Love is like fire.It's beautiful and dangerous all at the same time.The perfect balance.That's what makes it the best thing a person could possibly feel.It's a risk,but it's worth it.
5SOS fanfic

Slight use of explicit language (sorry)


47. Chapter 47

Hé, si vous dites que vous êtes une bonne personne alors demi-tour et faire des choses qui ne sont pas bons, alors juste chut mon petit mouton noir, vous allez mourir bientôt.

-Wise words from one of my best guy friends, Benson

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Luke's POV

After lunch Tessa and I decided to roam around.She didn't really want to shop and to be honest, neither did I.Everyone was paired off.You had your couples (Calum and Julie/Ashton and Joci) and then you had Mikey and Harry (They both wanted to go to Gamestop).

It was pretty quiet for a mall parking lot, but I wasn't complaining.It gave me more time to think.That is until Tessa spoke up.

"It's gonna be harder this time you know."Her voice was strained, as if it wasn't really something she wanted to bring up.


"You leaving."I stopped walking and grabbed her wrist so she would stop too.

"Look at me."She slowly lifted her eyes to mine.Pain flashed through them making their normal bright blue fade to gray."You are strong.Stronger than anyone I know.You've supported me from the beginning even if it meant we had to be apart.I can't thank you enough for that, but right now I need you to continue to be strong.Not just for me, but for all the people you care about.I know this is alot to ask, but I wouldn't be asking if I didn't think you could handle it."

Suddenly, out of nowhere, anger crossed her features."What if you're wrong?What if I'm not strong enough?You're putting so much pressure on me Luke.I can't please all these people."

"I'm not asking you to please anyone."

"But you are.You want me to be strong for them when I can't even be strong for myself! Since you've been gone I've started to fall apart! I can't do this anymore Luke! Two weeks! That's all I have and you know I need longer than that to recover! You're basically kicking me while I'm down! I thought seeing you would make this better, but it's not Luke! Seeing you brought back all those feelings that I managed to hide away. I have to hide my feelings from myself in order to stop hurting. Do you know how hard this is?!

"Of course I do!"I yelled back,"I have to pretend everything's okay in front of thousands of people every night! I have to try not to break down in the middle of a song just because it reminds me of us! I am hurting too! And I know exactly what you mean about bringing all those feelings back because everytime I've looked at you in the past two days, all I saw was the pain I felt while I was gone!"

"Then don't leave."She whispered.

"Stop.Stop right now before this turns into the one thing it shouldn't.You know exactly why I can't stay and you saw what happened to Dani and Michael when she tried to change it.I will not let that happen to us."

She was quiet.But when she did speak up I wished she had just stayed silent.

"Maybe it already has happened Luke.We need to take a break.I need time to clear my head."

She then walked away.As if she hadn't just shattered my heart and left me with the broken pieces.


Tessa's POV

I had to get away.I couldn't let him see the tears that were running down my face.I quickly ducked into the nearest store heading straight for the bathroom.

"Are you okay miss?"I heard someone ask on the way, but I ignored them.I had one thing set on my mind.Escape.Escape from Luke.Escape from everything that was going through my head.Escape from myself.

I wasn't really sure if a break was what I wanted, but there was no turning back.No matter how much I wanted to run back to him and stay in his arms for as long as I could, I wouldn't.

The more I thought about it, the better I felt about my decision.I mean, this was the best thing to do.Now it wouldn't hurt as much when he left me.I can't decide what the worst part about this is 1) That I have to see him everyday for the next two weeks  2) I have no idea how to tell everybody else  or 3) I might have a problem when it comes to convincing Ashton that this isn't Luke's fault and he does not need his head bashed in.

I exited the bathroom and put on a weak smile with empty hopes that people might actually believe it was real.


Luke's POV

I looked at my reflection in a shop window and confirmed my fears.I was a mess.My face was red and blotchy and my eyes were so red it looked like I could have been high..

I went into the shop and headed straight to the bathroom where I splashed water on my face almost soaking  myself entirely.I checked my phone to see that it was 2:15 meaning that I would have to be at the theatre in 15 minutes.Knowing it would take me about that long to find it I exited the store cursing under my breath about my appearance.I wasn't exactly sure if Tessa wanted to tell everyone or not so I figured I would just go with the flow.I would either help her create lies to spare everyone's feelings (including our own) or I would help her tell the story of how we got here to this dreadful state.

 I began to worry about whether or not this was temporary.I know she just said this was a break, but so much could happen.Especially with me leaving again.She could decide that she likes being single better or, God forbid, find someone else.Someone better, who never has to leave her.

My thoughts were interrupted as I heard Ashton and Joci calling out to me."Luke!Over here!"

Well here goes nothing.I thought to myself before my subconsious decided to join the conversation.More like here goes everything.

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