Love Will Remember

Kelseys just a regular high schooler, has bestfriends, and is a pretty average girl. She has problems with her parents so she doesn't really have supporters in her life. One day when she goes to the fountain where she usually goes because she can't deal with her parents at home she meets a boy named Justin. They become best friends but little did she know she would end up falling so deep in love with this boy. She falls, and she falls hard. But the harder you fall, the more you get hurt. But no matter what happens . . . love will remember

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17. I still don't know just how we screwed it up ..

*Kelsey’s P.O.V*

It’s been days. 4 days since I ended it with Justin. It’s not a long time but going from seeing him every day from not seeing him for the past 4 days is different. It hurts, the fact that I’m missing him while he’s the one who hurt me. From looking into his eyes everyday to not being able to now, is different.

I’ve been so unproductive these past days. They’ve been long, long days. It’s felt like weeks. I’ve stayed in my pajamas, in my bed not ever leaving that bed once. Just crying my eyes and heart out. I eventually had  to turn off my phone from getting several missed calls from Justin. He’d call over and over again but after several tries he’d end up giving up seeing it was no use and knowing I wasn’t going to answer. I slowly get out of bed for the first time in days. I walk to the bathroom and look in the mirror.  I’m wearing yoga pants and a white v neck with my hair in a bun. My eyes are red and swollen. I look like shit. I take a long hot shower. Around 30 minutes long.

I put on decent clothes and do my makeup and decide to look decent. This was probably the first time I felt I looked good after our breakup and just in general. I wasn’t gonna let Justin do this to me. I wasn’t gonna let myself cry over him while he’s probably okay.

I decide to leave the house and get fresh air. I go over to Tim Horton’s, a coffee place. Me and Justin would go here a lot. But now it’s just me here.

I walk in the café and decide what I’m going to get looking at the menu on the wall.

 

*Justin’s P.O.V*

I can’t even describe how I’ve been feeling these past few days without Kelsey. I’ve missed seeing her face, hearing her voice, feeling her touch. I’ve never gone this long without seeing her and it hurt. The desire of needing to see her. But I knew she didn’t want to see me, which is what hurt. I go to Tim Horton’s, where me and Kelsey would always go. I havent really done anything these past days just thinking about her.. So I decided to get out. I’m by myself sitting at a small table. I’ve already finished my food and drink. I’m just doing random non sense on my phone, not knowing what else to do.

They’re not many people here, just a few. I look up for a second and I hear the front door of the café open.

I  could say my heart stopped beating then and there. I saw Kelsey, finally after all these days of being distant. I saw her, but she didn’t see me. She was looking up at the menu and ordering.  She looked so beautiful. She did her hair, makeup, and wore her outfits like usual. She looked great, okay on the outside. But I knew she was not okay on the inside. I saw a broken girl. And that broken girl was broken because of me.

I approach her and decide to talk to her.

*Kelsey’s P.O.V*

“Hey Kelsey!” I hear after I get done ordering and I turn my head. It’s Justin standing only a couple feet away from me. He looked good as usual. Like nothing was wrong.

I put on a small smile and say “Hi Justin.”

“Listen, I know so much has happened between us, but you can’t completely block me out of your life, it’s not like we’re strangers….don’t you remember we have a history?”

I hesitate “Right, right. Listen I just wasn’t ready to talk to you..But you know I gave it some thought and everything’s ok. For you.. and me I guess.”

Justin looks a bit disappointed. Like he wanted me to say something different. Like he wanted me to take him back. There’s a awkward pause and Justin beings to say something.

“…so, you’re happy without me?”

“Justin, I want you to be happy. And if that’s not with me that’s ok. Seeing you happy makes me happy and you’re happiness doesn’t seem to be with me anymore, and that’s ok. I mean that’s what love is. .. right?”

 

*Justin’s P.O.V*

That was the thing though. There is no one on earth that I’m happier with. She is the reason for my happiness. She thinks Alyssa is the one I want to be with. If only she could just understand I don’t even have any feelings for her anymore.

“That’s it though Kels, there is no one that makes me happier than being with you.”

“Listen, I got to go Justin. I’ll see you la-…bye.” She slowly looks down and sad and leaves through the front door of the coffee shop. As she walks outside I grab her arm.

“Kelsey, wait.” And she turns around.

“What is it Justin?”

“I made a mistake.”

“I know.”

“Can’t you forgive me?”

“How can I?”

“By understanding and realizing that I’m human and I make mistakes. I do stupid things sometimes and I hurt people. I hurt those I love the most.”

“I can tell.”

“Why are you being like this Kelsey?”

 

“I’m only trying to forget Justin. This isn’t good for me. I’m so tired of always being played with like I have no feelings. Not just with you and what happened but my history with my family. There’s a point where it gets too much and things get tough.”

“But I want you Kelsey. I need you.”

“We all want things we can’t have right? Like how I want to not be treated like a toy for once?”

“So what now you’re gonna make it seem like I was a complete jerk to you this entire relationship? Like I didn’t give two fucks about you when you knew I gave up my whole world for you? I gave you everything I had.”

“You gave me trust which I appreciated. But I lost that trust Justin.”

“So that’s it with you? You never want to see me again?”

 

*Kelsey’s P.O.V*

Justin has a hurt look on his face. I can tell how much this is affecting him, which makes me feel worse. But he’s the one who messed all this up for us.

“Justin, you know how much I love you. I’ll always love you. I love you for you. Whoever walks in to your life, don’t let them ever change you. I will never stop caring for you. I want to see you again, the thing is I won’t. I can’t. Things happen and certain mistakes can’t be undone.”

“What about everything we were planning for our future? The places we were going to go,.. the college we were going to go to?”

“It’s all history, like you said.”

I quickly walk away not being able to handle any of this anymore. When I saw him and was talking to him I kept my guard up. It was so hard not breaking down right then and there. I swear it was too long before I was just about to burst with tears. The feelings are still there. The thing was I don’t know how to get rid of them. The aching of not being able to see him. The feeling of missing him was something I couldn’t stop. It came so naturally.

 

I  rushed back home trying to forget everything that’s just happened even though I knew it will  still be clear in my mind.

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A/N

this chap wasn't that good i know but the next one is pretty good in my opinion;)

no comments,no chapter literally i appreciate them all!
thanks for sticking through with me through this story:) hope u enjoyed

oh and also i have like 3 weeks off of school so i can update more frequently

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