The Doubt of Moving On

Liam Payne was once in love. He was head over heels for her. He'd take the moon for her. But she did something that not only hurt him but his friends as well. He doesn't know what to do. All he can do is hang on to the past. Hang on to her. But he knows he needs to move on.
Ruby Adams was once happy. She was head over heels for a guy. She loved her brother more than anything. But the guy she loved did something to her which made her do something to her brother. She's a mess. All she can do is mope around. Not care about anything else. But she knows she needs to move on.
When their fates cross paths, will they finally do what they need to do all along?
*Don't need to read Chasing the Sun for this spinoff*

33Likes
41Comments
3198Views
AA

7. Chapter 6

Chapter 6

 

I got up at 7 in the morning even though I hardly slept at all. I just kept tossing and turning. My thoughts consuming me more than ever. I’ve never been able to shut anything off for months. So, I worked out for hours until my body was so tired that I had to sleep. And I did... for three hours. Now, i’m up and sleep deprived. 

I think I’ve forgotten what sleep is like. I don’t even remember the last time I slept normally. I always end up in the gym, forcing my body to sleep. I swear I’ve put on 20 pounds of muscle in the last week. 

I went for a jog before going to Elise. Jogging always clears my head. It’s nothing but my music and my feet. I jogged through the many streets of London, not even caring about where I was going. I just turned whenever I felt like it.

It wasn’t until 9 that I realised that I’ve been jogging for two hours and not once stopped for a drink. It was lucky that I was only a few blocks away from the hospital. I walked to the hospital, trying to slow my heart rate and breathing down. I wiped away some sweat with my hand and stripped off my gray hoodie. I walked through the cool hospital doors and immediately grabbed a cup of water from the waiting room.

I then went to Elise. She had her eyes open. I sighed and sat down.

“Have you noticed how my visits are shorter now? Because I have. I don’t really know what that means but I guess it means something good, right? That I’m slowly moving on? Right? I don’t know anymore. If I was moving on, wouldn’t I miss some days? 

I don’t know, it’s all very confusing. Everything is always confusing nowadays. It’s weird talking to you about this. I mean, I should be talking to Zayn or Ali about this. But no, I choose to talk to you. The person who hurt me. Maybe because I've always felt comfortable talking to you about everything. I think we could have had an honest relationship if it were real." Her eyes blinked at my words and I jumped a little. It startled me to see some part of her body moving. But that's all she did, just blinked. 

"Well, get better Elise." I said to her awkwardly after a few mintues' silence before getting up and leaving her room.

I walked back to the apartment building, intending on taking a nap or something but instead I found myself knocking on Zayn's door. He didn't open for a while and I was about to leave when the door suddenly opened and Zayn stood in a black long-sleeve shirt and black jeans. 

"Liam?" He said, surprised at my sudden visit. 

"Hey." I answered in a sigh. 

"What's wrong?" He asked a little worried. 

"Oh, nothing. I just... Sort of ended up here." I told him with a shrug of my shoulders. 

"Oh. Do you want to talk or something?" I could see him getting a little uncomfortable. He's not used to talking to people or comforting them. He's more of a comfort in silence type of guy. 

"I guess so." I answered with another shrug. 

"Alright, come in." He opened to the door wider and I walked into his semi-messy, semi-clean apartment. 

"Were you going to go out?" I asked, feeling a little guilty for taking away any of his plans. 

He shook his head and replied, "nah, I was just going to clean my apartment or something." 

"Oh." I answered as I sat down on his couch and him on the single seat. We lapsed into a silence for a bit, neither of us not knowing how to start the conversation. 

"So..." Zayn said after a while and I had to laugh a little because his face showed how uncomfortable he was. My laugh was enough to break the ice. 

"I see you're happier." Zayn noted and I nodded casually. 

"Yeah, I guess so." I answered. 

"Do you still visit Eli- her?" Zayn said, correcting himself. 

"You can say her name, Zayn. It's not a taboo. But yeah, i do visit her still. Ever single day." I tell him and he just nodded. 

"Is it hard?" He asked with a curious expression on his face. 

"Not lately." I replied truthfully. 

"What do you mean, not lately?" He asked a little confused. 

"Well, at first I was all doom and gloom, you know. I was depressed and angry and upset and all that. I rarely smiled and even if I did it was fake or like a grimace. Then I don't know, I started to smile for real again. Ever since I bumped into someone." I told him, my mind hazing over when I thought of Ruby. 

"Who?" His eyes lit up with excitement. 

"Oh, this girl." I said nonchalantly. 

"Who!?" He jumped in his seat and I laughed. 

"You're a girl at heart, Zayn." I told him amusedly. 

"Don't change the subject, Liam! Who is she?" He inquired. 

I rolled my eyes at his unnecessary excitement. "Her name is Ruby. We bumped into each other at the hospital a few weeks ago. Then again and then again." I shrugged my shoulders. 

"It's destiny!" Zayn said. 

"Really, Zayn. Tone down the femininity." I laughed. 

"I'm just so happy for you, mate. You're finally getting over Elise. Like, I know you loved her and all." He said. 

"Yeah, I guess so." I said. 

"So, what's she like?" Zayn asked. 

"Well, she's got bright red hair which totally suits her, by the way. She has bright brown eyes, like chocolate. She's at the hospital once a week. She knows us for our music and not for our band. Um, she gets really passionate when she talks about something. Like, she babbles on and on and on about it. It's actually quite cute. And her laugh is so... great. She won't tell me why she's at the hospital but that's fine because I won't tell her either. And-" I was about to continue but Zayn cut me off. 

"And you like her." He finished for me. I looked at him, a little outraged. 

"No, i don't." I said to him with a shake of my head. 

"Yeah, you do." He nodded.

"No... I don't." I said slowly as if forcing him to believe me. 

"Yes, Liam, you do. You didn't see the way you looked like when you talk about her." Zayn affirmed. 

"I don't. I can't." I stammered. 

"Liam, you can't possibly be saying that because of Elise. It's been almost 4 months! You have to move on." He declared. 

"Yeah, i get it. But I just feel guilty because, it's her. I don't know... I shouldn't be feeling guilty for liking someone because she hurt me pretty badly. But i feel like she's judging me or something. Because we didn't exactly break up and I just..." I paused for a bit. "That's a really lousy excuse, isn't it? But i don't it just feels wrong for some absurd reason."

"Yeah, i understand. Just remember that it's basically over between you and there's nothing really tying you to her anymore." Zayn pointed out. 

I nodded my head. We fell into another silence for a few moments. "Thank god I didn't tell Ali any of this." I said. 

Zayn laughed. "She would've already planned your wedding with a massive speech about how she was sorry for the whole Elise fiasco."

"Yeah, she's a riot sometimes. I have no idea how Harry puts up with her." I joked. 

"She has a good heart, though." He said honestly and I agreed. 

I stood up and Zayn followed my actions. "Thanks for the talk, mate." 

Zayn nodded. "It's good to see you getting better." 

I didn't exactly know how to answer that so I just nodded and left his apartment for mine. It felt good to tell him that. It was like a breath of fresh air, my thoughts aren't cramped up in my head anymore. 

Which felt so good. 

 

-----------------------------------------------

A/N

 

I shouldn't even be writing chapters. I have an assignment to work on!!! But anyway, hope this was okay.

And if you're reading Dangerously In Love, i might not update it until next week. Sorry. 

 

Vote, comment, share, fan etcetc. 

Mwahbebsssssssss

 

-Winona

Join MovellasFind out what all the buzz is about. Join now to start sharing your creativity and passion
Loading ...