This Love

I knew Harry I loved Harry but when he left I moved on. Events went on in my life and when he came back I was thrown in between my brother and boyfriends band and Harry's band.


12. Savior

I woke up with the door opening. I felt someone climb ontop of me again. I started to fight and cry. They untied the gag first. I started to scream for dear life. Soon the rest of the ties were taken off. I started to hit the person without looking. They grabbed my wrists and brought me close. I opened my eyes to see Harry. I broke down. I was sobbing. He put a pair of sweats on me and picked me up. 

"Shh its all over now. Shh I'm hear baby girl I'm here." He whispered. I stopped crying but I was still shaking. Harry brought me to his bus. The boys looked really worried. I geuss that we had stopped for gas. Jay had let them take me. I looked out the window to see Tom and Max arguing. Niall yelled for the bus driver to start driving. We started our long trip across country to Seattle. 

"I'm need some time to myself." I said. Harry looked at me with concern in his eyes. Everyone nodded understanding that it was probably best. I got up and took a few steps. My legs grew weak. I fell and Harry went to help me.

"Stop! I can do it myself!" I yelled. "I don't need to be carried around like a fucking child, god I don't need you!" I snapped. His eyes filled with hurt. 

"Babe please let me help you." He pleaded.

"Harry! I don't fucking need you or your help I can do things on my own!" I yelled. I stood up and tried to walk a bit. I stumbled but stayed up. 

"Like fuck you don't need me! If it weren't for me and my 'help' then you would still be tied to that fucking bed getting raped!" He snapped. 

"If it weren't for you I wouldn't be in this situation!" I yelled. 

"Yeah you would be dead at the bottom of a fucking river!" He spat. 

"That would be better than this." I said. I turned around and walked into the bunk area and climbed into Niall's. I started to cry. 

Harry's POV

I ran my hand through my hair. I was a dick. I lent against a wall and sunk down. Louis sat next to me. 

"She hates me." I mumbled.

"Yeah probably." He said bluntly.

"Thanks mate." I said. He chuckled.

"Haz what you said was horrible. You don't think. Just give her some time. You might be lucky if she even looks at you again. I love you and all but hearing that made me want to hit you." He said. Even though his words were harsh I knew it was the truth. I knew that even though I was an ass he was still there for me. Dani came up to me and sat next to me. 

"Harry, I know you didn't mean what you said. But the fact is, is that she feels like a cheap whore because of it, like a broken toy that can't be fixed. She doesn't like to be waited on it just makes her feel weak. But she still loves you." She said. 

"How do you know she probably hates me more than Nathan." I muttered. She opened her phone and showed me the texts that she and Logan sent. One was like a dagger to my heart. 

"The fact that he used the fact that I was tied up and anally raped twice within minutes just proves the point that I'm weak and worthless nothing but a cheap whore. I am right Dani, I just want to die. How could I ever believe that HARRY STYLES of one direction the mega superstar ever loved me. But yet I fell truly madly deeply in love with him and I still do."

I started to cry. I made her feel like that, I did that to her. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I started to sob. I felt like shit. I did something I swore to my mum that I would never do again. I found a razor and slid it across my hips 4 times on each side. I cleaned everything up and hide the razor in  a bag on the top self. I fixed my hair and stepped out. The boys tried to talk to me but I walked right past them to the bunk areas. I went into my bunk and laid down. I flipped through twitter. I looked at my mentions. Hate filling it. 

@HATEHARRY : @HarryStyles fucking idiot, go kill yourself you homo

@MAHOMIESWGGIEBIEBER: @HarryStyles heard of a razor? Well use it and do the world a favor and kill yourself

@Fuck_You_Harry : @HarryStyles Such a dumb cunt. Go die you stupid gay asses motherfucker! 

@IHATE1D : God I tolerate 1D but hate @HarryStyles He looked like a stupid gay ass mother fucker. I heard he beats his girlfriend @LoGaNpArKeR poor girl. Harry go kill yourself.

And many more like that. Tear poured out of my eyes. I looked on trends and two of them were KILLYOURSELFHARRY and #DIEHARRY I continued to read the hate. 

"FUCK YOU"I yelled and tossed my phone at the edge of the bunk and cried. I understood why Logan would hate me or the boys but random people. It hurt. I cried and cried. I looked at my cracked screen. I continued to scroll through my mentions. I saw a twitter feud.

@THEWANTEDARE_THEBEST: @LoGaNpArKeR you should have never left Nathan he is perfection. Why would you dumb him and move to trash like @HarryStyles. He is such a dumb ass motherfucker. He hits you too!

@LoGaNpArKeR: Fuck you @THEWANTEDARE_THEBEST! @HarryStyles Is a fucking god. He is sexy and kind, British  and a gentleman plus he can sing. If you look in the dictionary for the definition of perfection Harry's name come up. I love him with all my heart. We have our ups and downs like other relationships but he wouldn't dare hit me. And Nathan is a fucking wannabee! He is the one who hit me, I could care less about him. He could get hit by a car and I would laugh. Cause Karma is a bitch! So watch out slut.

@THEWANTEDARE_THEBEST: Bitch you are the dumbest fuck ever know one likes you!

@LoGaNpArKeR: Okay go wait in line with the rest of the bitches waiting for me to give a fuck, cause I don't wake up everyday trying to impress you.

I smiled. But I continued to scroll. Tears started to fall again. I felt a hand rub circles on my back. 

"Why do you seek out the hate?" A voice asked. I looked up to see Logan. 

"I want to know that I'm right for hating myself. They are right, I'm stupid, worthless and I sure as hell don't deserve you." I said in a hushed tone. 

"Well Haz you are wrong. Remember in 5th grade when you told me to never listen to anyone else but myself and always love me for me. Well looks like you need to practice what you preach." She said. I latched onto her waist and pulled her in. We snuggled up together. 

"I love you so much you know that right?" I asked her. 

"I know and I love you too Haz." She whispered back.


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