Bromance? GIRLMANCE!

(Girl x Girl)
I've know her for my whole life, I've talked to her about everything there is to talk about, why I'm I starting to like her? When Ariana finds her self starting to like her best friend Evangeline, who happens to be a girl just like her, what will she do? She can ignore her feelings, she can stay with her two year old boyfriend! But something starts to change in her, the thing is she doesn't know why. When it seems like Evangeline might like her back, her crush Jace gets in the way of everything. Who will Evangeline choose? Her best friend as a lover, or her four year old crush?

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27. Chapter 27. My Father

Evangeline left, she actually left, I can't believe it. I feel like I lost so many things, and I lost them for no reason. I don't understand why Evangeline was so determined to push me away, when all this time she actually had a crush on me. I don't understand why I had to go to hell with these feelings, when the girl I loved liked me back. Love? I just said love. Did I love her? What am I saying, of course I did. I have been staying in Ian's bed for the past week, I only move to use the bathroom and to go to school or go to work, other than that I live on his bed. I feel so much more heart broken than I felt when Ian and I broke up, it's weird how I fell in love with my best friend, we have been friends for the longest time. I'm still in shock that Evangeline actually liked me, and she said it was longer than when she liked Jace, and she liked him for four years. It's amazing how life can change in less than a year. Last year, Evangeline and I would be counting down the minutes for when school was over, so we could have our summer vacation. But this year, were not even spending it together, she's somewhere else and I'm still here. My heart burned at the thought of her not being here, it hurt so bad. I miss Evangeline so much, I never thought we would be separated like this. I never really thought my feelings for her would change so drastically, and in such short time, I really do love her. Even though she's gone, on the bright side, so were all those interviewrs, things were at peace with that once again.

As I was sitting down on Ian's bed, my back and head were resting on the head board, my knees were pulled up to my chest, and my  head was resting on them. This is what I do when I'm home I just stay here and wait, I'm not sure what I'm waiting for, but I'm waiting. I heard the door to the room open, slowly lifted up my head to see who it was, and I saw that it was Ian. My head slowly fell back down to where it was before, I didn't want to see him or talk to him, I just want Evangeline. I felt as the bed moved to the opposite side of me, since Ian was probably sitting next to me. I felt his arm go around my shoulders, and I was quickly pulled a bit closer to him, but I didn't even flinch. "Ariana, come on, it's been two weeks," he said in a soothing voice, but I stayed quiet, I barely even talk now. I heard Ian breath out, did he really want me to talk to him? Sure, he's tried talking, and giving me food, but I always stay quiet and don't eat the food. Well, actually, I eat some of the food, but I drink more liquids than I eat food.

I let out a breath, maybe it's time for me to talk, staying quiet isn't helping me or anyone else. I looked up to him, and a smile slowly grew on his lips. "I'm sorry," I said in a low whisper, Ian pulled me a bit closer to him, but it wasn't in any way romantic, it was more friendly, I liked that.

"Don't be sorry, I get it," he said, I took my gaze away from him and looked down to my knees again.

"I just miss her," I said in another whisper, I felt Ian's grip on my shoulder tighten. I looked up to see his face, and I met his green eyes, and they looked sad. They didn't look mad, angry, jealous, or annoyed. They were filled with pure sadness, why was he upset?

"You should call her," said Ian looking away from my gaze.

"Her phone is always off, I already tried. Why do you seem upset?" I asked him, Ian quickly looked back to my brown eyes, the sad expression in his eyes was still there.

"I hate seeing you like this, you look so sad and I hate it. I mean I know we broke up, I know I cheated on you, and that was the worst mistake I have ever done. But seeing you upset like this, I don't like it, I still care about you, a lot. And trust me right now all I care about is your happiness, not mine, and if Evangeline means this much to you, I just want you to be happy with her. I'll get over us soon, just give me some time," he said. My mind and heart started to sink in everything that Ian just said, it filled my heart with joy really. I looked away from his eyes and smiled down to my lap, I can't believe he just said that to me, it wasn't a bad thing, but a good one.

"Thank you for saying that," I said to him looking up to his eyes once more, he smiled and nodded,

"Your welcome," he said.

For a second there Ian and I were just smiling at each other, it was nice having to smile again. But the matter at hand, came back into my thoughts, my life was a mess. I looked away from Ian's eyes, and I buried my head back into my knees. I felt his arm leave my shoulder, as his hand pressed on my back, making little circles, that just relaxed me. "What's wrong now?" asked Ian, I looked up from my knees, and saw that his green eyes were filled with worry. I let out a breath, and I laid my head on the crook of his neck, his arm instantly wrapped itself around my shoulders again.

"My life is still a mess, even though I already worked things out with you, that doesn't mean I don't have other problems," I said to him,

"What do you mean?" he asked me, I took in a breath and let it out slowly.

"I don't have Evangeline anymore, Jace and I arn't even talking, and we were friends. And... I don't even have a family," I said the last part as low as I could, maybe he didn't hear.

"Do you mean your Dad?" asked Ian, I guess he did hear, but I slowly nodded.

"I havn't even thought about him until now, I mean I have to live here with you because I don't have anyone else. I even lost Ariel and Mina, I mean sure they weren't really real friends, but they were still my friends," I said to him, he stayed quiet for a while.

"Why don't you go fix things with them?" asked Ian, I shook my head,

"Mina and Ariel won't talk to me at all, and truth is I don't care. I loved them as a friend once, but that didn't really last," I said to him, but he then quickly shook his head.

"I mean Jace, Evangeline, your Dad," he said, I pulled my head away from his neck and looked at him, was he thinking straight?

"I can manage Jace and Evangeline, but not my Dad," I said to him, he shrugged,

"Then do what you have to do, to clear up your mind," said Ian. He sat up from the bed, I watched as he made his way out of the door. Maybe he was right, I do need to clear up my mind, maybe that will help me get out of this emotion. I got out of the bed and headed into the bathroom, if I'm going to work things out with people, I didn't want to look like shit.

Feeling nice and clean I made my way to the only place I could think of, the coffee shop, today Jace was working. I parked my car in the parking lot, and I made my way inside, just like expected Jace was here. He was behind the cash register, as he saw me walk into the place, he looked at me confused. "What are you doing here? You don't work until tomorrow night," said Jace, I shrugged,

"I came here to talk to you," I said to him, he rolled his eyes at me,

"If it's about that stupid prank at the One Direction concert, I'm not saying sorry. Evangeline cheated on me with you, so don't come over here just to beg for an apology," said Jace. Even though he said those words to me filled with anger, his eyes said something else, they filled with guilt and sadness. Jace was never a bad guy, and I know for sure that he isn't one right now, he's just upset.

"Jace, I'm really sorry for what Evangeline and I did to you, we weren't thinking. To be honest I was jealous of you, you had her, and I didn't. Look I didn't come her for an apology, I came here to apologize to you. Even though what you and Ian did to Evangeline and I, I'm over it. Thanks to that stupid prank Evangeline and I got to meet the boys, we got to hang out with them, and most importantly we actually ended up admitting our feelings for each other," I said to him, Jace's eyes met mine for the first time, he was hurting really bad as well.

"Are you guys together?" asked Jace, that question stung at my heart, but I shook my head,

"No, she left the night she told me she actually liked me," I said to him, his gaze left mine, and it was now on the floor.

"It's my fault she left," he said in a whisper, but I heard it, and it caught my attention.

"What?" I asked, my heart started to beat faster, and my hands were getting a bit sweaty.

"Look I didn't mean to, I promise you I didn't mean to! But a few days before you girls went to meet the boys, Evangeline came over to my house to try and talk things out, and I wouldn't listen, I was really mad at her. I told her to get out of my face, to get out of my sight, I told her that no one in this world cared about her, she can disappear and no one will notice, not even you. I guess she took that seriously and moved, but it was just her because her family still lives in that same house. I didn't realize she took it seriously until she texted me the night before she left, she said that she was leaving and that she hopes I was happy about it, but I mean of course I wasn't, I was just mad and jealous," said Jace, my mouth dropped open. Something inside of me told me not to be mad at him, I knew it wasn't his fault.

"Jace, that's not your fault, Evangeline chose to leave, and there's nothing we could of done to stop it, don't beat yourself for it," I said to him, he looked up to me again, and I actually saw a small smile on his lips.

"I guess, but I'm really sorry about everything. We were friends once, and who says we can't be friends again? I'm really sorry about everything, I really am," said Jace, I smiled at him back,

"I forgive you," I said. Jace's smile grew a bit, his eyes no longer looked guilty, but they were still a bit upset.

I left the coffee shop, but I didn't leave the parking lot. I was just sitting down in the car, thinking, I wasn't sure if I should or if I shouldn't. It was a hard choice for me, after all that hurt I been through, after all those tears I shed, maybe I shouldn't. But then again, I did want peace in my life, I did want things to be okay again, they don't have to be perfect, I'm okay with them just being okay. I guess I just answered my question, and I'm pretty sure that I should do thins.

I parked the car in front of the house, I never thought I would see this house again, ever again. I took a deep breath, my body was shaking, I was terrified. I stepped out of the car and walked up to the front door, I can't believe I was doing this, maybe this wasn't such a great idea. I shook my head, no this was the right thing to do, I have to do this now, since I'm already here. I knocked on the door, and waited for it to be open, fear quickly rose inside my body, I was terrified. The door quickly opened, and my heart dropped. He looked so much cleaner, he didn't look like a mess, he looked younger, and better, he looked like my Dad. Just like that, I felt arms wrap themselves around me, and I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck. He didn't smell like beer, he smelt like shampoo and after shave, it was a much better smell. Tears slowly started to fall down my cheeks, and suddenly the fear of seeing my Dad again, left my body. My Dad slowly let go of me, "Come in, please, come in," he said stepping to the side to let me in, I walked in and my heart fell down to my stomach. The house was clean, it didn't look like that death hole I lived in, but this actually looked like a home. I took a seat on the sofa, and my Dad took a seat on the smaller one, his smile was wide.

Looking at my Dad again, was so weird, he looked so different. I mean last time I saw him he was hitting me with whatever he could find, he was drinking like every minute of the day, but now he looks just like a Dad would.  "Ariana, I'm so happy to see you. I know you probably hate me, and heck I hate myself for all those things I did to you, I hate myself I really do. But when you left, my world fell, and there was no one there to catch it. So I got some help, I stopped drinking, I cleaned up my whole life, and I got a really good job. Everything is fine, except that there's one thing missing in my new life, you," he said, I looked in my Dad's eyes. They weren't full of coldness, heartless, junk. They were filled with guilt, and sadness, but at the same time there was a bit of happiness in them, he was a changed man.

"Dad, what are you saying?" I asked him, I called him Dad? That seemed so weird, but he was my Dad, he was my new much better Dad.

"Move back in, please honey. Your room is just how you left it, and I promise you, no more hitting," he said, his voice filled with pain. I searched in his eyes, to find something in there that would get me to refuse his offer, but there was nothing. Now, they were filled with guilt, no other emotion showed, well except for a bit of hope. I smiled at him, I don't know what it was, but I felt like I could trust this man again.

"Okay, but you should know that I'm different, Dad. Let me tell you that I'm no longer dating Ian, I don't know if I ever told you or mentioned him, but I'm no longer with him. I'm graduating high school next week, and I'm going off to college, I'm not sure where but I do know it will be far from here. But the thing that makes me different is that... I'm in love with someone," I told him, I wasn't sure why I was about to tell him that I love Evangeline, maybe it's just the fact that I don't want any secrets between us if I move in. I want him to know everything, if he's changed like he says he has, then he will accept me as his daughter no matter what the reason is.

"With who?" he asked me camly, I took a deep breath,

"Evangeline, Dad, I don't know if I'm a lesbian or if I'm just bisexual. But I fell in love with a girl who was my best friend, and she likes me too. The only thing is that she moved and I don't' get to see her, or stay in touch," I said to him, I closed my eyes not wanting to see his expression, after all he is the first one I tell that I'm in love with Evangeline.

My Dad let out a long breath, he was probably a bit overwhelmed to find all this out in just one day. But if he wants me back in his life, he was to accept me for me, and no one else. "I understand, everything. I promise you Ariana, as your father, I'll support you with school, college, and even with this little thing with Evangeline," he said, I opened my eyes and smiled at him,

"Are you sure your okay with it?" I asked him, but he quickly nodded,

"Of course I am, I'll love you no matter what," he said, that made me smile even wider. I stood up from the couch and walked over to him, I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same with me.

"I love you Dad," I said to him, that felt so good to say, and truth was that I actually really meant it.

"I love you too Ariana," he said, I just smiled wider.

I made my way back to Ian's house, to tell him that I was moving back in with my Dad, and to get all my things. When I told my Dad I was staying with Ian, he actually took it pretty well, he said he understood that I had no where to go, but that now I will really have a home. I walked up to Ian's room, to pack up my things, and I wasn't surprised when I saw him sitting down on the bed. "Hey!" I said as I walked in, his gazed left his phone that he was holding, and looked back over to me.

"Hey! How did everything go?" he asked me as he sat up on the bed, I smiled at him.

"I talked to Jace, and were friends again. I also went to talk to my Dad," I told him, that little smile that he had on his face quickly left.

"What happend?" he asked me, his eyes were wide and filled with worry.

"He changed, he has a job, the house is in such perfect condition, and he stopped drinking. He also asked me to move back with him," I said to him, he quickly smiled.

"That's great! You know what I'm going to get a suit case so you can put all your things in it," said Ian, I smiled and nodded.

As Ian left the room I took a seat on the bed, I can't believe my life finally seemed like it was getting back together. It didn't seem like a mess, it seemed like it was finally going to be, great. But there was something missing, well actually it's a someone, Evangeline. I took out my phone and searched my contacts, when it fell on hers, I quickly pressed the call button. Instead of ringing, it went straight to voice mail, I shook my head. I can't believe she's gone, and the worst thing about this whole thing was that I can't even call her, she won't pick up, and it's killing me inside.

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