Lost in Love. ♥

Living with my best friend Sibel in London can be really funny. Especially when you're close to the boys of One Direction. I have known Niall now for more than 16 years and now here I am sharing a house with him in a private place in London city. Everything has it's ups and downs but finally everything's perfect and nothing other than just perfect.


35. When I was your man


Louis' P.O.V.

I grabbed my jacket and went into the livingroom to hear Seyhan talking to someone on the phone.

'Sounds perfect, see ya' she says into the phone before hanging up.

As I entered the room she looked up at me smiling.

'Who was on the line?' I ask walking around searching for my phone.

' A friend. Are you off to Zayn's?'  she smile at me as I grab my phone from the cupboard right next to the TV.

'Yeah I'm about to leave and you're sure you're alright with that? I mean 4 hours are quite a long time ' I laugh.

'Yeah I think i'll survive.' she laughs. 'Besides, my friend is coming over while you're away.. do you mind?' she asks a bit uneasy.

'No it's alright, go ahead I'll be fine' I smile walking over to her kissing her cheek before grabbing my keys and walking towards the door.

'Have fun,Lou' she shouts before I open the door.

'You too' I shout back closing the door behind me.


As I finally arrived I went straight to the door and knocked.

No answer. I knocked again and again. Still no answer.

Okay, that's strange. I take out my phone and dial his number.

*Ring* .. *Ring* .. *Ring* .. still no answer.

Maybe I have to come back later. 

But my thought is interrupted by someone calling my name.

I turn around to see Liam standing right infront of me.

'Oh hey Liam, I was just looking for Zayn.. you know where he is?' I ask as he smiles.

'Yeah he went to Niall's. I was also on my way to them.' he told.

'Oh okay then let's go' I smiled and we made our way to Niall's.

I love this place. It's quiet and peaceful. Without any paps and just me the girls and boys. And everything's surrounded by beautiful blue water. It's like a dream. 

Finally we arrived at Niall's and the door was unlocked so we stepped in.

We heard voices coming from the livingroom.

'hey guys' I smile as I saw Abi, Niall and Zayn sitting on the couch who didn't even noticed us.

'oh hey, what are you guys doing here?' Niall smiles at me and then at Liam before we both sit down next to them.

'We wanted to check on Zayn, since he's not been too happy the past days' I said looking over to Zayn who was looking at us quite surprised.

'Well what's going on?' I ask all eyes on me.


Abi's P.O.V.


'Sibel is at Liam's.. she didn't fly to Ireland.. Zayn mumbled sitting back down on the couch.

'What happend again?' Niall asks as Zayn just shrugs.

I sit down next to him forcing him to look at me.

'Zayn , if you keep quite there would be no use for us. You need to talk.' I said trying to sound calm.

'I can't control it Abi..' he mumbles again.

'can't control what?' I ask sternly. By now Niall sat down right in front of us on the single couch watching us.

'my jealousy..' he stated looking up at me. 'I-I think Sibel.. ahm.. she's cheating on m-me' he whispered as my eyes widened.

'What?!' I almost shouted. 'How can you think something like this Zayn?' I yell as Zayn jumps back a little.

'Calm down, Abi it's okay..' I hear Niall from the side. 

'No Niall.. I mean we all know Sibel very well.. she wont ever do something like that! She loves Zayn' I say a bit calmer now.

I turn back to Zayn who is still sitting there quite shocked of my reaction.

'Sorry..' he mumbles.

'No.. I'm sorry.. but Zayn, you know about Sibel, don't you? How can you even think about something like that? She truly loves you and you doubt that..' I shake my head in disbelieve.

'I don't want to.. and I also love her.. you know that! I just want to get her back. But this would be quite difficult..'he says as tears start to build in his eyes.

I move a bit closer to him rubbing his back.

'Shh it's okay.. we'll find a way.. and everything will be alright very soon. I promise' I say as we hear all of a sudden voices in the hall coming towards us.

'hey guys' I hear Louis' voice and we all quickly turn to see him and Liam standing in the doorway.

'oh hey, what are you guys doing here?' Niall asks as they both enter the room and sit down on the couch next to us.

'We wanted to check on Zayn, since he's not been to happy the past days' Louis said looking over to Zayn who was quite surprised as me.

'Well what's going on?' Louis questions. I look over to Zayn quite worried before he takes a deep breath, wiping away his tears and starts to tell us the whole story.


'So you think.. Sibel's cheating on you with.. Chris?' Louis asks confused as Zayn silently nodds.

'I'm afraid Louis.. I don't want to loose her.. but it's getting harder for me if she acts like this' Zayn mumbles.

Liam has been quiet since he arrived. I look over to him to see him struggle to say something but he tries to keep quiet.

'Liam?' I say as he suddenly looks up at me with worried eyes. 'What's wrong?' I ask still confused.

'You are all wrong..' he mumbles. 

'What?' Zayn looks quite irritated, including me , Niall and Louis.

'She's not cheating on you Zayn.. she loves you. She really does. Did you ever thought about the fact that they might be just really good friends? Did you even thought about that she could have needed someone she could talk to and tell everything cause she couldn't talk to you? She needed someone to tell her problems and Chris was there for her. They were kind of best friends. She trusted him. But just in a friendly way. He was there for her in her worest times. When you both got in a little fight he tried to convince her that you truly love her and that she should forgive you. And at the time she got to know about Abi's cancer she just needed somene to talk to since you weren't there and she knew she couldn't even tell you just because of that promise she made to Abi..' he took a deep breath before glaring at Zayn.

'you're completely wrong Zayn. She never tried cheating on you. Infact as I told her you were afraid of loosing her to someone who might be better than her she started crying! You know what her respons was?!' Liam almost shouted.

I looked over to Zayn who was just paralized.

'N-No..' he answered his eyes still fixed on Liam.

Liam let out a small chuckle. ' She told me that she would never want another guy.. she jut wanted you Zayn! she really loved you.. she asked me why she would even think about someone else if she had the most perfect boy by her side! Don't you get it Zayn?! She's being hurt so many times by you but she always forgives you. Always. Because she really loves you and cares about you. I've never seen someone who cared that much about their relationship like Sibel! She doesn't want to loose you!' he yelled.

'I-I didn't k-know..' Zayn whispered still staring at Liam.

I could see the tears which had formed in his eyes were now streaming down his cheeks uncontrolable. That boy really cares about her. 

'Mate, it's gonna be alright..' Niall tries to calm im but the tears keep on going.

'Liam.. where is she now?' I ask turning back to Liam who looks quiet pale.

'Oh..ahm.. she..' he struggles to find the right words.

Zayn's eyes shoot up. 'Liam were is she?' he asks knowing something isn't right.

'You know.. since i started to believe her and I really do trust her.. she ahm.. she went out with Chris..' he stated.

'What?!' Zayn let out a scream before collapsing on the couch.

'You must be kidding!' he yells.

'She needed some rest Zayn.. and she needed a friend..' Liam stated.

'Where are they exactly?' Zayn shooted Liam a glare as he shruggs his shoulder.

'Don't know.. wait I'll text her' he says before pulling out his phone and typing.

We wait a couple of minutes before we got an answer.


Harry's P.O.V.


'hey babe' I smirk at her while leaning in and kissing her softly on her lips.

'hi harry..ahm come in' she blushed opening the door completely so I could step in.

I took of my shoes and jacket before turning to seyhan who's constantly watching my every move.

'What?' I chuckle as she shakes her head saying 'nothing'

I can't help but laugh. She grabs my hand and pulls me into the livingroom sitting me down and then turning to face me.

'Well what do you wanna drink?' she smiles at me.

'Don't know, what you prefer' I blink at her.

She rolles her eyes before hadding to the kitchen.

'I'll make us some tea, you go and select a movie' she shouts from the kitchen.

I stand up and walk over to the cupboard where Louis puts all his DvD's.

I take out Love Actually, my favorite movie and turn on the TV.

'which one have you selected?' I hear Seyhan's voice as she enters the room with two cups of hot tea and a package of cookies.

'One of my favorites, Love Actually. You're alright with that?' I smile at her.

'Sure it's one of my favorites too' she smiles back while placing the cups and cookies on the table.

As the film started there was an awkward silence between both of us but after about half an hour Seyhan was cuddeled up into my chest as we were both lying on the couch with a blanket wrabbed around us.

I could feel her soft breathing against my chest. I just felt like.. have you ever seen forest gump? better than that..

The silence was broken by her sweet voice and amazing hazel eyes which were staring at me.

'Harry.. can I ask you something?' she almost whispered.

I could tell she was kind of nervous. I grabbed her waist pulling her even more closer into my chest so she wouldn't feel that way anymore. She needs to feel safe with me. She needs to trust me.

She smiles at me as I look down at her kissing her forhead. 

'What is it?' I ask still looking at her holding her tightly.

'What.. are we? I mean.. ahm.. I don't know how to ask.. I mean.. are we kind of-' she started to say but looked at me worried as my thight grip loosened.

I looked down into her beautiful eyes before pulling her close and placing my lips gently on hers.

Our lips started to move in sync as I rolled on top of her without breaking the kiss. My tongue

slowely entered her mouth fighting for dominance. I could feel her smile through that kiss.

I guess she got her answer. I pull away still looking into those sparkling hazel eyes. 

'I love you' I whisper before placing my lips again on hers and kissing her with passion until we both are interrupted by someone.

I pull back turning around to see Louis completely red and full of anger standing in front of us.



Zayn's P.O.V.

'they are at the club..' Liam stated.

I don't know what came over me but I couldn't control the tears anymore. I let myself fall back on the couch my head resting in my hands. And there they go. Even more tears are now running down my face. I've lost her. I've completely lost her.

I didn't even notice Liam grabbed his jacket and pulled it on until he threw my jacket towards me. I looked up at him surprised as he grabed his keys and my hand at the same time.

'We need to sort this out, Zayn. You're gonna talk to her. I'll drive' Liam stated before dragging me towards the front door. I looked back to see Abi smiling at me. I look at her confused as she just nodded. 'Everythings gonna be alright' she mouthed as I smiled and we walked outside.

As we arrived I quickly got out of the car. Liam told me he would be waiting at his car so Sibel and I can talk in private and only her and I. I really love her and I want to get her back.

The club was extremly full. Thank god Liam gave me one of his snapbacks otherwise everyone would have noticed me. I quickly walked through the crowds searching for Sibel.

Then all of a sudden I saw her.

She was sitting on the bar right next to Chris. I wanted to walk over to them and talk to her but something deep inside of me stopped me. Was she laughing? Yes. She seemed really happy. I just stood there watching her. She was beautiful. Shes smiling and blushing all the time.

I can't go over there. I would just let her smile fade. She needs to be happy. And if that's not with me.. I should accept that. 

'Zayn Malik?' I heard someone whisper from behind. Shit.

I turned around and to my relief it was just the manager of the club.

'hello' I smiled as he took my hand for shake.

'I'm so glad you're here tonight!' the manager seemed really excited.

'It's my pleasure' I still smiled trying to avoid the guilty feeling i had had inside.

'Would you mind.. sing a little song for all the guest Mr. Malik?' he suddenly asked.

I don't want to be rude. So i just nodded. The manager was way too excited as he dragged me to the back of the stage without anyone noticing. At the same time I think this is my way to tell her what I really feel. I can't put it in words but maybe in a song.

'Excuse me, ladies and gentleman' the manager cleared his voice on the stage as I still stood behind it so no one could really see me but my eyes were only fixed on her. Sibel.

'Today seems to be a really special day cause a really special person is right here with us now. Please put your hands together and welcome the one and only - Zayn Malik' he shouted into the mic and everyone started to go crazy. Yes everyone. But the only thing I could see the shock in Sibels eyes as she stared at me while I was walking up the stairs to the stage.

I grabbed the mic without looking anywhere else than into those beautiful sparkling blue eyes of Sibel. 

'This one is for the most beautiful and important girl in my life. Sibel? I love you' I said into the microphone as the DJ started to play.

I could see tears forming in her eyes but she could hardly move. She just stood there staring at me as I began to sing.


When I was your man - Cover Max Schneider.


Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now

Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same

When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down

Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

And it all just sounds like uh , uh , uh


Hmmm too young , too dumb to realize

That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand

Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance

Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.


My pride, my ego my needs and my selfish ways 

Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life

Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made

And it hurts me every time I close my eyes


It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh


Too young, too dumb to realizes

That I should have bought you flower and held your hand

Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance

Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.


Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong

Oh, I know I'm probably much too late

To try and apologize for my mistakes

But I just want you to know...


I stop singing while letting a small tear running down my cheeks as suddenly everthings quiet.

I take a deep breath before singing the last lines my eyes wandering from Sibel over to Chris


I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds you hand

Give you all his hours when he has the chance

Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance

Do all the things I should have done when I was your man..

Do all the things I should have done.. when I was your man.


I watch as everyone claps their hands. I smile thanking them but soon my smile fades as I saw Sibel turning around and leaving the club trying so hard not to cry.

I walk down as a few people started to come over to me asking for pictures and autograph. There wasn't a lot of teenagers so it wasn't that bad. I finally walked through the crowed over to Chris who just stood there paralized watching my every move.

'Take care of her.. she deserves to be happy' I said patting on his shoulder. He just shove it off.

'Stop beeing like this Zayn. She truly loves you. Only you and we both know that' he spat before walking out of the club aswell. All eyes were on us. I don't wanted to cause any scene but thats what happens when you're a celebrity and in a public place.

But maybe.. Chris is right?



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