Lost in Love. ♥

Living with my best friend Sibel in London can be really funny. Especially when you're close to the boys of One Direction. I have known Niall now for more than 16 years and now here I am sharing a house with him in a private place in London city. Everything has it's ups and downs but finally everything's perfect and nothing other than just perfect.


13. Jessica.



Abi's P.O.V.


I woke up early in this morning. This is a little bit strange cause I'm that kind of person who would sleep the whole day if it was possible. 

I looked over to the clock. 8.34am.

Josh was still asleep. He looked so sexy. I just stared at him while a lot of questions ran through my mind.

I decided to get up and make myself ready to leave. I have to talk to Niall. It doesn't feel like he's completely alright with that.

I tried to get slowly out of the bed without waking Josh.

Suddenly a strong arm grabbed my wrist and i felt myself falling back on the bed.

'Where do you think you'll leave , baby?' Josh grinned.

He placed a soft kiss on my lips and smiled.

'I just wanted to make myself ready , you know go back to Niall.. he's probably getting worried' I said a bit confused.

'Oh come on Abi' he said turning me to face him. ' Now YOU are the one who is over reacting. I mean Niall knows you're here. There's no need to get worried. He's 19 and knows how to handle with life. It's just for a few hours. Please stay.

I sighed. I tried to sit up but he pulled me back down. I let out a little laughter and he pulled his lips to mine. We kissed for about 10 seconds which felt like hours until he pulled back.

He glanced at me.

He's so beautiful and his shining brown eyes are just adorable.

'Abi? Can I ask you something?' he said a bit nervous.

'Yeah , what is it?' I smiled still staring into his beautiful eyes.

'Last night.. you had that little argument with Niall and.. ahm you told him You're my girlfriend' he mumbled.

I sighed.

'Oh ahm.. yeah I-I don't know really why I mean.. ahm it just came out of my mouth.' I got a little bit tensed. What if he doesn't see me like his girlfriend? What if this is just 'nothing' and he doesn't feel the same way I do?

I felt tears built in my eyes and turned around to face the wall.

I don't want to cry. Not now. I mean I love him and I don't want to loose him. But He doesn't feel the same for me. Why am I so stupid? A tear escaped my eye and I tried to wipe it away quickly.

Suddenly i felt strong arms wrap around my waist. Josh pulled me close to him and kissed my neck.

I turned around and he stared into my watery eyes.

He ran his soft fingers up and down my cheek.

'Abi you don't have to cry. There's no need for it. I'm happy you said that because I didn't know how to say it to Niall. I didn't know how to ask you I mean I love you and I want to be with you forever. I'm just so happy you're mine. I can't put that in words' he stated.

I smiled and hugged him tightly. Another Tear escaped my eye but this time because of happyness. The tear hitted his neck and he recognised I was crying.

he pulled back to look in my eyes.

'There's no need to cry until I'm with you , babe' he smiled at me and kissed me.


Niall's P.O.V


The boys are sitting in the living room while i went up to get a shower.

They said they would stay with me this evening so I can hang out about with them and forget about everything whats happening now around me. 

The boys are so cute sometimes I am really glad to have such a great relationship to them all.

Even though I can't stop thinking about Abi. I'm scared. I really am. When I think back to the time he was dating Jessica I just feel shivers run through my body.


*flashback - 2 years ago*


' When do you come back again to Ireland Ni? I miss u xx - Abi' I read on my phone while a smile appearce on my face. I haven't seen her since october last year. That's quite a big time for best friend without seeing each other. I miss her. But the only reason I can survive this next few weeks is because of Jessica. She's really close to me. Just like Abi but Jessica is like a sister to me. She's dating my best friend Josh. Everytime I'm upset because I miss Abi she talks to me and makes me feel better. She's really helpful and a person who's smiling the whole time. Just like Abi. 

Those two girls are that important to me I can't even put in words.

' 2 weeks love , and'll be right back' I replied.

I put my phone back into my backpocket of my skinny's.

I'm about to enter the hall when suddenly the frontdoor slams open and Josh walks in.

'Hey mate , what's going on? Wanna come with me to a party tonight? Jessica feels sick and I don't want to go alone' he mumbles.

'Are you mad? Jess is sick and you wanna go to a Party? How about you cancel the party and go take care of your girlfriend?' I got a bit angry. He's such a jerk when it comes to partys.

'I know man but she said she's fine and she can handle it. Well if you wont come , I'll get someone else - see ya' he sais while closing the door behind him and walks away.

I think I should call the boys and cancel the interview because I don't want Jessica to be alone.

When I arrived at Josh's I could hear someone yelling and screaming. Josh.

I ran up to the door and opened it.

Glases were broken into pieces at the ground and Jessica was sitting in the left corner crying.

I could see Josh staring at me from the couch as I walked in.

'What do you want?' he asked pissed of.

'What happend?' I asked a bit surprised.

Jessica looked up at me and I could see a scratch on the left side of her neck.

'Jessica.. yo-you're bleeding' I said while walking over to her. I pulled her close to me and she started sobbing and crying even more louder.

I felt anger was building in my soul.

I let go of her and walked over to Josh and grabbed his collar.

'WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?' I yelled trying to control my anger a bit.

'why do you care? she's my girlfriend and I can do anything to her. you understand?' he replied with a cheeky grin playing on his face.

I pushed him against the wall hard. ' Just.stop.this.shit' i hissed as i let go of him and walked through the door back to my car.


- 4 hours later -

It was in the middle of the night as I woke up by the sound of my phone ringing.

I grabbed it without openin my eyes and answered it.

'Hello?' i asked yawning.

'Ni-Niall`?' I heard a shaky voice on the other line.

'Jessica? What happend?' my eyes shoot open and I sat up on my bed.

'I-I'm leaving. I can't live with him. He's such an asshole. Sorry Niall' she said crying into the phone.

'Wait! Just tell me what happend and where are you?!' I got tensed.

'He went to the party. After you left. Then he came about 2hours later back. With a slut.

He was fully drunk and tried to beat me. I just grabbed my phone and ran out of that house. 

I-I am just in the middle of nowhere. It's like a highway but a bit smaller and it looks like a big forest. I'm scared Niall. I can't handle this anymore' she said scary and hung up. 

I got worried. I called Louis and explained everything to him and he drove to me in about 10min. He's such a great friend. I got into his car and we drove back to Josh's.

It was raining quite hard. I tried to call Jessica but the phone was off.

Suddenly I remembered the forest just 2min away from Josh's. It's on the end of a big road. Probably the 'highway' she talked about on the phone.

'Lou ! I know where she is. Just drive this way' I said quickly and he turned around and followed my  explanation. 

We arrived about 4 mins on the end of the big road. There were a lot of flashlights on and we stuck in trafic. I got tensed. I got out of the car and ran over to see what caused the traffic.

Then I saw it. 

A truck hit a person without knowing because of the darkness. 

Soon I recognised it was her. Jessica.

She was laying on the ground blood pooring out of her side head and she was surrounded by 4 police officers. 

'JESSICA!' I shouted getting through the crowd of people which has built. Louis was  right behind me. One of the police man came over to me. ' You know her?' he asked.

'Yeah , really well what happend?' 

'She ran down the road and a truck came just infront of her. The driver tried to move away but because of the heavy storm it was to late and he hit her. She's unconcious. She has to go to the hospital. Quickly' he said. Minutes after the ambulance came and lead her in.

Louis and I got back to the car and drove as fast as we could to the hospital.

We waited for about 2 hours tears streaming down my cheek.

'Mate , it's alright don't worry' Louis tried to calm me down while he rubbed my back.

He was worried to , I felt his hand shaking a bit.

Suddenly the Doctor appeard. His face was dull.

'Doctor ! How's she?' I asked tensed.

'Well , Mr. Horan. I'm really sorry but she didn't make it. The truck hit her quite hard and minutes after she arrived she past away. We tried to revive her but without any success. I'm really sorry for you. I should go and let her parents know. If you excuse me' he said walking away.


*end of flashback*


A tear escaped my eyes while thinking back to Jessica. 

I don't really know why I just accepted his sorry. Because of him Jessica died.

That's the reason why Louis hates him too - or just one of the reasons. 

But maybe I had to go on and I mean he was my best friend.

I don't want Abi to be with him. And I really know well about her. If I go now and tell her about what happend to Jessica , she would get even more angry or hurt. She might think I just lie because I don't want her to be with him or she might break down and be sad forever. I don't want her to be sad and I don't want her to cry.

I love her.



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