Is It Love? Or Am I Dreaming?

Brianna has had a hard life. She cuts. Suicide attempts 5. She has been bullied. Her father walked out on her and her brother. Her mother is always busy. And she's been through abusive relationships. She doesn't believe in love. Whenever she falls in love, she just ends up hurt. Her only friend, Kristy, is always there for her. And Kristy and her 10-year-old brother, Greyson, are the only one that she cares about. But will that change when she meets none other than Louis Tomlinson?
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5. Chapter 5

*Louis's POV*

I stood there in shock after she left. I finally walked into the school. I went to my locker to get my books and went to Mr. Higgins' room. I felt a tap of my shoulder. My body tensed as I looked up. I saw Rebecca twirling her hair.

"Hey Louis."

"Hi." I mumbled.

"Why so glum?"

"Like you care." I muttered under my breath.

"What was that?" she asked.

"Nothing, absolutely nothing." I replied. She looked at the door and an evil grin came to her face. She bent down and kissed my cheek.

"See you later at lunch." she chirped. I sat there confused. I looked up and saw Brianna walking to her seat and rolling her eyes. I she sat down without a word not even giving me a glance. I looked over and saw Kristy with her arms crossed staring at Bri. But Bri just kept doodling in her notebook. Finally class started. Thank the Lord. I looked behind me and saw Rebecca giving Brianna an evil glare. Ha, princess doesn't get her reaction she wanted. What a shame. I just turned around and paid attention to the rest of class.

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I walked to the canteen and saw Kristy sitting alone, again. I walked up to the table and sat down,

"Where does she always go?" I asked.

"Library." she answered simply. I just nodded and dropped the subject to not put any pressure on her. We sat and ate there for the rest of the lunch period in silence. 

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*Brianna's POV*

Music class. Finally. I am so scared to perform though! I haven't sang in front of a live audience! I made my way to class as slow as I could. Thank God we can't get through all of the songs today. I seriously hope I'm not today. I walked into class and was almost imediatley greeted by Mr. Collins. I said hi back to him and grabbed my instrument and sat down. Louis and Rebecca walked in together. I rolled my eyes and just waited for class to start. The bell rang and class finally started. First up was Mike and Rosa they sang 'Same Love' by Mackelmore. I smiled and clapped when they finished. Still a small ounce of faith in humanity. A few other people went until Mr. Collins said.

"Up next is Brianna Marks." My body tensed a bit. I grabbed my guitar case and slowly walked up. "Now what are you sing for us?" he asked. 

"I will be singing." I hesistated, " 'Bleeding Out' by Imagine Dragons." I looked and saw the class with confused faces. What has this world come to when they have never heard Imagine Dragons?!

"Okay. Start when your ready." he replied. I hesistated a bit. I sighed and started strumming the chords.

*A/N If you guys want to play the song, feel free. I feel that it adds emotion when you are reading*

"I'm bleeding out 
So if the last thing that I do
Is bring you down

I won't bring you down. I won't stay here and ruin your life.

I'll bleed out for you
So I bare my skins
And I count my sins

I'll give myself up so you won't have to bear with me. So I'm not a burden to you.

And I close my eyes and I take it in
I'm bleeding out
I'm bleeding out for you, for you

I know that I'm hated. I know that you don't want me here. So I'll do you a favour

When the day has come
That I've lost my way around

When you stop caring. Or pretend to stop. I'll go.

And the seasons stop 
And hide beneath the ground

When everything doesn't matter anymore I'll go

When the sky turns grey
And everything is screaming

Everything is screaming. They won't stop. They are yelling "Just give up."

I will reach inside
Just to find my heart is beating 

I'll just look inside and see if I'm even still alive or barely breathing.

Oh you tell me to hold on 
Oh you tell me to hold on 

You tell me to try. And hold on. But I can't

But innocence is gone 
And what was right is wrong 

Everything that I cared about is gone. Nothing is right. I don't do anything right. I have nothing to live for.

Cause I'm bleeding out 
So if the last thing that I do 
Is bring you down 
I'll bleed out for you 

I'll leave you so you won't hate me anymore.

So I bare my skin 
And I count my sins 
And I close my eyes and I take it in 

I take in what has happened to me. And hate my own life.

I'm bleeding out 
I'm bleeding out for you 
For you 

I'll kill myself, so I don't have to bother you.

When the hour is nigh 
And hopelessness is sinking in 

When I have low faith. I'll do you the favour.

And the wolves all cry 
To fill the night with hollering 


Everyone yells "Just kill yourself already" I think and cry "Don't you think I've tried." 

When your eyes are red 
And emptiness is all you know 

My eyes are red and puffy from crying. My eyes are dry. I have no tears. I have nothing inside.

With the darkness fed 
I will be your scarecrow 

With darkness taking over. I lost my control.

You tell me to hold on 
Oh you tell me to hold on 

You tell me to hold on, but I say "I just can't"

But innocence is gone 
And what was right is wrong 

Everything from my childhood is gone. Playing with footballs has turned into taking pills. And playing outside has turned to playing with razors

Cause I'm bleeding out 
So if the last thing that I do 
Is bring you down 
I'll bleed out for you 

I won't bring you down. I don't want your sorrow. I just want to die.

So I bare my skin 
And I count my sins 
And I close my eyes and I take it in 

I let myself go. Away from this earth. Away from this madness.

I'm bleeding out 
I'm bleeding out for you 
For you 

You say you care, but then you betray me. So, why not?

Cause I'm bleeding out 
So if the last thing that I do 
Is bring you down 

I keep letting you down. I don't mean to. I just can't stop.

I'll bleed out for you 
So I bare my skin 

I'm already gone. So don't try to save me.

And I count my sins 
And I close my eyes and I take it in 

I count what I have done wrong. Not on paper, but my skin

I'm bleeding out 
I'm bleeding out for you 
For you

You tried. But nothing can help me...

As I strummed the last chord I realize that I zoned out with the music. I forgot about everyone else there. I looked up and saw shocked faces. I looked over to Mr. Collins and saw a huge smile on face. The silence was broken when everyone started clapping and cheering. I just looked down and smiled. I did it. I performed in front of a live audience... Oh. My. God. How the hell did I just do that?! My thoughts were interrupted by Mr. Collins.

"Well done." he said simply and smiled.

"Thank you." I smiled and nodded. I grabbed my guitar and sat down in my seat. Everyone was still in shock by my performance though. Class finally ended. I got up and walked to my next class.

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Wow. Today wasn't horrible. That's a surprise. I started walking out of the school. I got out and heard footsteps behind me.

"Brianna wait up!" a familiar voice called after me. I grunted and stop.

"What Louis?"

"That performance. It. It was amazing." he spoke.

"Thanks. Now can I go?"

"Nope I'm walking home with you."

"No thanks. And don't you have your girlfriend to walk with?" I said.

"Rebecca-"

"Hey Louis." Rebecca spoke popping out from behind from Louis. "Why are you talking to this piece of trash?" she said looking towards me.

"Nice to see you too Rebecca. See you later Louis." I said starting to walk away.

"Brianna wait!" Louis yelled. I turned around on my heels.

"What?! I'm just trying to go home for Christ's Sakes!"

"Louis, this piece of trash is obviously saying that she knows you and her will NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS happen." Rebecca said. "So lets just go!"

"That's exactly what I'm saying Rebecca. Wow, you must be a physic." I replied to her wonderful comment and started walking away. Until someone grabbed my arm.

"Your not going anywhere." Louis said. Rebecca shot him a death glare.

"Just let her go Louis." she said and walked over to me. She just stood in front of me and gave me a glare for a moment. Until she slapped me to the ground. "I mean look at her." I held my cheek and was getting up off the ground. She kicked me in my stomach and back to the ground. She put her face down to mine with her teeth gritted. "Just a worthless piece of shit."

"Bree!" Louis yelled and tried to come over to help me.

"Just go away." I said and pushed him away. I got up myself and started walking home.

"Yeah you better run bitch." Rebecca yelled. I walked back home not looking back

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A/N

I know its short don't hate me! I'm sorry! I'm just so busy!

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