My gaurdian angel

I run into a empty class room and pull out my scissors, bringing them to my wrists
I watch as the crimson red blood pours out of my arm, cut after cut until there are 5 cuts, I grab the bandages out of my bag and cover my cuts then pull down my sleeves.......


15. Summer House

Hannah's Pov


We drive to the Summer house and go inside

"So.. Pizza?" Louis says pulling his phone out

We all nod and Niall sits down on the couch next to Maddie

"I am sorry dinner had to turn out like this" Niall says looking at Maddie

"It's fine... As long as every one is okay"

"No, it's not okay... It was my fault.... If I had just looked over 5 minutes earlier I could've prevented all of that from happening" I say looking down

"How many times do I have to tell you that it's not your fault?" Louis says walking up behind me and wraps his arm around my waist, resting his chin on my shoulder "Things happen, all that matters is that you are okay... The house can be remade good as new, but you... we can't remodel you.... if we were to loose you then that would be then end of it... we wouldn't be able to rebuild you like the house...."

"I know but-"

"No... it is not your fault, if I hear you say it one more time then we are going to have some serious issues"


Maddie's Pov


I look at Louis and Hannah and smile, they are so cute together

I look at Niall to see him staring at me "What?" I blush

"Nothing... You are just so beautiful" he whispers

I look down and blush even more

"And you look cute when you blush" he tilts my head up so I am looking at him

I notice a cut sticking out of his long sleeve but I ignore it

"So, you want to go up to my room? Hang out until the pizza gets here?"

"S-sure.." I say as we stand up.

I follow him up to a bedroom and sit on the bed with him

He looks down

"Are you okay?" I say looking concerned

"Yeah.. I just... I don't understand why you're helping me"

"Because I want to... how those people treat you is horrible and I want to be there for you"

"Thank you" He looks up at me smiling

I smile and I look down at his arm again, "What happened there?" I point to the long scratch sticking out of his sleeve

"N-Nothing..." He quickly pulls his sleeve down

"Niall..." I say in a warning tone

"It's nothing.... Really"

"Then why can't I know?"

He looks down

I grab his arm and pull his sleeve up, he tries to pull away but I won't let him and I pull it up to see the word worthless carved into his arm "Niall..." I say on the verge of tears

He pulls his arm away and pulls his sleeve down "Pizza's here!!!" Louis calls up the stairs

He stands up pulling me with him "You didn't see that, okay?" he looks at me

"But Nia-"

"You didn't see it!" he said raising his voice a bit

"I didn't see anything..." I nod my head and we walk downstairs into the living room and sit in a circle with Louis and Hannah, eating the pizza

"So... Niall, how is school other than Jake?" Hannah asks

"Crappy..." he mumbles

"It doesn't get much better buddy" Louis teases Niall, patting him on the back

"Niall..." I mumble close to his ear

"What?" He whispers looking at me


"Why what?"

"Why did you do it?"

"Why did he do what?" Hannah says after her small conversation with Louis is over

"Nothing.." Niall looks down, taking a bite of his Pizza

"Niall..." I look at him

"I don't know why I did it Maddie, but is sure as hell didn't to it so I could get interrogated!!" he stands up and walks out the back door

"What was that?" Louis asks looking confused

"He- He uh...." I look down "I don't know..." I lie and walk out after him

I look out and see him sitting on the porch swing with his head in his hands

I sit down next to him "Go away" He says not looking up

"Niall... Did you do it because of Jake?"


"Then why did you do it?"

"Watching my sister having that break down.... I just sat there and watched her.... she kept screaming for Louis to stop and let her do it but he held her back.... I just sat there and watched her.... It would've been my fault she did it if Louis wasn't there.... I feel like I don't deserve her... I almost killed my sister... I almost killed the only thing that matters in my life" he says as he looks out at the garden "I feel worthless if I can't even stop my sister from killing herself"

"Niall.... It's not your fault, everything got to her, she snapped. You were hurt, you didn't know what to do. I wouldn't have been able to move if Jake tried to do that... no matter how much of a jerk he is he is still my twin brother and I wouldn't have been able to breath... It isn't your fault"

"Great, now I feel stupid for doing it" he says laughing sadly

"Just don't do it again?"

"Do what again?" Hannah walks out "Niall, what's going on?"

"Nothing.." He looks down

"I heard your story on why you did just tell me what exactly you did.." She kneels in front of him


Hannah's Pov


Please tell me he didn't do what I think he did... "I'll leave you so you can talk" Maddie gets up and walks inside

"Niall?" I look at him

He just cries

I hug him to my chest and hold him tight "Let me see" I say pulling away
He shakes his head no

"Niall... Let me see what you did.... Now" I demand

He holds out his arm and I slowly lift up the sleeve. I gasp when I see 'WORTHLESS' carved into his arm

"N-Niall..." now I am crying "I-I...."

He just holds me "This is my fault.... If I hadn't snapped like that then you wouldn't feel worthless.... everything is going wrong because of me" I cry

"No!!" he says loudly making me jump, he pulls away and looks into my eyes "None of the things happening are your fault!! I did this because  I am weak..... Nothing that has gone wrong is your fault... None of it! Do you understand me?"

"Niall I-"

"Do you understand me?" he says louder

I nod slowly "But Niall... So much has happened and I just don't know how much more I can take" I have to leave... that's it... I saw a car in the drive way next to Louis'.... I'll take it and go... I'll leave all of them and they will all be happy

"I know, but as long as we're together it doesn't matter" he stands up and pulls his sleeve down and I stand up with him

"Now, I am going to bed and I suggest you do the same thing" he says kissing my head and walking inside

I walk inside and see Louis and Maddie passed out on the couch

I go and kiss Louis' cheek

He stirs and opens his eyes "Sh... go back to sleep..." I say gently " I didn't mean to wake you up"

He just nods and rolls over, closing his eyes

I kiss his lips softly "I love you" I walk to the front door and grab the keys to the extra car. I open then door and close it softly. I start the car and drive off. I am just going to end my life, make every one happy.

I know exactly where I am going too.

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