Lyrical Remedy

Hazel Belle has only one cure to her problems...her many many problems. Life is tough for her, everyone in her life only comes and goes. No one truly stays by her side, they all leave sooner or later. School is hell for her she wakes up every morning prepared to have the mocking words pelted at her one after the other like bullets to the core of her heart, but somehow things slowly start to brighten up for Hazel. Music is her lifeline. Music is her remedy. Music is her cure. Music is happiness. Music is her comforter, her one thing that can talk to her. The lyrics are the answer to her problems. The rhythm is the flow to her life and the solo parts are where life isolates you and leaves you to fight for yourself. Something she has needed to do a lot. Kale is her bully the shepherd of the flock of haters, but he has a reason, what is it? And will he ever recognize how much he is REALLY hurting Hazel?

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2. You're not worth my tears

My bag is packed and I'm prepared yet again for the worst part of my day, school. As I pack my bag I put my curls up into a ponytail and tied a black ribbon in, I went downstairs gave mum a goodbye kiss and just took an apple and a popper for the day and headed on out. I placed my earphones in my ears put the volume up and was all set for the agony of another cruel day at school. I clicked play to 'Battlefield' by Jordin Sparks, reassuring myself that I can and will get through this, I have to for the people who love me, for the few people who actually care about me, but most of all I have to for myself. I took a deep breath in and walked into the school gates, down the hall and towards my locker, so far so good. I put in my lock code and threw my backpack in it, but instantly stopped in my tracks when I saw about ten or so, little notes slipped into my locker all of them with a different insult on each one, 'LOSER', 'THICK', 'UGLY', 'FAT', 'STUPID', they just continued one after the other being fired at me like every day words, they think I don't care, they think it doesn't hurt but it does, a lot. I hold the tears back, they can't win. They want me to fall apart, they want me to break but I'm not going to no matter what.

I tear the paper apart remembering that I will not give them the reaction they want but most of all I will not give him the reaction he wants. I walk into first period, music, no one and I mean no one can ruin this for me, no matter the amount of hate or teasing I receive no one can ruin music for me. As I put my earphones back in I take a seat in the back corner, where I sit every lesson of every class, I find out I spoke too soon as Mr Ives, my music teacher, introduces a new student in our class,

"Good morning my young students, today we have a new student in our class" Mr Ives spoke, I didn't even bother looking up because I really couldn't care less about who was in my class and I know that sounds mean and all but I just want the teacher to hurry up and start the class. "Kale Lee" sir announced. My head instantly shot up looking straight into those crystal blue orbs that belong to the owner who is the reason I'm in pain every single day, his dark brunette hair is spiked up as usual and he has that stupid smirk on his face while his strong gaze is laid on me. I looked away and with just my luck his seat was the one beside mine, he sat down but not before giving me a nudge with his arm and throwing a note onto my desk, I didn't even bother opening it I just scrunched it up and put it in my pocket, I heard Kale chuckle but I just ignored it and didn't even look in his direction but he wasn't giving up that easily, he threw another paper onto my desk which I just tore and placed into my pocket, he did this continuously until he just gave up and spoke,

"So, did you like your little notes in your lockers?" he whispered and I could hear the smirk in his course voice, I knew it was him all along, It always is, I just ripped a small corner of paper out of my book and wrote on it, 'Go to hell'  before lifting my hand and asking if I could go to the bathroom, I threw the note onto his desk and walked out the door hearing him lightly chuckle. I went to the bathroom and locked myself in one of the stalls and listened to a little snippet of 'unbreakable' by faydee,

'Don’t tell me I’m not good enough
Don’t you bring me down
I’m moving up
And you’re over now
You gave me fire
Every time you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won’t knock me down
'


I let out a deep breath reciting those words over and over in my head telling myself that he can't bring me down... no one can. I quickly looked into the mirror and made sure I looked okay, I quickly teased by brown locks and paced back to class and sat back in my seat, ignoring Kale's constant strong stare at me and acting like I don't even know he is there. I look down at my desk and see another one of his stupid notes,

'So you want to play that game? I see.'

I ignored it and just put it in my pocket like all the other useless notes he has given me. When the bell rang I couldn't be more thankful, I quickly packed my things and hoped to leave before anything else happened but I was too late when I felt someone grab my arm as I turned around I saw Kale,

"Leave me alone." I said trying to remove my arm from his grip but it was no use it was like iron, "Let go." I repeated hoping he would have gotten the message that I was in no mood to do this, but obviously it didn't work,

"Aw, c'mon I thought we could be buddies, I mean we are going to be in hell together, cause that's where you belong after all." he said a grin playing at his lips, I rolled my eyes not knowing what I have done to deserve this,

"Let go of me and just leave me alone okay? Go mess with someone who actually cares about your stupid insults, wait no don't mess with anyone because no one should feel like I do thanks to a loser like you, now just go away." My eyes began to water but I didn't let a teardrop fall, no one has seen me cry except my sister and no one ever will, I am not vulnerable, I am not weak.

"Aw, am I making you cry?" he put his hand on his chest mockingly, I managed to loosen out of his grip and began to walk out before whispering something loud enough for him to hear,

"You're not worth my tears" I commented looking over my shoulders to see his eyes wide, and for a second I thought his eyes showed slight sorrow but that was instantly gone after he chuckled and I turned around walking out the door hoping the rest of my day could somehow not be so rough.

 

SONG

Battlefielld by Jordin Sparks (chapter reference)

A-Team by EdSheeran

 

Tell me what you think this was a pretty long chapter for me comment your opinion if you can it would mean a lot, thank you so much :)

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