Don't Leave, We Need You

Do you know what it's like to wake up and realize you've lost the most important person in your life? Hopefully not. I have though, more times then I wish to count. First my parents when I was six, then my brother when I was 12, my childhood best friend at 14, and now him. The boy I love. He left me all alone to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart. I guess you could say that he didn't leave me completely alone, but that just makes it whose. Because he left me to raise our child, alone.

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4. Memories of Him Flood my MInd

Charlotte's Prospective:

 

I run back to my flat. I open the door to my flat and as soon as it's shut I fall to the ground. The tears that I had been holding back spilling over and running down my cheek as memories of him flood my mind.

 

-- Flashback --

 

I was sitting in the park under a weeping willow. Crying over Blake's death. No one understood how I felt. I was still in my black cloths from his funeral.

"Hello," I hear a boy's voice say, though I don't look up. "Are you alright?" someone asks.

I look up at him and see a boy about my age standing before me. I shake my head, to upset to speak.

He sits beside me and says, "Can I sit here? You look like you could use some comfort."

I nod my head and he gives me a small smile.

"I'm Liam. What's your name?" he asks.

"Charlotte." I sniff.

 

-- End of Flashback --

 

He was so sweet the first day we met. He listen to me talk about Blake and he comforted me. He had held me and let me cry on his shoulder.

I pull myself off the floor and walk to the bathroom pulling off my shorts and slipping off my stockings. Tears still streaming down my face. I walk into my bathroom and open the cabinet, grabbing out my razor. I sit back down on the floor and let the razor cut the skin of my upper thigh as more memories attack me.

 

-- Flashback --

 

We were in his room, playing a video game I don't remember. I was winning when Liam shut it off and threw the controller across his room. We were still only 14.

"Screw this game!" he sighs and falls back onto his bed.

I look down at him. just laying there. His eyes closed. "Don't be such a sour looser Li." I say laughing at my friend. Friend, oh how I wanted to be more. Liam wasn't exactly popular with girls, but I knew for a fact he liked someone, I didn't know who but he did.

"It would be alright if it was the first time, but really every game Lottie? Can't you let me win once?" He says exasperated, his eyes opening to look into mine.

"You want me to you win?" I asked shocked.

"Yes! At lest to save what's life of my masculinity." He says, though he smiles while saying it.

"You know what... Maybe I should... No, no I don't think I'm going to. You'll have to fine a different why to show off your 'masculinity'." I say smirking at him.

"Maybe I will." he says pulling me down and flipping over so he was hovering over me.

"Liam, what are you-" I say, but I'm cut off as his soft lips mete mine. I'm so shocked it takes me a couple second, but then I kiss him back.

He pulls away and smiles down at me, still over me. "I really like you Lottie, always have always will." he says blushing slightly.

My eyes widen in shock and my cheeks grow red, but I don't know what to say. So I don't say anything.

"Say something Charlotte. Please." He whispers his eyes filling with fear and worry.

"Liam," I say, but as I'm about to tell him how I feel he gets off of me and starts to pass the room.

"God, what have I done? I just ruined everything. You hate me don't you? Christ, how could I be so stupid?" he mutters more to himself them me. His eyes on the floor, not daring to look at me for fear of what he might see.

I stand up and take him by the hand. His eyes mete mine and I give him a soft hiss on the lips. I pull back just enough so the our foreheads are touching. "You had me at hello, Liam."

 

-- End of Flashback --

 

Blood drips from my cuts, down my leg and onto the white tile flood. I lean my head back against the wall and let the razor fall from my grip to the floor. We were so young, so stupid and ignorant. We promised each other forever and then he left me.

More memories resurface from the dark pit I tried to hide them in.

 

-- Flashback --

 

God, how was I going to tell him! Was he going to hat me? Was he going to leave me? Was he going to try to make me get ride of it? I was barely 15 for fucks sake.

"Lottie? Lottie you in here?" he says, walking into my bedroom and smiling at me. "Your Aunt said you were up here. What happened, you weren't in school today?" he asks concern.

"I just... I wasn't feeling well." I lie.

"Really? What's wrong?" he asks coming over to me and sitting next to me on my bed. He touches my forehead with the back of his hand, but I flinch away. He noticed. "Charlotte, what's wrong?" He asks, piratically begging.

"Nothing." I lie again.

"Don't lie to me baby, what's going on? Why don't you want me to touch you?" he asks worry clouding his eyes.

"You're going to hate me." I whisper. "You're going to leave me."

"Baby, I could never hate you and I will never leave you. What's going on?" he asks kneeling in front of my and taking my hands into his bigger ones. His warm brown eyes looking up into mine. "Tell me baby." he whispers.

"Liam... I-I'm... I'm pregnant." I whisper closing my eyes so I don't have to see the look of hate and disgust that I believe is on his face.

"Lord," he whispers. His hands let go of mine. I expect to hear him stand up and leave the room, but I don't.

Suddenly I feel a hand placed on my stomach. I gasp and my eyes open meting his smiling brown ones.

"I'm so happy. You have no idea." he says smiling at me. My look of shock makes him smile wider as he explains, "Yes we're young, yes the odds are against us, but I love you. And I will love this baby just as much. Together, we can do thing. If you want to?"

Tears of joy prick my eyes. I smile at him and nod. He smiles and kisses me.

 

-- End of Flashback --

 

I can feel myself loosing consciousness due to my loss of blood. When we told my Aunt she had kicked me out. Liam had gotten us a little house with the money he had and we were happy. The my eyes flutter close and I lay my head down on the floor. The blood is starting to slow at this point. And with one last horrible memory still in my mind, I black out.

 

-- Flashback --

 

"So what's his name?" Asks the nurse smiling at us as she hand me our little baby boy.

I look up at Liam smiling. "William Ky Payne." I say turning my head back to look at her.

"What a lovely name." She says. "Would you like me to take a family photo for you?" she asks.

"Yes please, Liam did you bring my camera?" I ask him.

"Yeah love." He says turning around and pulling it out. I had always had a passion for photography, so I had a really good camera that my brother had gotten me shortly before he died.

The nurse took the camera and says, "Say cheese."

"Cheese!" we say smiling at the camera as the flash goes off.

After that the nurse leaves and I look back up at Liam. "You wanna hold him babe?" I ask.

"Yeah," he says taking our little baby in his arms. "Hey William." he whispers. Tears of joy run down his face. He looks back up at me and says, "I love you, so so much."

 

-- End of Flashback --

 

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So, I logged on this morning and saw that this story has 20 favorite! I also saw all the wonderful comments you guys are leaving! Thank you guys so much for making me feel like you enjoy my writing!

Please like, favorite, and comment.

~ Rebecca

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