I really meant.

"Have all the couples gotten to you yet? Lauren is keeping me up to date." Skye said, and I could practically hear her rolling her eyes.

"Definitely!" I exclaimed with wide eyes, "Zayn and Mag are almost worse than before, Lauren and Harry are tolerable... For now, but Nally... They're totally over the edge!"

Skye laughed loudly before replying,

"I can imagine! But they're in love, that's how it is... Not that I would know though..."

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.

"I've never been in love before, or had a serious relationship." She stated, and my jaw dropped.

"You're kidding! But you seem so... Well, I don't know... It just comes as a surprise."

"Yeah, well the thing is when I was a teen I was really shy and unpopular, and I never got asked out, but that changed when I was around 17... which is the same time that I got a crush on someone, which was crazy because he didn't even know I existed." She explained, and I was utterly confused.

"But that was five years ago?" I questioned, and Skye let out a deep sigh,

"Yeah well the crush never went away, and when I was 19 it got bigger and bigger... I just found it hard to fall in love with anyone, when I constantly had one boy in the back of my head! So ridiculous. So I guess you can say I have been in love, but I've never experienced it in return.


I felt sort of sorry of Skye, to be in love with someone, who wasn't aware of her existence, but a piece was missing in her story.

"You said 'have been in love' right? So what about now?" I asked, and there was silence for what seemed like forever.

"You'll find out sooner or later. I have to get back to work, Liam, call you later okay?"

"Sure... Bye Skye." I said right before she hung up, leaving me in a mess.

I was dying to know, if she was still in love with that guy and if I even had a chance, and what she meant with I would find out sooner or later. I needed answers now, and I knew who could give me them.

"Psst... Lauren!" I called, peeping my head out the door.

Lauren turned from her seat next to Harry, looking at me confused, and I mentioned for her to come over. She turned to Harry, who was having a heated discussion with Zayn and Louis about tattoos, and skipped over to me, where I quickly pulled her into the room and shut the door.


"What's with the secrecy Liam?" She asked sitting down on the bed.

"What... Oh that... I just thought it would be fun." I replied chuckling, and she looked at me like I was stupid.

I explained my conversation with Skye, and asked her what she knew.

"I don't know if Skye would want me to tell you..." She said drifting off, and I went to sit down beside her.

"Lauren, please? I have to know... I really like her, and I don't want to fall too deep, if her heart belongs to someone else." I pleaded and she looked at me seriously for a while.

"You really, really like her?" She asked, and I nodded urgently.

"Okay then," she finally said, "think about it Liam... when did you go to the X-Factor for the first time?"

"Well, that would be five years ago." I replied, not quite sure where this was heading.

"And your second time?"

"3 years ago."

"So how old was Skye at those times?" Lauren asked, and I was starting to sense a pattern.

"17... and 19..." I replied, and Lauren looked at me, like I should be putting the pieces together.

"And you never knew about her existence... did you?" She asked finally, and I shook my head, feeling my heart beat faster as I connected the dots.

"So what you're saying is..."

"Don't you see Liam? Skye has had a crush on you from the start. You were her first true love... and at this point, she is pretty much head over Jimmy Choo heels in love with you!"




okaay, so I got a bit poetic after writing the soong aaand, I came up with a sort of poem thingy, that has some hints and clues to what will happen in this story.. hihihi take a look if you want ;)

Hearts tangled, lovers bond
Crossing paths, do they belong
Broken souls form to one
They were entwined all along

Two destinies, to one fate
A thin line between love and hate
Scars revealed, secrets told
How much could this love hold

Hearts will break, tears will fall
Only two will stand tall
Some of them will break apart
One will forever depart

At the end it will be clear
That the ending is not near
Vows are made, two will hold
The rest will remain to be told......

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