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This is about me and my 4 best friends and our story to becoming famous

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14. 08/04/13 Isibella's P.O.V.

So we had our meeting yesterday and it was amazing those three girls really are my sisters. I love them so much and yesterday and Friday proved it. We laughed so much that i am surprised  that we don't have 6 packs from laughing so much. It was just so amazing to spend all of that time with them! So yesterday after i left Bailey's house i went over to my friend Sabrina's house so the two of us could go to our friends Sam's house. Now before i explain more let me just say that i have had a crush on Sam for the longest time like 3 to 4 years now. So yesterday was his birthday/ Going away party and when i say going away i mean he will be gone for 9 weeks in marine boot camp. I feel like i should have told him sooner and i didn't even tell him Sabrina did. I know that he doesn't want to get into a relationship right now because he is going off to boot camp and i can understand that i really can. I just am having a hard time wanting the other thing. I.. I don't even know what to say anymore. I have liked him for such a long time that i cant help but want to date him and i know that that is the one thing that he doesn't want to do. The other part that has been making me really sad lately is the fact that i have very very very low( if none) self confidence there are so many things about myself that i don't like. I know that if i was to post this on Facebook or twitter i would get so much back from my friends saying no that i am beautiful and i have nothing to worry about but even when they tell me things like that i still cant help but feel even worse about myself. Nothing hurts more then being single having one of the guys you like go off to marine boot camp the other 5 you like are famous and would never notice you and feeling very very very not self confident. I wish i could just be happy the only thing making me happy right now are my girls and one direction. Its hard to pretend to be happy all of the time when i was at school i had no problems faking it. Now it just seems a lot harder to fake being happy. I really am happy around my girls and i should just focus on that it is just hard.

 

OK so sorry for ranting i just had to get that out! If anyone has advice or suggestions on what i can do about Sam please please please please please let me know comment or anything you can please i just want to know what to do.

 

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